hey everyone...
I havent blogged in a while. Sadly, my spring break is over. I wish I had more of it, I needed more rest n more fun ^^ The whole week I just spend time at home resting, relaxing, cleaning and cooking. Weekend was pretty fun, got to spend time with him. I love the feeling of friday, when you know weekend is just right around the corner, it's like YES! FINALLY! time to relax....enjoy my weekend....n of coz see bubbaa. :) Now, back to reality. Back to working my butt off and study hard!
Today, I just realized that my Professor deducted some points off my exam when I actually answered it correctly! Thanks to Will, I never would've caught that mistake he made. I wanted my 2 points...I'm telling you, 2 points made a big difference! Fortunately, I talked to him after class in his office and he gave me the extra 2 points. He said "sorry" and told me that I will pass the class :) That just made my day. Not the part where he gave me the 2 points, but correcting him and proving him wrong!!!!! hahahaha...I actually had to argue with him that I earned that full 6 points though. You know what I realize? Some teachers think that their always correct and smart, but you know, that is so not true! Yes they may be smart, but they are not always correct. We gotta stand up for ourselves if we know they're wrong! I'm happy I did. ^^
It almost 11pm but I'm not so sleepy yet, though I should be getting my beauty sleep :/ I worked out today in the gym!!!! If you guys followed me in Twitter, ya probably know! hahaha. I did 30 mins of treadmill, some crunches, n` bicycle. I dont know what its called, but it looked like a bicycle? Anyway, I'm loving twitter so much these days. I've been tweeting like crazy. I dont even know if that's normal or not. I seriously am a twitter-olic. hehehe. I just realized yesterday that some people who followed me, unfollowed me because I twitter ever minute and sometimes every second! hahaha, they're probably annoyed by my tweets, but I do have a life :) It just so happens that iphone has a twitter application, and since me and my phone is untouchable and unseperatable(sp?), I tweet every second or every chance I get! It's so convienient I'm telling you. :)
Olrightt, I think i'll leave it for now. I'll write more when I have something interesting to talk about. til then bloggers. ;)
Blessed night,
Jess
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
3 Advice to Save Money
So I was reading some news on the economy earlier, and for once in my life, I'm beginning to worry how America is going to end up. I think this is affecting everybody, and I hope they do fix it soon.The worse case scenerio is America can repeat it's history: The Depression! I'm just thankful that neither of my parents got layed off(sp?) from their jobs, and I'm so thankful that I'm not layed off either, though I only work two days. Still, though, I'm still thankful that God is still providing me. So I thought to myself, in a time like this, with the economy so crazy like this, what should we do? hmm....Ding ding ding, SAVE MONEY! And what I meant to save money is to reduce your spendings, especially for personal things. This is probably the hardest thing to do, right? For most people, saving money is not the easiest thing to do. I mean, who doesnt love to spend moolah? So here are 3 steps or advice if you will, that I thought how to save money. Obviously, these are just my advice. Maybe you have a different way of doing it? If so, share with me :)
1.) Try not eat out too much- Believe it or not, eating out is such a waste of money! Of course its always good for a change. Who doesnt love to eat out especially in your fav resto? duuh, I like to eat out as well. wine and dine...hehe. Once in a while it's okay. But if you eat out everyday, or 4-5 times a week, imagine how much you couldve saved in that week!! Did you know that eating out is also unhealthy? All those oil, and greasyness (depends what you eat though). Try cooking at home, and have some home cooked meal. If youre one of those "organic" type of people, instead of going to Whole Foods, try Trader Joes. Trader Joes is by far cheaper than Whole foods, though they dont have everything Whole food has to offer. But Trader Joes has good quality too. Try calculating how much you can spend in one week if you didnt eat out. I think youll be saving a lot. :)
2.) Decrease the personal consumputions- Does that make sense? Correct me if I said it wrong. What I mean by personal consumptions is personal spendings such as shopping! Again, who doesnt love shopping? I love shopping. If shopping was a sport, I'll probably be best at it. Tempatations is always going to be there. Try to decrease your personal consumptions by not shopping every week or two. If you really need it, then buy it. But if you come across something you truly truly love, think twice. Ask yourself, do you really need this? Now be careful, want and need is a whole different meaning. Do you really want it? YES. do you have to have it? YES. But, do you really need it? If you can live without it, then dont buy it! I'm pretty sure you can live without whatever it is you want! Correct me if I'm wrong! When I step to my fav shopping destinations, I cant help but to try it on and purchase it. When something i see is unique and something that i absolutely adore, I have that sense of feeling that I just GOTTA have it or else it'll be gone the next time i go there. Yes, that may be true, but you know what my mom once told me? Fashion is always going to keep coming at you. I think what she means is that there will always be new styles and new cloths going in to the market. We will always want something that we dont have, but its on us to limit ourselves! I'm pretty sure 90% of the personal consumptions we want, we dont need!
3.) Piggy Bank- Try putting $50 every week of every two weeks in your piggy bank. If possible, purchase a piggy bank that is hard to open. Have you seen one of those hard glass piggy banks that is impossible to open unless you crack it open? Yea, thats what I meant. Purchase that one! That way, youre not tempted to open your piggy bank. Imagine putting $50 every week for 6 months, by the end of that 6 months period, you can save at least $1200. Correct me if I'm wrong again. My math skills isnt so great. ^^ This is a good habit, trust me. I'm in the process of trying this thing out. hehhe.
There are many many ways to save up and reduce your spendings. These 3 advice are just some that I'm working on right now. If you have some, do share with me.
Gnite bloggers.
1.) Try not eat out too much- Believe it or not, eating out is such a waste of money! Of course its always good for a change. Who doesnt love to eat out especially in your fav resto? duuh, I like to eat out as well. wine and dine...hehe. Once in a while it's okay. But if you eat out everyday, or 4-5 times a week, imagine how much you couldve saved in that week!! Did you know that eating out is also unhealthy? All those oil, and greasyness (depends what you eat though). Try cooking at home, and have some home cooked meal. If youre one of those "organic" type of people, instead of going to Whole Foods, try Trader Joes. Trader Joes is by far cheaper than Whole foods, though they dont have everything Whole food has to offer. But Trader Joes has good quality too. Try calculating how much you can spend in one week if you didnt eat out. I think youll be saving a lot. :)
2.) Decrease the personal consumputions- Does that make sense? Correct me if I said it wrong. What I mean by personal consumptions is personal spendings such as shopping! Again, who doesnt love shopping? I love shopping. If shopping was a sport, I'll probably be best at it. Tempatations is always going to be there. Try to decrease your personal consumptions by not shopping every week or two. If you really need it, then buy it. But if you come across something you truly truly love, think twice. Ask yourself, do you really need this? Now be careful, want and need is a whole different meaning. Do you really want it? YES. do you have to have it? YES. But, do you really need it? If you can live without it, then dont buy it! I'm pretty sure you can live without whatever it is you want! Correct me if I'm wrong! When I step to my fav shopping destinations, I cant help but to try it on and purchase it. When something i see is unique and something that i absolutely adore, I have that sense of feeling that I just GOTTA have it or else it'll be gone the next time i go there. Yes, that may be true, but you know what my mom once told me? Fashion is always going to keep coming at you. I think what she means is that there will always be new styles and new cloths going in to the market. We will always want something that we dont have, but its on us to limit ourselves! I'm pretty sure 90% of the personal consumptions we want, we dont need!
3.) Piggy Bank- Try putting $50 every week of every two weeks in your piggy bank. If possible, purchase a piggy bank that is hard to open. Have you seen one of those hard glass piggy banks that is impossible to open unless you crack it open? Yea, thats what I meant. Purchase that one! That way, youre not tempted to open your piggy bank. Imagine putting $50 every week for 6 months, by the end of that 6 months period, you can save at least $1200. Correct me if I'm wrong again. My math skills isnt so great. ^^ This is a good habit, trust me. I'm in the process of trying this thing out. hehhe.
There are many many ways to save up and reduce your spendings. These 3 advice are just some that I'm working on right now. If you have some, do share with me.
Gnite bloggers.
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Hey everybodyyy,
How was everyone's weekend? MINES SUCK. Yea, unfortunately my weekend was a nightmare. :( But the good news is I'm finally on spring break! I am super happy. I love the feeling of waking up late and not worrying about being late to class. I love the fact that I dont have to set my alarm clock 7oclock am in the morning. But unfortunately, I do have some work I have to get done for my marketing class online. :/ I'll probably do that tomorrow. Ahhhh, today was very very unproductive. I stayed home all day. Woke up at 11 am, cooked breakfast for him and watched t.v the entire day!!!!!!!!!!! IMAGINE THAT. I havent done that for such a long time now, considering that fact that I have morning class. I love the feeling of being a potatoe couch, but it feels like I'm being a bum in the same time! hahaha. Tomorrow will be productive, I hope.
Before I forget, I wanna send my March birthday wishes to all the birthday gals and guys out there. Dhita, Della, & Chandra. Hepppi bday you guys!!!
Remembered I colored my hair black a month ago? Well guess what? It turned back to my natural hair color before I dyed it black, which is brown :/ I thought the brand I used was pretty good considering that it was a Japanese brand. Turns out it wasnt as great as Loreal. The reason why I didnt use Loreal is cause I dyed it black once before in high school, and the result was completely hideous. It was not your natural black hair color, it looked like someone painted a black paint all over your hair. That 's why I didnt chose Loreal to color my hair black. Oh well, its okay. Bf likes my hair color brown/light brown...I like it darker. I wont color my hair lighter FOR YOU! hehehe.. ^^ I just like that natural brown, not those light brown/japanese girl slutty light brown color. (dont know how else to explain it) nono, just not me. Umm, I think I want to grow my bangs out this time. I've been having my bangs pretty short for the last couple of months. It's just so hard to take care of my bangs! I think this time I'll grow it out up till my chin and then go to the salon n let my hair dresser do their thang! hehhee.
Every sunday after church, it has been a routine for me and my bf to watch CSI MIAMI togeather. oh goshhhh, when it comes to CSI, I'm addicted to it! It's so interesting and I cant even take my eyes off the tv. Usually it plays from 9 pm to 1 am, back to back. So me and jastien would watch it continously until we fall asleep, and until it's time for him to go home. hehehe. Must watch it. ^^
I know this blog is pretty useless. Just updates, randomness, and nothing else to say. Hmm....I dont know what else to say. I'm just wasting time...tu tu duu, life is good.
Ok guys, I have nothing else to write. I'll write more when i have something GOOD to share and worth writing.
Until then, caio bella...
