hey everyone...
I havent blogged in a while. Sadly, my spring break is over. I wish I had more of it, I needed more rest n more fun ^^ The whole week I just spend time at home resting, relaxing, cleaning and cooking. Weekend was pretty fun, got to spend time with him. I love the feeling of friday, when you know weekend is just right around the corner, it's like YES! FINALLY! time to relax....enjoy my weekend....n of coz see bubbaa. :) Now, back to reality. Back to working my butt off and study hard!
Today, I just realized that my Professor deducted some points off my exam when I actually answered it correctly! Thanks to Will, I never would've caught that mistake he made. I wanted my 2 points...I'm telling you, 2 points made a big difference! Fortunately, I talked to him after class in his office and he gave me the extra 2 points. He said "sorry" and told me that I will pass the class :) That just made my day. Not the part where he gave me the 2 points, but correcting him and proving him wrong!!!!! hahahaha...I actually had to argue with him that I earned that full 6 points though. You know what I realize? Some teachers think that their always correct and smart, but you know, that is so not true! Yes they may be smart, but they are not always correct. We gotta stand up for ourselves if we know they're wrong! I'm happy I did. ^^
It almost 11pm but I'm not so sleepy yet, though I should be getting my beauty sleep :/ I worked out today in the gym!!!! If you guys followed me in Twitter, ya probably know! hahaha. I did 30 mins of treadmill, some crunches, n` bicycle. I dont know what its called, but it looked like a bicycle? Anyway, I'm loving twitter so much these days. I've been tweeting like crazy. I dont even know if that's normal or not. I seriously am a twitter-olic. hehehe. I just realized yesterday that some people who followed me, unfollowed me because I twitter ever minute and sometimes every second! hahaha, they're probably annoyed by my tweets, but I do have a life :) It just so happens that iphone has a twitter application, and since me and my phone is untouchable and unseperatable(sp?), I tweet every second or every chance I get! It's so convienient I'm telling you. :)
Olrightt, I think i'll leave it for now. I'll write more when I have something interesting to talk about. til then bloggers. ;)
Blessed night,
Jess
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
3 Advice to Save Money
So I was reading some news on the economy earlier, and for once in my life, I'm beginning to worry how America is going to end up. I think this is affecting everybody, and I hope they do fix it soon.The worse case scenerio is America can repeat it's history: The Depression! I'm just thankful that neither of my parents got layed off(sp?) from their jobs, and I'm so thankful that I'm not layed off either, though I only work two days. Still, though, I'm still thankful that God is still providing me. So I thought to myself, in a time like this, with the economy so crazy like this, what should we do? hmm....Ding ding ding, SAVE MONEY! And what I meant to save money is to reduce your spendings, especially for personal things. This is probably the hardest thing to do, right? For most people, saving money is not the easiest thing to do. I mean, who doesnt love to spend moolah? So here are 3 steps or advice if you will, that I thought how to save money. Obviously, these are just my advice. Maybe you have a different way of doing it? If so, share with me :)
1.) Try not eat out too much- Believe it or not, eating out is such a waste of money! Of course its always good for a change. Who doesnt love to eat out especially in your fav resto? duuh, I like to eat out as well. wine and dine...hehe. Once in a while it's okay. But if you eat out everyday, or 4-5 times a week, imagine how much you couldve saved in that week!! Did you know that eating out is also unhealthy? All those oil, and greasyness (depends what you eat though). Try cooking at home, and have some home cooked meal. If youre one of those "organic" type of people, instead of going to Whole Foods, try Trader Joes. Trader Joes is by far cheaper than Whole foods, though they dont have everything Whole food has to offer. But Trader Joes has good quality too. Try calculating how much you can spend in one week if you didnt eat out. I think youll be saving a lot. :)
2.) Decrease the personal consumputions- Does that make sense? Correct me if I said it wrong. What I mean by personal consumptions is personal spendings such as shopping! Again, who doesnt love shopping? I love shopping. If shopping was a sport, I'll probably be best at it. Tempatations is always going to be there. Try to decrease your personal consumptions by not shopping every week or two. If you really need it, then buy it. But if you come across something you truly truly love, think twice. Ask yourself, do you really need this? Now be careful, want and need is a whole different meaning. Do you really want it? YES. do you have to have it? YES. But, do you really need it? If you can live without it, then dont buy it! I'm pretty sure you can live without whatever it is you want! Correct me if I'm wrong! When I step to my fav shopping destinations, I cant help but to try it on and purchase it. When something i see is unique and something that i absolutely adore, I have that sense of feeling that I just GOTTA have it or else it'll be gone the next time i go there. Yes, that may be true, but you know what my mom once told me? Fashion is always going to keep coming at you. I think what she means is that there will always be new styles and new cloths going in to the market. We will always want something that we dont have, but its on us to limit ourselves! I'm pretty sure 90% of the personal consumptions we want, we dont need!
