You know what really ticks me off? when people say, ''those who blog have no life". Excuse me, who are you to say that!?! I have a whole lot of life, let me tell you that. In fact, people who blog are creative and artistic; artistic in words by all means. Blogging is my passion. I love being able to express my feelings an emotions through words, even though English is not my first language, but who cares? No one has to agree with anything I say in my blogs, it is my own way of expressing myself and hopefully those who read will capture something out of it.

Moving on...my weekend was a complete disaster. I don't know what's wrong with me these days. I try to make things perfect, but in the end, I completely destroyed it. Am I trying too hard? or maybe I'm not trying at all? I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Haven't you ever felt like sometimes you want to do the right thing, but it all winds up to a total mess? I feel like sometimes I am the cause to these problems happening every week. I'm sorry...

this month is going by very quickly and i have less than a month to decide if i should go or should not go. I pray every night and if it is God's will and plan for me to go then I will. But if it isnt, then what more can i do but to obey Him? I hope this is the right choice I'm making. Whatever happens will happen right? I cant control anyone from doing anything. Furthermore, I know for one that He has a best plan for me in the future, better than what I have now.

class time :)

Hey all...It's been a while since I last blogged. School has started and things are getting pretty busy. Thank God, I got all the classes I needed, and boyy...it took me about 2 weeks just to get the classes i need. I had to beg nad plead! (seriously). Anyway, now that I'm all setteled down with classes, comes the hard work. This semester is one of the craziest semester since most of my classes are online and most deals with SFSU's online web. So basically, most of the homeworks, projects, activities are due online. Technology....technology....technology! And because I have work and classes on campus, it is so hard to find time for me to sit down and read lectures through the internet. I have to juggle back and forth from campus classes to online classes. I'm still juggling to find a way to do this! I need to organize my time wisely! Aside of that, my schedule are scattered around like crazy! For example today, I had class from 1 to 2, and 7pm till 10 pm. I'm in the comp lab trying to make use of my time by blogging! Isn't that just great!? sighhhhh. :(

Today is really cold and gloomy. This morning I stepped out of my door with only one layer of clothing and I'm freezing now. I thought it would be sunny today, but turns out to be foggy. San Francisco's weather cant get any better :)

I've been thinking alot lately...about life. This morning I was talking to a friend whom was talking to his friend about life, and he mentioned that sometimes life is not just about winning. Life is not a win-win situation, that we must strive to get what we want, but in the end...sometimes our result and outcome is not what we expect to get, even how hard you try...you end up losing. Wow, that totally hit me. I began to think, What do I expect out of life? What do I want out of life? Honestly, there are so many things I want to do in life, so many goals that I am willing to persue, but seems like time is ticking by very fast. To me, it just seems very impossible. It is simple to just say, DO IT...like the nikey shoes ad, "impossible is nothing" but is it really that simple? Sometimes we take things for granted. We do not see that what we have is already a fulfillment. I guess I'm the type of person who dreams about alot of things but never have the thought of accomplishing them. Dont get me wrong, it's not that I dont want to. I guess its the fact that I'm still in university and right now, the only thing that I can do is focus on school.

Anyways, it was just a thought I had on life. Feel free to leave any comments. :)

blessd day,

Jessica