Jess
How was everyone's weekend? MINES SUCK. Yea, unfortunately my weekend was a nightmare. :( But the good news is I'm finally on spring break! I am super happy. I love the feeling of waking up late and not worrying about being late to class. I love the fact that I dont have to set my alarm clock 7oclock am in the morning. But unfortunately, I do have some work I have to get done for my marketing class online. :/ I'll probably do that tomorrow. Ahhhh, today was very very unproductive. I stayed home all day. Woke up at 11 am, cooked breakfast for him and watched t.v the entire day!!!!!!!!!!! IMAGINE THAT. I havent done that for such a long time now, considering that fact that I have morning class. I love the feeling of being a potatoe couch, but it feels like I'm being a bum in the same time! hahaha. Tomorrow will be productive, I hope.
Before I forget, I wanna send my March birthday wishes to all the birthday gals and guys out there. Dhita, Della, & Chandra. Hepppi bday you guys!!!
Remembered I colored my hair black a month ago? Well guess what? It turned back to my natural hair color before I dyed it black, which is brown :/ I thought the brand I used was pretty good considering that it was a Japanese brand. Turns out it wasnt as great as Loreal. The reason why I didnt use Loreal is cause I dyed it black once before in high school, and the result was completely hideous. It was not your natural black hair color, it looked like someone painted a black paint all over your hair. That 's why I didnt chose Loreal to color my hair black. Oh well, its okay. Bf likes my hair color brown/light brown...I like it darker. I wont color my hair lighter FOR YOU! hehehe.. ^^ I just like that natural brown, not those light brown/japanese girl slutty light brown color. (dont know how else to explain it) nono, just not me. Umm, I think I want to grow my bangs out this time. I've been having my bangs pretty short for the last couple of months. It's just so hard to take care of my bangs! I think this time I'll grow it out up till my chin and then go to the salon n let my hair dresser do their thang! hehhee.
Every sunday after church, it has been a routine for me and my bf to watch CSI MIAMI togeather. oh goshhhh, when it comes to CSI, I'm addicted to it! It's so interesting and I cant even take my eyes off the tv. Usually it plays from 9 pm to 1 am, back to back. So me and jastien would watch it continously until we fall asleep, and until it's time for him to go home. hehehe. Must watch it. ^^
I know this blog is pretty useless. Just updates, randomness, and nothing else to say. Hmm....I dont know what else to say. I'm just wasting time...tu tu duu, life is good.
Ok guys, I have nothing else to write. I'll write more when i have something GOOD to share and worth writing.
Until then, caio bella...
Jess
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thoughts
I just finised by quiz and don`t feel like going home, so why not blog again? ^^ I bit my inner lips by accident and it hurts so much. I cant even open my mouth, seems like my face cannot function appropriately. :/
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I was reading my previous blogs, like I always do. I kind of regret deleting my previous blogs from '06. I knew one day I'll say this, and yes, I'm saying it right now. I shouldnt have delete them, but I had to get over it, that's why I delete everything to earase all the memories. But evidently, it isn`t working. One of the things I like to do is reading my previous blogs, to see any transitions or changes, memories etc...To think of it now, I just wish I never deleted those posts. But I guess I did it for a good purpose? I became more aware as to what I write here in my blog. I always believed what I write here is for the sake of myself; to reveal my feelings and emotions, but now, I feel that I need to filter what I say in my blog. I dont want people to get a wrong impression of me. I really am thankful for everything I have right now, thankful for everybody who is a part of my life. I'm truly embracing the place I'm in right now. But, can a person control their feelings and emotions? I myself, can not even control my own thoughts. I cant tell my mind to think this and not to think that. At times, I feel quite "stupid" and "immature" for thinking about it. There really is no reason to think about it. Sometimes the thought of it appears in mind in the most wrong and odd times of the day. When I'm putting my shoes on..when I'm making breakfast...or simply when I'm putting a jacket on. Sometimes when I take a walk outside, the breeze, the cold weather, that ambiance is still there. I really want a closure, a complete closure. I dont take it emotionally or personally to the heart. I really am happy now, to have him in my life. Having someone love and care for me this much with this crazy attitude of mines really does mean something to me. His probably the most greatest thing that has happen to me. I dont think can picture my life without him, but again, it is God's will. kalo jodoh, ngak bkl kemana2. kalo dari Tuhan, smua bkl go smooth. I'm still trying to figure out...trying to dig up, but I cant find myself a concrete reason why I'm still thinking about it. What are the chances that it thinks of me? I feel completely bodoh. Mikirin orng yg ga mikirin loe, bodoh bgt seh jes! At the end of the day, I realize that what I'm doing isnt right. Though I'm not doing anything wrong, the thought of it makes me feel guilty, as if it's a wrong thing to think about it. I think what I need to do is completely get over it. I need to throw away and forget. Everytime I think about it, I need to just completely let go. I think all this time, I'm very capable to do that, but I allow myself to sink in and let my thoughts take over me. For years, I've realized this is what I've been doing. I cant simply pretend it has never been a part of me, but I think I can officially get over it foreal this time. duuhh jess, loe harus!!!
I think this is a closure for me. I think I've had enough, its time to really let go. I dont think I can promise myself to never think about it, because I always do, but I need to do this for myself.
blessed day to all,
Jess
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I was reading my previous blogs, like I always do. I kind of regret deleting my previous blogs from '06. I knew one day I'll say this, and yes, I'm saying it right now. I shouldnt have delete them, but I had to get over it, that's why I delete everything to earase all the memories. But evidently, it isn`t working. One of the things I like to do is reading my previous blogs, to see any transitions or changes, memories etc...To think of it now, I just wish I never deleted those posts. But I guess I did it for a good purpose? I became more aware as to what I write here in my blog. I always believed what I write here is for the sake of myself; to reveal my feelings and emotions, but now, I feel that I need to filter what I say in my blog. I dont want people to get a wrong impression of me. I really am thankful for everything I have right now, thankful for everybody who is a part of my life. I'm truly embracing the place I'm in right now. But, can a person control their feelings and emotions? I myself, can not even control my own thoughts. I cant tell my mind to think this and not to think that. At times, I feel quite "stupid" and "immature" for thinking about it. There really is no reason to think about it. Sometimes the thought of it appears in mind in the most wrong and odd times of the day. When I'm putting my shoes on..when I'm making breakfast...or simply when I'm putting a jacket on. Sometimes when I take a walk outside, the breeze, the cold weather, that ambiance is still there. I really want a closure, a complete closure. I dont take it emotionally or personally to the heart. I really am happy now, to have him in my life. Having someone love and care for me this much with this crazy attitude of mines really does mean something to me. His probably the most greatest thing that has happen to me. I dont think can picture my life without him, but again, it is God's will. kalo jodoh, ngak bkl kemana2. kalo dari Tuhan, smua bkl go smooth. I'm still trying to figure out...trying to dig up, but I cant find myself a concrete reason why I'm still thinking about it. What are the chances that it thinks of me? I feel completely bodoh. Mikirin orng yg ga mikirin loe, bodoh bgt seh jes! At the end of the day, I realize that what I'm doing isnt right. Though I'm not doing anything wrong, the thought of it makes me feel guilty, as if it's a wrong thing to think about it. I think what I need to do is completely get over it. I need to throw away and forget. Everytime I think about it, I need to just completely let go. I think all this time, I'm very capable to do that, but I allow myself to sink in and let my thoughts take over me. For years, I've realized this is what I've been doing. I cant simply pretend it has never been a part of me, but I think I can officially get over it foreal this time. duuhh jess, loe harus!!!
I think this is a closure for me. I think I've had enough, its time to really let go. I dont think I can promise myself to never think about it, because I always do, but I need to do this for myself.
blessed day to all,
Jess
It's still har.d for all of us Dai..
hey everybodyy,
I`m here at Starbucks finishing up my online quiz for marketing before I head to work. Going to work yesterday was quite difficult. I really felt that tension, it seems like everywhere I go, I see him. Although I was never close to him, I was once his friend and he made a great impact in my life. We shared, we laughed, we had one of those deep talks on the way home from work, and now his gone. Its really hard, and not just for me, but for everyone. I question myself since the day his gone, "why?" Then I realized. Though his gone, he made such a big impact to all his friends life. He is such a nice person, very humble and kind. My manager, my other co workers, even the amigos in the back felt that loss at work. I passed by the bridge that he got hit, and there were a lot of flowers and sincere cards etc....There were a whole bunch of people too just staring and pondering. Its too fast Dai, its too soon. Youre too good. When I'm at work and its busy, I'm alright....when I'm at school and I'm studying I'm fine. But when its quiet, and at the end of the day, the thought of him leaving and the question "why?" is always on my mind. A person that I was never so close to really had an impact in my life. I try not to fret, not to be sad, not to cry. I know dai is in a better place, and I know his save. I really do want to see him for the last time in the funeral, but I cant bare to see him. I really cant. I know the right thing to do is to go, but ever since my grandpa passed away, I couldnt help myself to see another dead body or even a casket. It has always been by phobia, a.ka, "Fear". I want to remember his smile, that is why I chose not to go. People may not understand, I know alot of people who says that they go because its for dai, and I completely understand. If I could handle it, I would go in a heartbeat, but my body and soul can not even function to see a dead body or the thought of a casket!
That's it for now...
I`m here at Starbucks finishing up my online quiz for marketing before I head to work. Going to work yesterday was quite difficult. I really felt that tension, it seems like everywhere I go, I see him. Although I was never close to him, I was once his friend and he made a great impact in my life. We shared, we laughed, we had one of those deep talks on the way home from work, and now his gone. Its really hard, and not just for me, but for everyone. I question myself since the day his gone, "why?" Then I realized. Though his gone, he made such a big impact to all his friends life. He is such a nice person, very humble and kind. My manager, my other co workers, even the amigos in the back felt that loss at work. I passed by the bridge that he got hit, and there were a lot of flowers and sincere cards etc....There were a whole bunch of people too just staring and pondering. Its too fast Dai, its too soon. Youre too good. When I'm at work and its busy, I'm alright....when I'm at school and I'm studying I'm fine. But when its quiet, and at the end of the day, the thought of him leaving and the question "why?" is always on my mind. A person that I was never so close to really had an impact in my life. I try not to fret, not to be sad, not to cry. I know dai is in a better place, and I know his save. I really do want to see him for the last time in the funeral, but I cant bare to see him. I really cant. I know the right thing to do is to go, but ever since my grandpa passed away, I couldnt help myself to see another dead body or even a casket. It has always been by phobia, a.ka, "Fear". I want to remember his smile, that is why I chose not to go. People may not understand, I know alot of people who says that they go because its for dai, and I completely understand. If I could handle it, I would go in a heartbeat, but my body and soul can not even function to see a dead body or the thought of a casket!
That's it for now...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
ill always miss you daisuke.
Hey guys...
These couple of days, since yesterday, hasnt been so pleasant. I just heard from my co worker that one of other co worker has just passed away from a motorcycle accident in millbrae. I was never close to him, but we did worked togeather and he was one of the friendliest guy I've ever met. I really do miss him. The last time I saw him was last thursday after work. I gave him my last hug. It is so wierd because that day, I was crossing the millbrae bridge and saw a accident, and who knew it was him that was laying down in the street. It's hard to even write this, but I feel like he deserves this. Its all of sudden you know? I dont think its fair for him to leave. I dont know this has to happen to him. I try not to think about it, but whenever my thoughts wander off to different things, i always stumble back to the thought of him and it hit me bad, that his really gone for good. I just cant believe youre gone daisuke. This really hit me hard. I realize that God can take anyone in anytime. I learned to be more thankful for everything and everyone that I have in my life. It just makes me realize that anyone you love can just leave you in a instant. I learned now...I learned to show my love to those I never show love to. I give my condolsence to his family. I know how much pain they are going through. I miss you dai. It seems unfair to us, but I know youre in a better place. Ill always keep you in my memories. love ya buddy. :)
These couple of days, since yesterday, hasnt been so pleasant. I just heard from my co worker that one of other co worker has just passed away from a motorcycle accident in millbrae. I was never close to him, but we did worked togeather and he was one of the friendliest guy I've ever met. I really do miss him. The last time I saw him was last thursday after work. I gave him my last hug. It is so wierd because that day, I was crossing the millbrae bridge and saw a accident, and who knew it was him that was laying down in the street. It's hard to even write this, but I feel like he deserves this. Its all of sudden you know? I dont think its fair for him to leave. I dont know this has to happen to him. I try not to think about it, but whenever my thoughts wander off to different things, i always stumble back to the thought of him and it hit me bad, that his really gone for good. I just cant believe youre gone daisuke. This really hit me hard. I realize that God can take anyone in anytime. I learned to be more thankful for everything and everyone that I have in my life. It just makes me realize that anyone you love can just leave you in a instant. I learned now...I learned to show my love to those I never show love to. I give my condolsence to his family. I know how much pain they are going through. I miss you dai. It seems unfair to us, but I know youre in a better place. Ill always keep you in my memories. love ya buddy. :)
Friday, March 13, 2009
hey everybodyy,
I just got home from work a couple of hours ago. took a shower, and now here I am relaxing. TGIF!!! Theres a change of plan tomorrow ^^ Not going to Napa Valley, but Montery Bay. I have been wanting to go there for so long now. Jastien loves aquariums and animals...I dont know why? The reason why I wanted to go there is cause its near Pebble beach and Caramel. If you havent been to Pebble beach, you should go there. The sand is so soft...feels like heaven. So I'm pretty excited....but lets hope he doesnt ruin it by waking up late!!!! Work was pretty busy though. Better than yesterday, but not good enough for a friday night. Usually it'll be packed with people waiting, inside & outside, but i guess it makes sense why it has been slow this couple of days: economy. :/ Dont wanna get into that. haha...
I have been thinking alot lately. With the crazy budget cuts, and considering that next semester and next year will get even worser, I have been thinking to transfer out of SF State. I have always wanted to graduate from one University. The whole transfering process is too hectic and complicated so to speak. But this problem is truly affecting me so much. I hate having only 3 classes, because I'm so used to having more classes. This whole budget cut crisis is just slowing me down from my graduation day. I really do want to get out asap, but with the economy like this, I know the only thing I can do is try to do the best I can and rise above mediocre. Honestly, I really dont think America can regain its economy back, at least not for a few years. What do you think? I heard the SJSU isnt experiencing a whole lot of budget cuts...that's really odd to hear. I wonder if other states are facing budget cuts as deep as us! I need to do some research before I TRANSFER out. haha...
I have always wanted to transfer out to Ohio State University. I was planning to study there after high school, but it is pretty far, and I dont know anyone there. I've always been fascinated about that school....I dont know why. Its always good for a change, you know? Ive always been this city girl. I love the noisy streets and crowded areas, but maybe moving to a whole new city that isnt so crowded like SF can be a good change. This is just something for me to consider. Theres alot of planning and saving up to do, but if anyone can do it, I can do it. Theres no doubt at all. I think the only thing I will fear is change and living alone. Ive always wanted to experience that independency, but to think of it again, it can get really tough. Especially i dont really know anyone there. Maybe one day Ill visit the city and get to know the place a little more just to get comfortable before really considering it. ^^
I can`t believe its already March! Time does go by really fast. It feels like it was just December. I really dont like the way time ticks by so quickly. I just want to savor each and every moment I can, while I can. Looking back, it only amazes me how great our God really is. He stood by me in every step I took, and He is still by me until today. I made mistakes in the past, and sometimes I choose the wrong path, but He is still good and continue to fulfill his promises for me. I remembered when I was still in high school, I was still this little naive girl, but as years flew by, it makes me laugh at all the funny n` "dumb" things I did back in hgh school. I gained some friends & lost some friends. Most relationships and friendships I encountered in the past, I knew it wasnt going to last. I still talk to some of my old friends from time to time but i guess everybody has changed so much since then, and everyone has their own hectic life of theirs. I dont blame `em. I have my own busy life to handle.
And for relationships I've lost in the past, all i have left is my memory with them. I really do miss it. I just wish that we could still be friends, but having a friendship is just like having a relationship. It takes two to make it work. I cant force someone to continue to be friends with me if what they want is not what I want. It makes me more aware now as who my true friends really are. Maybe someday Ill get to see them again...
I just got home from work a couple of hours ago. took a shower, and now here I am relaxing. TGIF!!! Theres a change of plan tomorrow ^^ Not going to Napa Valley, but Montery Bay. I have been wanting to go there for so long now. Jastien loves aquariums and animals...I dont know why? The reason why I wanted to go there is cause its near Pebble beach and Caramel. If you havent been to Pebble beach, you should go there. The sand is so soft...feels like heaven. So I'm pretty excited....but lets hope he doesnt ruin it by waking up late!!!! Work was pretty busy though. Better than yesterday, but not good enough for a friday night. Usually it'll be packed with people waiting, inside & outside, but i guess it makes sense why it has been slow this couple of days: economy. :/ Dont wanna get into that. haha...
I have been thinking alot lately. With the crazy budget cuts, and considering that next semester and next year will get even worser, I have been thinking to transfer out of SF State. I have always wanted to graduate from one University. The whole transfering process is too hectic and complicated so to speak. But this problem is truly affecting me so much. I hate having only 3 classes, because I'm so used to having more classes. This whole budget cut crisis is just slowing me down from my graduation day. I really do want to get out asap, but with the economy like this, I know the only thing I can do is try to do the best I can and rise above mediocre. Honestly, I really dont think America can regain its economy back, at least not for a few years. What do you think? I heard the SJSU isnt experiencing a whole lot of budget cuts...that's really odd to hear. I wonder if other states are facing budget cuts as deep as us! I need to do some research before I TRANSFER out. haha...
I have always wanted to transfer out to Ohio State University. I was planning to study there after high school, but it is pretty far, and I dont know anyone there. I've always been fascinated about that school....I dont know why. Its always good for a change, you know? Ive always been this city girl. I love the noisy streets and crowded areas, but maybe moving to a whole new city that isnt so crowded like SF can be a good change. This is just something for me to consider. Theres alot of planning and saving up to do, but if anyone can do it, I can do it. Theres no doubt at all. I think the only thing I will fear is change and living alone. Ive always wanted to experience that independency, but to think of it again, it can get really tough. Especially i dont really know anyone there. Maybe one day Ill visit the city and get to know the place a little more just to get comfortable before really considering it. ^^
I can`t believe its already March! Time does go by really fast. It feels like it was just December. I really dont like the way time ticks by so quickly. I just want to savor each and every moment I can, while I can. Looking back, it only amazes me how great our God really is. He stood by me in every step I took, and He is still by me until today. I made mistakes in the past, and sometimes I choose the wrong path, but He is still good and continue to fulfill his promises for me. I remembered when I was still in high school, I was still this little naive girl, but as years flew by, it makes me laugh at all the funny n` "dumb" things I did back in hgh school. I gained some friends & lost some friends. Most relationships and friendships I encountered in the past, I knew it wasnt going to last. I still talk to some of my old friends from time to time but i guess everybody has changed so much since then, and everyone has their own hectic life of theirs. I dont blame `em. I have my own busy life to handle.
And for relationships I've lost in the past, all i have left is my memory with them. I really do miss it. I just wish that we could still be friends, but having a friendship is just like having a relationship. It takes two to make it work. I cant force someone to continue to be friends with me if what they want is not what I want. It makes me more aware now as who my true friends really are. Maybe someday Ill get to see them again...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
updates & spring break
hey everybody!!!!!!
I'm feelin` great today, for some reason. THANK GOD finance exam are over. Yesterday was probably the most craziest and busiest day I've ever had to gone through so far this year. I stayed on campus for almost the whole day. I studied like I've never studied before...and I actually did pretty well. I felt somewhat confident but there were some questions that I wasnt sure of. I hope I did well....I heard my prof curves real good, but if someone aced the exam, then most likely its going to screw us all over!
Anyyyway, today I had class from 9-12pm, then went home...watched some lectures for a good 3 hours and now here I am...just chilling on a nice afternoon. Ahh, I feel so productive today! I think once I get in that "study/productive mode", I get used to it..and studying just becomes a habit. Like yesterday, I studied the whole day, and after the exam, I felt a sense of accomplishment and today, it just makes me wanna do better. haha...Let's hope this long enough...
Today is suchhhhh a beautiiiifullllll day. Its been sunny these couple of days but also cold and windy. For some reason, today is just simply beautiful. Wish I didnt have so many things to do, or else I'll be enjoying the sun ;) Hmmm...what else? I'm just trying to kill some time. I dont know why. Today I feel so happy and JUST GREAT! I think it's the weather...the smell of the bbq that i can smell from below my balcony...the fresh spring breeze...ahhhh so lovely. ^^
I cant wait for spring. I havent planned anything yet, and I'm trying not to plan anything because everytime I plan things, it never turned out the way I want it to be. So I guess well just see what happens? Spring though, is just right around the corner. I want to shop mad but i got to do some savings for the summer :) I feel like there is always a need to spend everyday. Like yesterday, I had a finance exam, and I figured I needed a financial calculator, so of course I bought one. When I opened the case and tried to work with the calculator, i couldnt figure how to use it! it wasnt your normal scientific calc`. crazy! It was the most hardest thing i had to deal with! the manual didnt even helped. So i went to the bookstore, and I wanted to return. But guess what? They didnt let me. The people in the sfsu bookstore suck so bad. SO MEAN, not polite and rude. They said because I opened the case, I'm not able to return it. I was so mad!!!! $40 down the drain. So yes...I need to start saving big time, not because of this incident, but just because there sometimes temptations gets in the way, and that feeling of "I JUST GOT TO HAVE THAT" kind of feeling. so yes, LETS start saving, shall we?
Because I dont want to plan spring break, the places that I have in mind are Tahoe, San Diego or LA, or Vegas? Well see...I've been to Lake Tahoe, LA and Vegas, but I dont mind going there again. I really want to go disneyland..and SD, the zoo and the sea world there. I heard its amazingly beautiful. ^^ Vegas...hmm, who doesnt want to go vegas? Now, that I'm 21, I can do some gambling....ha ha...just kidding? Tahoe...I dont know. Jastien wants to go there, but I really dont want to go there, considering the fact that I've been there so many times before. Well see though. If those 4 places dont turn out good, then I dont mind staying in the city. Maybe go to Montery Bay (ALWAYS WANTED TO GO THERE) or have some bbq and beach :)
Alrighttt, this is getting way too long of a update. Thanks for reading and I'm offff.
mUahhhh,
Jess
I'm feelin` great today, for some reason. THANK GOD finance exam are over. Yesterday was probably the most craziest and busiest day I've ever had to gone through so far this year. I stayed on campus for almost the whole day. I studied like I've never studied before...and I actually did pretty well. I felt somewhat confident but there were some questions that I wasnt sure of. I hope I did well....I heard my prof curves real good, but if someone aced the exam, then most likely its going to screw us all over!
Anyyyway, today I had class from 9-12pm, then went home...watched some lectures for a good 3 hours and now here I am...just chilling on a nice afternoon. Ahh, I feel so productive today! I think once I get in that "study/productive mode", I get used to it..and studying just becomes a habit. Like yesterday, I studied the whole day, and after the exam, I felt a sense of accomplishment and today, it just makes me wanna do better. haha...Let's hope this long enough...
Today is suchhhhh a beautiiiifullllll day. Its been sunny these couple of days but also cold and windy. For some reason, today is just simply beautiful. Wish I didnt have so many things to do, or else I'll be enjoying the sun ;) Hmmm...what else? I'm just trying to kill some time. I dont know why. Today I feel so happy and JUST GREAT! I think it's the weather...the smell of the bbq that i can smell from below my balcony...the fresh spring breeze...ahhhh so lovely. ^^
I cant wait for spring. I havent planned anything yet, and I'm trying not to plan anything because everytime I plan things, it never turned out the way I want it to be. So I guess well just see what happens? Spring though, is just right around the corner. I want to shop mad but i got to do some savings for the summer :) I feel like there is always a need to spend everyday. Like yesterday, I had a finance exam, and I figured I needed a financial calculator, so of course I bought one. When I opened the case and tried to work with the calculator, i couldnt figure how to use it! it wasnt your normal scientific calc`. crazy! It was the most hardest thing i had to deal with! the manual didnt even helped. So i went to the bookstore, and I wanted to return. But guess what? They didnt let me. The people in the sfsu bookstore suck so bad. SO MEAN, not polite and rude. They said because I opened the case, I'm not able to return it. I was so mad!!!! $40 down the drain. So yes...I need to start saving big time, not because of this incident, but just because there sometimes temptations gets in the way, and that feeling of "I JUST GOT TO HAVE THAT" kind of feeling. so yes, LETS start saving, shall we?
Because I dont want to plan spring break, the places that I have in mind are Tahoe, San Diego or LA, or Vegas? Well see...I've been to Lake Tahoe, LA and Vegas, but I dont mind going there again. I really want to go disneyland..and SD, the zoo and the sea world there. I heard its amazingly beautiful. ^^ Vegas...hmm, who doesnt want to go vegas? Now, that I'm 21, I can do some gambling....ha ha...just kidding? Tahoe...I dont know. Jastien wants to go there, but I really dont want to go there, considering the fact that I've been there so many times before. Well see though. If those 4 places dont turn out good, then I dont mind staying in the city. Maybe go to Montery Bay (ALWAYS WANTED TO GO THERE) or have some bbq and beach :)
Alrighttt, this is getting way too long of a update. Thanks for reading and I'm offff.
mUahhhh,
Jess
Monday, March 09, 2009
Pornography
I know, you might be thinking, why in the world would I talk about pornography?! Yeah, I thought so. I was skeptical and somewhat unsure wheather I should talk about it or not `cause I know that it is a very controversial topic and many people do have different views and own opinions considering pornography. But...I thought this would be a interesting topic to write about. You dont necessarily have to agree with anything I say, again, this is just my opinion. (trying to prevent trouble ^^)
Earlier, one of my friend (should remain annoynomous) and I was having a conversation and somehow, for some odd reason, we came talking about pornography. Yes, of course, this friend of mine is a guy and he of course had different opinions as to what I believed in. I'm just going to be straight up. Here goes...I think porn is uneccesary. THERE, I said it. I could give you many reasons as to why i think its uncessary. Ok, maybe unceccesary is NOT THE CORRECT use of word to describe pornography in my eyes, but I feel like its just a waste of time watching. Why do guys watch it? Yea, we all know. Because it turns them on, correct? Is it normal for guys to watch porn? Um...I think in this world, everyone thinks that watching porn is "normal" and I guess it is for guys? But, it really bothers me how guys (NOT ALL GUYS, dont get me wrong) dedicate most of their time in front of the computer watching porn, I mean, seriously? do you have a life?! Again, I'm not saying that all guys do this, but I did learn some things in regards to this topic, and it just disgusts me.
I guess if youre single and you dont have a spouse, wife, gf, bf, whoever....maybe its still reasonable, i dont know? I could care less, but if you are married or in a relationship, in my opinion, I dont think it's right to watch porn. In my eyes, it is the same thing as cheating on your own spouse or whoever it may be. It's disrespectful and rude. Why would you watch porn if youre married or in a relationship? It's like saying that you arent thankful for your partner, and you rather watch some women on the internet for hours rather than your partner...that just bothers me. Its sick. I just dont appreciate it. I know this topic is very controversial, and you might be saying, so what? But I find this topic very disturbing and serious in some way. I mean, I guess if both partners agree to watch it togeather, then maybe that is still reasonable, but imagine you discover that your spouse or partner watches porn behind your back, doesnt that hurt you? I mean, wouldnt that mean something to you? It certainly would for me. It's like another way of saying that he doesnt appreciate your body and rather watch other women's body and enjoying it rather than spending quality time with you. It is really sick. It makes me sick writing this. I really dont appreciate it, and for those guys who does do this, please respect your partner. I dont think it is something that I could forgive if it happened to me. It just all comes down to respect. IF you want to be treated with respect, then treat us with respect. After all, women are smarter than men (it's true) we are not stupid or naive, just so you know :)
Anyway, that's it for now. I should be heading back studying. I got almost everything done except chp 9 which I will finish tomorrow. g`nite bloggers
Jess
Earlier, one of my friend (should remain annoynomous) and I was having a conversation and somehow, for some odd reason, we came talking about pornography. Yes, of course, this friend of mine is a guy and he of course had different opinions as to what I believed in. I'm just going to be straight up. Here goes...I think porn is uneccesary. THERE, I said it. I could give you many reasons as to why i think its uncessary. Ok, maybe unceccesary is NOT THE CORRECT use of word to describe pornography in my eyes, but I feel like its just a waste of time watching. Why do guys watch it? Yea, we all know. Because it turns them on, correct? Is it normal for guys to watch porn? Um...I think in this world, everyone thinks that watching porn is "normal" and I guess it is for guys? But, it really bothers me how guys (NOT ALL GUYS, dont get me wrong) dedicate most of their time in front of the computer watching porn, I mean, seriously? do you have a life?! Again, I'm not saying that all guys do this, but I did learn some things in regards to this topic, and it just disgusts me.
I guess if youre single and you dont have a spouse, wife, gf, bf, whoever....maybe its still reasonable, i dont know? I could care less, but if you are married or in a relationship, in my opinion, I dont think it's right to watch porn. In my eyes, it is the same thing as cheating on your own spouse or whoever it may be. It's disrespectful and rude. Why would you watch porn if youre married or in a relationship? It's like saying that you arent thankful for your partner, and you rather watch some women on the internet for hours rather than your partner...that just bothers me. Its sick. I just dont appreciate it. I know this topic is very controversial, and you might be saying, so what? But I find this topic very disturbing and serious in some way. I mean, I guess if both partners agree to watch it togeather, then maybe that is still reasonable, but imagine you discover that your spouse or partner watches porn behind your back, doesnt that hurt you? I mean, wouldnt that mean something to you? It certainly would for me. It's like another way of saying that he doesnt appreciate your body and rather watch other women's body and enjoying it rather than spending quality time with you. It is really sick. It makes me sick writing this. I really dont appreciate it, and for those guys who does do this, please respect your partner. I dont think it is something that I could forgive if it happened to me. It just all comes down to respect. IF you want to be treated with respect, then treat us with respect. After all, women are smarter than men (it's true) we are not stupid or naive, just so you know :)
Anyway, that's it for now. I should be heading back studying. I got almost everything done except chp 9 which I will finish tomorrow. g`nite bloggers
Jess
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
gloomy rainy afternoon...
Today is such a gloomly day. In fact, it's been gloomy for weeks now. :( sucks so much. I miss the sunny days in san francisco but lately it has been nothing but rain and dark clouds. It was good for a change but now it's just getting annoying. I cant even go out....and the fact that i have to wear bundles and bundles of clothing is ehhhh....annoying.
Lately, my back has been hurting so badly. I dont really know why or the cause of it, but I guess since I work in a restaurant, I've been carrying heavy plates and doing heaving chores, walking by here and there, running from front to back, so i guess thats the cause? But i've been working in the resto for 2 years now and I was perfectly fine before? I dont know. I just hope it heals soon and hopefully its nothing worse.
I have night class at 7-10pm tonight and let me tell you how muchhhh i dont want to go. I was planning on skipping tonight since its raining and I'm sick, but I just realized that I have an exam for this class so I have to go!!! I really really hate coughing, I mean who does? I hate it when my throat itches and I have to cough like a million gazillion times and when i cough my back starts to hurt. UGHHH ok jess, stop procrastinating.
Changing subject, I'm planning and creating on this project of mines. I've been wanting to it for a long time but you know? I never have time! THATS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE! :) But i just realized that it doesnt or wouldnt take much of my time and maybe if I start on it soon, ppl would love it and maybe I can start a small business out of it or something? I dont know, it's just a thought. Well see how it goes. I'll update you all more on that later. ;)
Yesterday night, I watched the season finale of the BACHELORS. omgg it was so dramatic!!! i mean, considering the fact that it was the most craziest thing that happened in bachelor history. A part of me hates Jason for ditching Melissa, esp on national tv, but a part of me also understands that we shouldnt live our lives in regrets and I did understand why he did what he did. But one thing i didnt understand was the fact that he had to ditch her in front of America? I mean, cmon? what is there left to say if it wasnt PLANNED OR STAGED in the first place? I think there was something fishy going on behind all of this? Wish the best of luck to molly and Jason!
Olrightttt, thats it for now. gonna get some rest before i head to campus. haiizzzzz :(
`blessd day,
Jess
Lately, my back has been hurting so badly. I dont really know why or the cause of it, but I guess since I work in a restaurant, I've been carrying heavy plates and doing heaving chores, walking by here and there, running from front to back, so i guess thats the cause? But i've been working in the resto for 2 years now and I was perfectly fine before? I dont know. I just hope it heals soon and hopefully its nothing worse.
I have night class at 7-10pm tonight and let me tell you how muchhhh i dont want to go. I was planning on skipping tonight since its raining and I'm sick, but I just realized that I have an exam for this class so I have to go!!! I really really hate coughing, I mean who does? I hate it when my throat itches and I have to cough like a million gazillion times and when i cough my back starts to hurt. UGHHH ok jess, stop procrastinating.
Changing subject, I'm planning and creating on this project of mines. I've been wanting to it for a long time but you know? I never have time! THATS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE! :) But i just realized that it doesnt or wouldnt take much of my time and maybe if I start on it soon, ppl would love it and maybe I can start a small business out of it or something? I dont know, it's just a thought. Well see how it goes. I'll update you all more on that later. ;)
Yesterday night, I watched the season finale of the BACHELORS. omgg it was so dramatic!!! i mean, considering the fact that it was the most craziest thing that happened in bachelor history. A part of me hates Jason for ditching Melissa, esp on national tv, but a part of me also understands that we shouldnt live our lives in regrets and I did understand why he did what he did. But one thing i didnt understand was the fact that he had to ditch her in front of America? I mean, cmon? what is there left to say if it wasnt PLANNED OR STAGED in the first place? I think there was something fishy going on behind all of this? Wish the best of luck to molly and Jason!
Olrightttt, thats it for now. gonna get some rest before i head to campus. haiizzzzz :(
`blessd day,
Jess
Saturday, February 28, 2009
30 interesting facts about me!
I got this from a friend of mines in facebook n decided WHY nottttttt list 30 interested facts about me. I know YOU are interested :) shall we begin?
1.) I buy a whole lot of make up products, but I barely use them!!!
2.) ln high school, I would go shopping every week that I had to hide my shopping bags so my
mom won't find out. hahaha
3.) when I was a teen, I had so much acne that my mom would take me to the dermatologist every week!
4.) I'm very open minded n open to anything. Sometimes, i'm a bit too open, hahah...that's a bad thing man!
5.) my parents n friends thinks I talk much...very annoying they say.
6.) I'm a very productive person. (or at least I try to be.) Im not the type that would give up that easily.
7.) dislike people who are so fake n two faced. Be real!!!
8.) I really don't care what ppl say or think about me. They have their own opinions.
9.) I could live and eat sushi or shabu2 for the rest of my life !!! Lovess it.
10.) I can't swim in the deep water. I drowned before, since then, I never ever ever dare to be near the deep end.
11.) i'm a neat freak. I like to organize and make sure everything is clean!
12.) I brush my teeth 3 times a day..hahah.
13.) I pray before I eat any meal, before I go to sleep, when I wake up n before each exam. Don't get ms wrong, I'm not one if those highly religious ppl, but I do believe that prayers changes everything.
14.) when I first got my debit card, I got charged $500 for over using my limit!!!!!! I didn't know, I was naive. Heheh. Crazy me.
15.) I miss my family n friends in indo n some here in the u.s that I barely see or talk. Miss u all !!!
16.) most people think Im snobby or "stuck up " because of the way I look. U really hate ppl who judge me without getting to know me first. Who are you to say I'm snobby? That's just the way I look! I'm a kind gal at heart. Plis stop making false judgements.
17.) always wondered what I would look like with my hair short. I will neverrr cut my hair short. I'm addicted to long hair, hahah...
18.) can't stand or be around people who smokes and talk bad words,, aka potty mouth. Didn't your mama teach u better than that???!
19.) If I go shopping, I would stay in a store for 2 hours the most. I'm such a undecisive person!!!
20.) I would love to travel some day with my hubby or family. Explore new countries, their foods n lifestyle.
21.) always think how my life would be if I won the lottery! Yea baby!!! :). I would help those who are in need first then give to my church, n then I can spend ittt like water!!!!
22.) I have big dreams n ambitions. The question is, will I ever accomplish all if them? Mmmm, maybe. Well see...
23.) don't believe the saying, "love at first sight", because my first love failed, but, how fortunate I am to find someone so special in my life. ^^.
24.) I care too much about my skin n hair. I'm a freak!!!!
25.) lovessss to cook n try out new things with food. I'm not a great cook, but I love to cook. Maybe one day I can become like a super expert chef like my mommy.
26.) I love cereal from the bottom of my heart! I can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner! Love the ones with the granola. Add some strawberries n banNnA n I'll have myself a fiesta! :)
27.) I suck at sports. All kinds of sports! I can't ice skate or rollerblade. It took me a good 5 months to learn how to bike! Hahaha...the only sport I enjoy is running n exercising.
28.) I used to be 130 pounds. Imagine that! Super fat n chubby. Then, I lost a whole lot of weight to 80 pounds. I was nothing but bones!!! Believe it or not. I would see a doctor every week for a year. Now, I'm good n stable. Mann, what a devastating year! ^^.
29.) I over analyze just about everything. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing. :/ Also, I'm good with remembering things. I have sharp eyes, mind and ears.
30.) I could write more about me, but too bad I can only write 30 facts. I guess you just gotta befriend me. Heheheh ;)Before I end this, one last thing. I have hots for decent looking white guys! Hahaha.
1.) I buy a whole lot of make up products, but I barely use them!!!
2.) ln high school, I would go shopping every week that I had to hide my shopping bags so my
mom won't find out. hahaha
3.) when I was a teen, I had so much acne that my mom would take me to the dermatologist every week!
4.) I'm very open minded n open to anything. Sometimes, i'm a bit too open, hahah...that's a bad thing man!
5.) my parents n friends thinks I talk much...very annoying they say.
6.) I'm a very productive person. (or at least I try to be.) Im not the type that would give up that easily.
7.) dislike people who are so fake n two faced. Be real!!!
8.) I really don't care what ppl say or think about me. They have their own opinions.
9.) I could live and eat sushi or shabu2 for the rest of my life !!! Lovess it.
10.) I can't swim in the deep water. I drowned before, since then, I never ever ever dare to be near the deep end.
11.) i'm a neat freak. I like to organize and make sure everything is clean!
12.) I brush my teeth 3 times a day..hahah.
13.) I pray before I eat any meal, before I go to sleep, when I wake up n before each exam. Don't get ms wrong, I'm not one if those highly religious ppl, but I do believe that prayers changes everything.
14.) when I first got my debit card, I got charged $500 for over using my limit!!!!!! I didn't know, I was naive. Heheh. Crazy me.
15.) I miss my family n friends in indo n some here in the u.s that I barely see or talk. Miss u all !!!
16.) most people think Im snobby or "stuck up " because of the way I look. U really hate ppl who judge me without getting to know me first. Who are you to say I'm snobby? That's just the way I look! I'm a kind gal at heart. Plis stop making false judgements.
17.) always wondered what I would look like with my hair short. I will neverrr cut my hair short. I'm addicted to long hair, hahah...
18.) can't stand or be around people who smokes and talk bad words,, aka potty mouth. Didn't your mama teach u better than that???!
19.) If I go shopping, I would stay in a store for 2 hours the most. I'm such a undecisive person!!!
20.) I would love to travel some day with my hubby or family. Explore new countries, their foods n lifestyle.
21.) always think how my life would be if I won the lottery! Yea baby!!! :). I would help those who are in need first then give to my church, n then I can spend ittt like water!!!!
22.) I have big dreams n ambitions. The question is, will I ever accomplish all if them? Mmmm, maybe. Well see...
23.) don't believe the saying, "love at first sight", because my first love failed, but, how fortunate I am to find someone so special in my life. ^^.
24.) I care too much about my skin n hair. I'm a freak!!!!
25.) lovessss to cook n try out new things with food. I'm not a great cook, but I love to cook. Maybe one day I can become like a super expert chef like my mommy.
26.) I love cereal from the bottom of my heart! I can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner! Love the ones with the granola. Add some strawberries n banNnA n I'll have myself a fiesta! :)
27.) I suck at sports. All kinds of sports! I can't ice skate or rollerblade. It took me a good 5 months to learn how to bike! Hahaha...the only sport I enjoy is running n exercising.
28.) I used to be 130 pounds. Imagine that! Super fat n chubby. Then, I lost a whole lot of weight to 80 pounds. I was nothing but bones!!! Believe it or not. I would see a doctor every week for a year. Now, I'm good n stable. Mann, what a devastating year! ^^.
29.) I over analyze just about everything. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing. :/ Also, I'm good with remembering things. I have sharp eyes, mind and ears.
30.) I could write more about me, but too bad I can only write 30 facts. I guess you just gotta befriend me. Heheheh ;)Before I end this, one last thing. I have hots for decent looking white guys! Hahaha.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
clean n clear!
Lately, I've been feeling so tired. Even though I'm not working or just had one class a day, I could feel so exhausted. I think I found my answer. I need more sleep! Lately, I've been sleeping really late, around 1 or 2am. Maybe to some people 2am isnt considered late, but for me that's considered late! I learned that if you sleep early, around say 10pm, the next morning, you'll feel more energized n you will regain more strengh. My sister has been sleeping earlier than me n she told me that it made a real difference of sleeping early. It's good for your health and for your soul. I tried it last week, slept at 10 n guess what? I couldn't sleep! I laid in bed till 12.30 n that's when I fell asleep. Maybe I'm not used to it yet, cause sleeping late has always been a habit for me, but if I tried to sleep at 10 from now on and give it a try for maybe a week or two, then maybe sleeping early can be a new habit. My body will of course be used to this newschedule of mines. So how about we give it a try? Did I also mention that getting good enough of sleep is good for your skin as well? Yea, I did some research. Getting a good amount of sleep is one of the many ways to balance our your diet. Your skin needs rest to rebuild and repair itself. Talking about skin, brings me to my next topic.
Have you ever want to have clear and beautiful skin? I truly envy those who have clear and flawless skin. Lately, I've been having breakouts around my forehead and chin area. Their not one those big red acne, but their so tiny n I just wanna poke em n get rid of em!! I've always been so worried about my skin, face and hair. Those three physical attribute is what I really care about the most. My skin and my hair is llpsuperrrrrr sensitive. My skin isn't oily, but it gets dry easily. Same goes to my hair, it gets dry n I hate it! (hair will be a whole new topic) but anyways,I've been getting these little acne and it driving me nuts. If I were to take a picture of it, I don't think you would be able to see it, but it's obvious for me. When I went to see a dermatologist in indo, the doctor told me that the food you eat has a big impact on your skin (especially chocolate and peanuts). But when I saw the dermatologist here in america, they told me that food doesn't affect your skin whatsoever, and it was just a myth. You know that saying, "you are what you eat", I do actually believe in that.
I'm trying this new thing where i eat less greasy food. In fact, I'm trying not to eat greasy foods at all! Usually, I dont really eat foods that are deep fried anyway. I dont eat mcdonalds or any kind of fast food unless im in a road trip which is like twice a year. So, i guess thats a good thing. ^^ Although the food you eat dont really take an effect of your skin, balancing our nutrition is so important. I'm consuming a whole lot of water and soymilk so my skin will be smooothhh smooth smoooth! im a sucker for clear skin and smooth hair! hahaha....call me crazy. Eating fruits and veggies are also an important diet for your skin, and not to mention, its good for you too! I cant live without fruits and veggies.
Anyways, i hope my plan works out. Getting enough sleep, eating healthier...well see about that! `till then bloggers ;)
blessed day
Have you ever want to have clear and beautiful skin? I truly envy those who have clear and flawless skin. Lately, I've been having breakouts around my forehead and chin area. Their not one those big red acne, but their so tiny n I just wanna poke em n get rid of em!! I've always been so worried about my skin, face and hair. Those three physical attribute is what I really care about the most. My skin and my hair is llpsuperrrrrr sensitive. My skin isn't oily, but it gets dry easily. Same goes to my hair, it gets dry n I hate it! (hair will be a whole new topic) but anyways,I've been getting these little acne and it driving me nuts. If I were to take a picture of it, I don't think you would be able to see it, but it's obvious for me. When I went to see a dermatologist in indo, the doctor told me that the food you eat has a big impact on your skin (especially chocolate and peanuts). But when I saw the dermatologist here in america, they told me that food doesn't affect your skin whatsoever, and it was just a myth. You know that saying, "you are what you eat", I do actually believe in that.
I'm trying this new thing where i eat less greasy food. In fact, I'm trying not to eat greasy foods at all! Usually, I dont really eat foods that are deep fried anyway. I dont eat mcdonalds or any kind of fast food unless im in a road trip which is like twice a year. So, i guess thats a good thing. ^^ Although the food you eat dont really take an effect of your skin, balancing our nutrition is so important. I'm consuming a whole lot of water and soymilk so my skin will be smooothhh smooth smoooth! im a sucker for clear skin and smooth hair! hahaha....call me crazy. Eating fruits and veggies are also an important diet for your skin, and not to mention, its good for you too! I cant live without fruits and veggies.
Anyways, i hope my plan works out. Getting enough sleep, eating healthier...well see about that! `till then bloggers ;)
blessed day
Monday, February 23, 2009
read :)
I'm writing this while I'm in my way to work. For some reason, my iPhone won't let me blog in blogger, don't know why... I find it really odd.
I've been wanting a sewing machine and a manikin for such a long time! I've always wanted to experience the joy of using a sewing machine n creating whatever I can create from the top of my head. I have so so many ideas that i want to create, but I can't draw. I can't design. I suck at drawing so bad. I guess my talent isn't in that area? This is why I want a sewing machine. Though I can draw, I have a visual illustration in my mind of how I want the results to look like. Anyways, I've been searching for the best sewing machine I can find. I want one that is easy n comfortable you use. No complicated ones. After all, I'm still a beginner so it's reasonable got me to buy a simple one.
For a long time now, I've always dreamt of working inthe fashion industry. I mean, who doesn't? I think all women who loves clothes and fashion would die to work in that field. Before I started my years at the University, I wanted to sign up for FIDM so bad, but my parents won't let me. Ahh, so typical! First, it's a very competitive industry to be in. I mean, everywhere you go there will always be competition. But the way I see it is that people will always want to search for the best designers or buyers, etc...after all, fashion isn't An iimportant field, unlike business. They already have many top fashion designers n other departments in that industry alone. Why need more? So I guess I understood why my parents wouldn't let me go into they field. Second, wherever you go, it is important to have a business background.a few years ago, the vice president of CNN (I'm not sure if it was CNN, I remembered it was a news channel) came to state and talked about job opportunities and the whole talk aboutcollege. He told us that wherever you go, it's a plus to know and have that knowledge of business. A business knowledge is essential. Then, I thought about it...and wow, what he said was complety true. Think about it. If I were to go to fidm, I would only learn about fashion itself. And maybe if I were to have my own line, how am I supposed to sell my products? Who's going to handle my finances? You will need that accounting or marketing background. So I'm very very thankful that I didn't go for fashion because I know in the long run, the field that im in right now, I will benefit from it 120%. I was talking to my business counselor a while back, and she told me that she graduated from fidm, got her aa degree n was lost. She went back to college to study business , cause she knew it was benefical for her.
So am I satisfied with my major right now? Yea, I definetly am. I think the field that I'm in can lead to a lot of different things.Most ppl who graduates with their major doesn't end up working in that field anyway. So right now, it doesn't matter much. As long as I have that business knowledge, then I'm good. Am I forgetting about my fashion? No. I still have that in mind. It's my passion, my hobby. That's why I wanted to buy a sewing machine, n experiment the little or big things I can to with it. I hope someone, anyone who reads this can get something out of it.
Olrighttt guys,, this blog is getting out of control. ^^ sorry for this long post n thanks for reading :)
I've been wanting a sewing machine and a manikin for such a long time! I've always wanted to experience the joy of using a sewing machine n creating whatever I can create from the top of my head. I have so so many ideas that i want to create, but I can't draw. I can't design. I suck at drawing so bad. I guess my talent isn't in that area? This is why I want a sewing machine. Though I can draw, I have a visual illustration in my mind of how I want the results to look like. Anyways, I've been searching for the best sewing machine I can find. I want one that is easy n comfortable you use. No complicated ones. After all, I'm still a beginner so it's reasonable got me to buy a simple one.
For a long time now, I've always dreamt of working inthe fashion industry. I mean, who doesn't? I think all women who loves clothes and fashion would die to work in that field. Before I started my years at the University, I wanted to sign up for FIDM so bad, but my parents won't let me. Ahh, so typical! First, it's a very competitive industry to be in. I mean, everywhere you go there will always be competition. But the way I see it is that people will always want to search for the best designers or buyers, etc...after all, fashion isn't An iimportant field, unlike business. They already have many top fashion designers n other departments in that industry alone. Why need more? So I guess I understood why my parents wouldn't let me go into they field. Second, wherever you go, it is important to have a business background.a few years ago, the vice president of CNN (I'm not sure if it was CNN, I remembered it was a news channel) came to state and talked about job opportunities and the whole talk aboutcollege. He told us that wherever you go, it's a plus to know and have that knowledge of business. A business knowledge is essential. Then, I thought about it...and wow, what he said was complety true. Think about it. If I were to go to fidm, I would only learn about fashion itself. And maybe if I were to have my own line, how am I supposed to sell my products? Who's going to handle my finances? You will need that accounting or marketing background. So I'm very very thankful that I didn't go for fashion because I know in the long run, the field that im in right now, I will benefit from it 120%. I was talking to my business counselor a while back, and she told me that she graduated from fidm, got her aa degree n was lost. She went back to college to study business , cause she knew it was benefical for her.
So am I satisfied with my major right now? Yea, I definetly am. I think the field that I'm in can lead to a lot of different things.Most ppl who graduates with their major doesn't end up working in that field anyway. So right now, it doesn't matter much. As long as I have that business knowledge, then I'm good. Am I forgetting about my fashion? No. I still have that in mind. It's my passion, my hobby. That's why I wanted to buy a sewing machine, n experiment the little or big things I can to with it. I hope someone, anyone who reads this can get something out of it.
Olrighttt guys,, this blog is getting out of control. ^^ sorry for this long post n thanks for reading :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
randomness
hey all,
I hope everyone's havin a great week, `cause I sure didnt! My exam on monday didnt went so well, and maybe yall might be thinking that it's just an exam...BUT for me, it's not just an exam. For once, I really studied super hard, stayed up until morning, working my a** off, and guess what? right when I got the exam, I went completely blank. This never EVER NEVER EVER happened to me before, and I was devasted! Seriously....I even cried. I know, I'm such a crybaby, call me sensitive! i dont care! It was such a bad way to start my week. And you know what's even worse? I had past exams from my friends, and not just me, but everyone who is in that class has the old exams. I studied almost everything, and you know what? the exam version i recieved was the SAME exact version of the old exam. I reviewed it right before I stepped into that class; the chamber of death! and guess what?! I WENT BLANK! Do you have any idea how devastating that is?! I literallly couldnt think. I HAVE ALL these formulas...MC=MR, on and on and on....and I was just completely blank. Man..it was the worse day of my life, Im tellin u! But.....I learned my lesson. I learned that I SHOULDVE gotten enough sleep before the exam, and maybe i should have studied more? The only thing that I couldnt accept till now is the fact that i went blank when really, i KNEW the answers to everything. :( I dont know whats up with me and exams man...its like bad luck everytime i walk in for a test. NO KIDDING....Anyways, I will do better next time. I WILL. :)
This semester I'm only taking 2 classes which equals to 9 units. it sucks really bad. I've never been in a position where i took only 3 classes. Im so used to taking alot of classes, and this semester is kind of new to me just taking 3 classes. It's not pretty laid back though, considering the fact that all my classes are one of the hard core classes in the business department.
ill post more later, my show is coming on soon!!! hahah sorry! :)
blessed day,
jes
I hope everyone's havin a great week, `cause I sure didnt! My exam on monday didnt went so well, and maybe yall might be thinking that it's just an exam...BUT for me, it's not just an exam. For once, I really studied super hard, stayed up until morning, working my a** off, and guess what? right when I got the exam, I went completely blank. This never EVER NEVER EVER happened to me before, and I was devasted! Seriously....I even cried. I know, I'm such a crybaby, call me sensitive! i dont care! It was such a bad way to start my week. And you know what's even worse? I had past exams from my friends, and not just me, but everyone who is in that class has the old exams. I studied almost everything, and you know what? the exam version i recieved was the SAME exact version of the old exam. I reviewed it right before I stepped into that class; the chamber of death! and guess what?! I WENT BLANK! Do you have any idea how devastating that is?! I literallly couldnt think. I HAVE ALL these formulas...MC=MR, on and on and on....and I was just completely blank. Man..it was the worse day of my life, Im tellin u! But.....I learned my lesson. I learned that I SHOULDVE gotten enough sleep before the exam, and maybe i should have studied more? The only thing that I couldnt accept till now is the fact that i went blank when really, i KNEW the answers to everything. :( I dont know whats up with me and exams man...its like bad luck everytime i walk in for a test. NO KIDDING....Anyways, I will do better next time. I WILL. :)
This semester I'm only taking 2 classes which equals to 9 units. it sucks really bad. I've never been in a position where i took only 3 classes. Im so used to taking alot of classes, and this semester is kind of new to me just taking 3 classes. It's not pretty laid back though, considering the fact that all my classes are one of the hard core classes in the business department.
ill post more later, my show is coming on soon!!! hahah sorry! :)
blessed day,
jes
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Hi everybody...
Happy Valentines day to everyone and to all you lovers out there! I hope ya`ll had a great valentines day, cos I sure did! Thanks hun for the roses, they are beautiful and also for the romantic dinner....(although I had a wrong choice of entree.) ^^ Cepet bgt ya rasanya...uda 2 taon kita pacaran. aku bersyukur bgt for everything that you`ve done for me selama 2 taon ini. aku percaya the best is yet to come... So overall, Vals day this year was quite a success, despite the fact that it was raining hard and we didnt bring any umbrella at all! But anyway, i enjoyed it to the fullest.
Its almost 12.30 am n` I'm not sleepy yet, though i should be sleeping cause i need to wake up super early to study for my mgmt exam on monday! ughhh...
A few days ago, my friends and I was talking about our greatest pet peeves and I just thought of sharing it with you guys since its late and I CANT SLEEP yet... hehhee...There are 3 major petpeeves that I just cant stand at all. Dont take it offensive or personal in any way, this is just been my main petpeeves that i personally can NOT stand at all.
First, I can not stand prank callers. I dont understand what's their deal. What do they get out of it? It annoys me so much, and its the most immature and foolish act you can ever do. Ever since last year, I've been getting prank calls from some annoynomous person and that block number has been calling me several NUMEROUS times every SINGLE day. And i dont mean calling and hanging up. They would call me very late at night or sometimes in the morning, and they would call me constantly without speaking. Its completely unneccessary. A few weeks ago, that same person called me 52+ time constantly. It was to the point that I felt harassed. Grow up n` get a life. I used to laugh about it, but now its not even funny anymore. Its a form of harrassment and if i could track that person down, I would in a heartbeat. I would be thrilled and love to know who has been prank calling me these past couple of months. But... I finally changed my number, and so I guess I'm save now.
Second, people who hate or dislike me for no complete reason. Dont get me wrong, I could care less if people dislike me for whatever reason, but its the fact that some people who hates me doesnt even know the real me. It just bothers me because I obviously did`nt do anything to them, and here, they are hating me. Why? i dont understand you. If you dont like me, that's fine. If you want to criticize me, thats fine with me too. But at least give me a concrete reason as to why you dislike me. And if i hurt anyone or said something wrong, then I'm sorry. But there is no reason to hate and criticize people that you dont KNOW at all. Get to know the person before you make any judgements. I used to be one of them, but I realized that it was wrong. I know that I'm not perfect as a person, and i would love to be better, that's why i chose to stop criticizing people by the way they look, especially. I realized that people who criticize other people are`nt satisfied with their own life. Look yourself in the mirror...Please, noone in this world is perfect.
Lastly, i dont know if this is considered as a petpeeve, but i am realllllyyyy realllllyyy reallllyyyy disgusted by people who CAN NOT flush the toilet in public restrooms. SERIOUSLY, it's really disgusting and unrespectful to other people. Is it so hard to just flush after yourselves? I really can not stand bathroom stalls that are dirty. I understand that "public" restrooms arent supposed to be clean and shiny, but it's really not that hard to flush the toilet!!!
Happy Valentines day to everyone and to all you lovers out there! I hope ya`ll had a great valentines day, cos I sure did! Thanks hun for the roses, they are beautiful and also for the romantic dinner....(although I had a wrong choice of entree.) ^^ Cepet bgt ya rasanya...uda 2 taon kita pacaran. aku bersyukur bgt for everything that you`ve done for me selama 2 taon ini. aku percaya the best is yet to come... So overall, Vals day this year was quite a success, despite the fact that it was raining hard and we didnt bring any umbrella at all! But anyway, i enjoyed it to the fullest.
Its almost 12.30 am n` I'm not sleepy yet, though i should be sleeping cause i need to wake up super early to study for my mgmt exam on monday! ughhh...
A few days ago, my friends and I was talking about our greatest pet peeves and I just thought of sharing it with you guys since its late and I CANT SLEEP yet... hehhee...There are 3 major petpeeves that I just cant stand at all. Dont take it offensive or personal in any way, this is just been my main petpeeves that i personally can NOT stand at all.
First, I can not stand prank callers. I dont understand what's their deal. What do they get out of it? It annoys me so much, and its the most immature and foolish act you can ever do. Ever since last year, I've been getting prank calls from some annoynomous person and that block number has been calling me several NUMEROUS times every SINGLE day. And i dont mean calling and hanging up. They would call me very late at night or sometimes in the morning, and they would call me constantly without speaking. Its completely unneccessary. A few weeks ago, that same person called me 52+ time constantly. It was to the point that I felt harassed. Grow up n` get a life. I used to laugh about it, but now its not even funny anymore. Its a form of harrassment and if i could track that person down, I would in a heartbeat. I would be thrilled and love to know who has been prank calling me these past couple of months. But... I finally changed my number, and so I guess I'm save now.
Second, people who hate or dislike me for no complete reason. Dont get me wrong, I could care less if people dislike me for whatever reason, but its the fact that some people who hates me doesnt even know the real me. It just bothers me because I obviously did`nt do anything to them, and here, they are hating me. Why? i dont understand you. If you dont like me, that's fine. If you want to criticize me, thats fine with me too. But at least give me a concrete reason as to why you dislike me. And if i hurt anyone or said something wrong, then I'm sorry. But there is no reason to hate and criticize people that you dont KNOW at all. Get to know the person before you make any judgements. I used to be one of them, but I realized that it was wrong. I know that I'm not perfect as a person, and i would love to be better, that's why i chose to stop criticizing people by the way they look, especially. I realized that people who criticize other people are`nt satisfied with their own life. Look yourself in the mirror...Please, noone in this world is perfect.
Lastly, i dont know if this is considered as a petpeeve, but i am realllllyyyy realllllyyy reallllyyyy disgusted by people who CAN NOT flush the toilet in public restrooms. SERIOUSLY, it's really disgusting and unrespectful to other people. Is it so hard to just flush after yourselves? I really can not stand bathroom stalls that are dirty. I understand that "public" restrooms arent supposed to be clean and shiny, but it's really not that hard to flush the toilet!!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
"Top 5 Destination Places I want to go before I die"
I`ve always wanted to travel. Who does`nt want to travel all over the world? Although there are many MANY MANY places that I want to visit, I know its just too impossible. So I roughly cut them down to 5, and these top 5 places are a must go places before I die. :)
(1.) Alaska
I know. You must be wondering 'why in the world would you go to Alaska?' I dont know why. I've always been fascinated by the wonders of that place. The snow...The mountains...the weather...talk about whales! I want to experience the lifestyle of the people that lives there. Their lifestyle must be different then mines, since Alaska is nothing but snow and mountains? I want to at least have the experience before I die. Oh, and do people really live in igloos? (sp?) hahah....duhh, i dont even know.
(2.) Paris, France
Who would`nt want to go to Paris!? Paris, in my eyes is one of the most romantic must go places, and yes, I will go there someday :) The fashion...The city...The food...the lights at night..it's simply wonderful. Of course, someday when I'm married, I will go there with my hubby. The main reason why I want to go there is for its fashion. Although I cant draw or design clothes or what not, I always admire those top designers and I'm truly inspired by those top models i see in the runway. Maybe someday I can be part of the fashion industry, but for now, all i can do is try to be successful in whatver I'm doing, and maybe...just maybe, in the future fashion may be my calling.
(3.) Bahamas
When I was deciding what island I want to visit, I felt stuck. There is Hawaii, Cabo, Bali...and many many other islands that would be so romantic to go to especially for honeymoon. heheh. But, again, I'm fascinated by the beaches there. Seems so relaxing and one of the hit places I would want to go for my honeymoon. But again, I cant decide that now. I know I would change my mind overtime...haha. If you guys dont know me, I'm in love beaches. I love it, especially on a beautiful sunny day. I can lay down in the beach the whole day, watching the waves and just enjoying the weather without being disturbed.
(4.) Africa
I have a passion to help the people of Africa. If I had the fund to help them right now, I would go there in a heart beat. I've seen many commercials/donations in TV of those kids in Africa that is in deep need of food, shelter and education. But i dont trust those people that holds those donations. I would donate if I knew where my money is going to, but the truth is we dont know where the money is going. They advertise saying that our money will help the people of Africa, but honestly, I would just go there myself and give money, food, toys etc...MYSELF. Maybe that time isnt anytime soon, but I want to go there someday, and I will help even if I cant help anyone. I'm aware that the cost to even going there is very costly, and yes, its very corrupted, but if I was rich or if i HAD enough money to help those people, I would. Again, its my opinion, noone has to agreee with ME.
(5.) empty
I left the last one empty, because it can be anything? Ill leave the 5th one blank for me to decide later. Theres just too many places to decide to go, its so hard to decide.
If people want to comment and say bad things about my blog then you might as well not comment, because it is my blog, and clearly, I can say whatever I feel like saying. So, if you have your opinion, write it in your own blog, ok? thank you :)
(1.) Alaska
I know. You must be wondering 'why in the world would you go to Alaska?' I dont know why. I've always been fascinated by the wonders of that place. The snow...The mountains...the weather...talk about whales! I want to experience the lifestyle of the people that lives there. Their lifestyle must be different then mines, since Alaska is nothing but snow and mountains? I want to at least have the experience before I die. Oh, and do people really live in igloos? (sp?) hahah....duhh, i dont even know.
(2.) Paris, France
Who would`nt want to go to Paris!? Paris, in my eyes is one of the most romantic must go places, and yes, I will go there someday :) The fashion...The city...The food...the lights at night..it's simply wonderful. Of course, someday when I'm married, I will go there with my hubby. The main reason why I want to go there is for its fashion. Although I cant draw or design clothes or what not, I always admire those top designers and I'm truly inspired by those top models i see in the runway. Maybe someday I can be part of the fashion industry, but for now, all i can do is try to be successful in whatver I'm doing, and maybe...just maybe, in the future fashion may be my calling.
(3.) Bahamas
When I was deciding what island I want to visit, I felt stuck. There is Hawaii, Cabo, Bali...and many many other islands that would be so romantic to go to especially for honeymoon. heheh. But, again, I'm fascinated by the beaches there. Seems so relaxing and one of the hit places I would want to go for my honeymoon. But again, I cant decide that now. I know I would change my mind overtime...haha. If you guys dont know me, I'm in love beaches. I love it, especially on a beautiful sunny day. I can lay down in the beach the whole day, watching the waves and just enjoying the weather without being disturbed.
(4.) Africa
I have a passion to help the people of Africa. If I had the fund to help them right now, I would go there in a heart beat. I've seen many commercials/donations in TV of those kids in Africa that is in deep need of food, shelter and education. But i dont trust those people that holds those donations. I would donate if I knew where my money is going to, but the truth is we dont know where the money is going. They advertise saying that our money will help the people of Africa, but honestly, I would just go there myself and give money, food, toys etc...MYSELF. Maybe that time isnt anytime soon, but I want to go there someday, and I will help even if I cant help anyone. I'm aware that the cost to even going there is very costly, and yes, its very corrupted, but if I was rich or if i HAD enough money to help those people, I would. Again, its my opinion, noone has to agreee with ME.
(5.) empty
I left the last one empty, because it can be anything? Ill leave the 5th one blank for me to decide later. Theres just too many places to decide to go, its so hard to decide.
If people want to comment and say bad things about my blog then you might as well not comment, because it is my blog, and clearly, I can say whatever I feel like saying. So, if you have your opinion, write it in your own blog, ok? thank you :)
Friday, February 06, 2009
Have you ever felt as though your life is so limited? I tend to think about my future too much. Some say its a good thing, some say its something that I shouldnt worry about at this moment. When I think about my future, I think about living here in the States. Never in my mind did I thought about living in a different country. I love America, I see myself living here and having a family here in the future. I have so many hopes and dreams...so many things I want to accomplish. I see myself being successful here in America. But lately, I realized that it doesnt matter where I am. It doesnt matter where I live. As long as the place I'm in, is a place where I can be successful and happy, then that's all it matters. My mind tells me that America is the place I should be forever, my home. I guess my perspective has changed. I no longer care where I end up later in future anymore. It doesnt matter to me where I will end up. I know whereever I will be will be my calling, and the place I will land is God's plan for me. I'm accepting changes. I believe that's what will make me a stronger as an individual.
As humans, were not perfect. I've made many mistakes in the past..may it be personal things, or education....I know i should have done better. But you know what? I never regret a single day. I realized that the mistakes I made pushes me to go foward and be better. I want to be the best. A few weeks ago, my professor was talking about the economy and how America isnt getting better, but getting worse. In times like this, he said, we students should strive harder and take education to a higher level. We shouldnt graduate and live our lives as mediocre, but we should rise above mediocre. Especially with the economy like this, companies will want someone who is the best, not mediocre. Then i thought to myself...."wow that is true." What is the purpose of going to school if we arent going for the best? People would want to hire the best of the best. Not mediocre. That hit me. I realized that now isnt the time to be playing around anymore...Well, maybe I should have realized that when i first started university!!! haha...but I guess i was so closed minded. ^^
As humans, were not perfect. I've made many mistakes in the past..may it be personal things, or education....I know i should have done better. But you know what? I never regret a single day. I realized that the mistakes I made pushes me to go foward and be better. I want to be the best. A few weeks ago, my professor was talking about the economy and how America isnt getting better, but getting worse. In times like this, he said, we students should strive harder and take education to a higher level. We shouldnt graduate and live our lives as mediocre, but we should rise above mediocre. Especially with the economy like this, companies will want someone who is the best, not mediocre. Then i thought to myself...."wow that is true." What is the purpose of going to school if we arent going for the best? People would want to hire the best of the best. Not mediocre. That hit me. I realized that now isnt the time to be playing around anymore...Well, maybe I should have realized that when i first started university!!! haha...but I guess i was so closed minded. ^^
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
hey everybody...
I know I havent blogged in a while. I've been getting used to my schedule for school and though it is not as scattered as last semester, and though i only have 4 classes, most of my classes are full of mathematics! Unfortunately, I didnt get in to the other 2 classes that I want to take, but I guess everything has its own reason and purpose. Maybe its better off for me to take 4 classes instead of 6 because the courses I'm taking this semester is truly a super killer!!!
Anyway, enough of school. I'm actually in starbucks right now, drinking signiture hot chocolate as usual and trying to finish up some marketing assignments! I love taking online classes but there are the goods and bads of it. The good is that it's very convenient. You can listen and take quized whenever you want, upon your own avaliability. But the bad is that I tend to get lazy and procrastinate. But this semester, I'm aiming for all A's and B's. Hopefully, I can earn it :)
My friend just downloaded my webcam in my computer and I'm super excited to use it!
olllright guys, gotta head back studying x(
bless`d day,
Jessica
I know I havent blogged in a while. I've been getting used to my schedule for school and though it is not as scattered as last semester, and though i only have 4 classes, most of my classes are full of mathematics! Unfortunately, I didnt get in to the other 2 classes that I want to take, but I guess everything has its own reason and purpose. Maybe its better off for me to take 4 classes instead of 6 because the courses I'm taking this semester is truly a super killer!!!
Anyway, enough of school. I'm actually in starbucks right now, drinking signiture hot chocolate as usual and trying to finish up some marketing assignments! I love taking online classes but there are the goods and bads of it. The good is that it's very convenient. You can listen and take quized whenever you want, upon your own avaliability. But the bad is that I tend to get lazy and procrastinate. But this semester, I'm aiming for all A's and B's. Hopefully, I can earn it :)
My friend just downloaded my webcam in my computer and I'm super excited to use it!
olllright guys, gotta head back studying x(
bless`d day,
Jessica
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
A Depression in my University
I've never experience anything in my life more brutal then trying to add a class in state. I'm telling you, I've never ever seen anyone desperately wanting to go to class. I started my spring semester just a few days ago and it feels like WAR and competition all over. I've been trying to add as many classes possible in the business department, but everything, and i mean EVERYTHING is full. My state alone is experiencing a crazy budget cuts meaning they laid off so many professors and cut down 300+ courses, leaving us students with NOTHING! This budget cut is killing me. I'm actually thankful that I'm registered for 4 classes, but honestly the classes that I have wasnt the ones that I need the most...ughhh beteeee! I'm so desperate to find a class! I even stayed for the whole entire class, begged, and when the teacher said no, I even emailed them. but guess what? THEY WONT LET ME IN...duhhh, annoying bgttttt.
And you know what's more irritating? Usually, every year, we can sell our books back, or maybe people like me, I sell my books in craiglist or what not, but this year...they made a new rule. They wont let us sell old textbooks. So every semester/year, they bring out new editions of textbooks so we wont be able to sell our books. This is why publishers get so much money. I actually sold a textbook to someone from craiglist, and she called me a week later saying that she isnt able to use the book because they came in with a new edition. how whack is that? Me being the kind hearted gal, I gave her money back. I dont blame her lah... US is going through a major economic crisis...soon to be like the Depression. (i hope not) hehe...
ollrighttt, gotta head to work now. thanks to those who read my blog full of rantingsss (is that even a word?) haha.... :)
blessed day
Jess
And you know what's more irritating? Usually, every year, we can sell our books back, or maybe people like me, I sell my books in craiglist or what not, but this year...they made a new rule. They wont let us sell old textbooks. So every semester/year, they bring out new editions of textbooks so we wont be able to sell our books. This is why publishers get so much money. I actually sold a textbook to someone from craiglist, and she called me a week later saying that she isnt able to use the book because they came in with a new edition. how whack is that? Me being the kind hearted gal, I gave her money back. I dont blame her lah... US is going through a major economic crisis...soon to be like the Depression. (i hope not) hehe...
ollrighttt, gotta head to work now. thanks to those who read my blog full of rantingsss (is that even a word?) haha.... :)
blessed day
Jess
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I was talking to one of my best friends just a while ago, and he told me about his past back at home and how he never really revealed it and shared it with anyone and now, its all coming back to him and wishing he had some more time to spend with her. Now, their both in a very different world, and how their worlds are too far apart, and how time has been wide deep.
This reminded me of all the friendships and relationships that ive encountered in the past. I`ve never regret any friendships or relationships that I encountered, because i do believe that all those things that I've encountered means a great deal to me and is still a part of my life. I'm so grateful n` thankful for all my friends that I have now, their more precious than anything. Friends are your companions, we need friends. I truly believe in that. As for friends and people that i've lost contact with, they are still apart of me and they will always be.
I dont know, maybe as a "women", i overanalyze alot. I overanalyze just about anything, everything. I analyze from the smallest to the biggest things, you can call me crazy! Honestly, there are times when i think about the past and how my life would actually be if it would still be apart of me, but at the end of the day, I think to myself. ahhh, I'm so stupid for thinking about it! the past was the past. But i cant help myself. I still think about it, and even though we live seperate lives, and heck im crazy to even be talking about this, i reallly dont mind. Our seperation was so awkward for me because for a second, i thought things would work out, but it didnt. We lived a whole seperate and different lives, different level and i wasnt ready for that and neither was it. There are times where i wonder how it is doing and how things are going with it, BUT i feel dumb to even care because caring for someone that doesnt even care about you is pointless. this is getting too long.
This reminded me of all the friendships and relationships that ive encountered in the past. I`ve never regret any friendships or relationships that I encountered, because i do believe that all those things that I've encountered means a great deal to me and is still a part of my life. I'm so grateful n` thankful for all my friends that I have now, their more precious than anything. Friends are your companions, we need friends. I truly believe in that. As for friends and people that i've lost contact with, they are still apart of me and they will always be.
I dont know, maybe as a "women", i overanalyze alot. I overanalyze just about anything, everything. I analyze from the smallest to the biggest things, you can call me crazy! Honestly, there are times when i think about the past and how my life would actually be if it would still be apart of me, but at the end of the day, I think to myself. ahhh, I'm so stupid for thinking about it! the past was the past. But i cant help myself. I still think about it, and even though we live seperate lives, and heck im crazy to even be talking about this, i reallly dont mind. Our seperation was so awkward for me because for a second, i thought things would work out, but it didnt. We lived a whole seperate and different lives, different level and i wasnt ready for that and neither was it. There are times where i wonder how it is doing and how things are going with it, BUT i feel dumb to even care because caring for someone that doesnt even care about you is pointless. this is getting too long.
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