3.) Piggy Bank- Try putting $50 every week of every two weeks in your piggy bank. If possible, purchase a piggy bank that is hard to open. Have you seen one of those hard glass piggy banks that is impossible to open unless you crack it open? Yea, thats what I meant. Purchase that one! That way, youre not tempted to open your piggy bank. Imagine putting $50 every week for 6 months, by the end of that 6 months period, you can save at least $1200. Correct me if I'm wrong again. My math skills isnt so great. ^^ This is a good habit, trust me. I'm in the process of trying this thing out. hehhe.
There are many many ways to save up and reduce your spendings. These 3 advice are just some that I'm working on right now. If you have some, do share with me.
Gnite bloggers.
1.) Try not eat out too much- Believe it or not, eating out is such a waste of money! Of course its always good for a change. Who doesnt love to eat out especially in your fav resto? duuh, I like to eat out as well. wine and dine...hehe. Once in a while it's okay. But if you eat out everyday, or 4-5 times a week, imagine how much you couldve saved in that week!! Did you know that eating out is also unhealthy? All those oil, and greasyness (depends what you eat though). Try cooking at home, and have some home cooked meal. If youre one of those "organic" type of people, instead of going to Whole Foods, try Trader Joes. Trader Joes is by far cheaper than Whole foods, though they dont have everything Whole food has to offer. But Trader Joes has good quality too. Try calculating how much you can spend in one week if you didnt eat out. I think youll be saving a lot. :)
2.) Decrease the personal consumputions- Does that make sense? Correct me if I said it wrong. What I mean by personal consumptions is personal spendings such as shopping! Again, who doesnt love shopping? I love shopping. If shopping was a sport, I'll probably be best at it. Tempatations is always going to be there. Try to decrease your personal consumptions by not shopping every week or two. If you really need it, then buy it. But if you come across something you truly truly love, think twice. Ask yourself, do you really need this? Now be careful, want and need is a whole different meaning. Do you really want it? YES. do you have to have it? YES. But, do you really need it? If you can live without it, then dont buy it! I'm pretty sure you can live without whatever it is you want! Correct me if I'm wrong! When I step to my fav shopping destinations, I cant help but to try it on and purchase it. When something i see is unique and something that i absolutely adore, I have that sense of feeling that I just GOTTA have it or else it'll be gone the next time i go there. Yes, that may be true, but you know what my mom once told me? Fashion is always going to keep coming at you. I think what she means is that there will always be new styles and new cloths going in to the market. We will always want something that we dont have, but its on us to limit ourselves! I'm pretty sure 90% of the personal consumptions we want, we dont need!
3.) Piggy Bank- Try putting $50 every week of every two weeks in your piggy bank. If possible, purchase a piggy bank that is hard to open. Have you seen one of those hard glass piggy banks that is impossible to open unless you crack it open? Yea, thats what I meant. Purchase that one! That way, youre not tempted to open your piggy bank. Imagine putting $50 every week for 6 months, by the end of that 6 months period, you can save at least $1200. Correct me if I'm wrong again. My math skills isnt so great. ^^ This is a good habit, trust me. I'm in the process of trying this thing out. hehhe.
There are many many ways to save up and reduce your spendings. These 3 advice are just some that I'm working on right now. If you have some, do share with me.
Gnite bloggers.
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Hey everybodyyy,
How was everyone's weekend? MINES SUCK. Yea, unfortunately my weekend was a nightmare. :( But the good news is I'm finally on spring break! I am super happy. I love the feeling of waking up late and not worrying about being late to class. I love the fact that I dont have to set my alarm clock 7oclock am in the morning. But unfortunately, I do have some work I have to get done for my marketing class online. :/ I'll probably do that tomorrow. Ahhhh, today was very very unproductive. I stayed home all day. Woke up at 11 am, cooked breakfast for him and watched t.v the entire day!!!!!!!!!!! IMAGINE THAT. I havent done that for such a long time now, considering that fact that I have morning class. I love the feeling of being a potatoe couch, but it feels like I'm being a bum in the same time! hahaha. Tomorrow will be productive, I hope.
Before I forget, I wanna send my March birthday wishes to all the birthday gals and guys out there. Dhita, Della, & Chandra. Hepppi bday you guys!!!
Remembered I colored my hair black a month ago? Well guess what? It turned back to my natural hair color before I dyed it black, which is brown :/ I thought the brand I used was pretty good considering that it was a Japanese brand. Turns out it wasnt as great as Loreal. The reason why I didnt use Loreal is cause I dyed it black once before in high school, and the result was completely hideous. It was not your natural black hair color, it looked like someone painted a black paint all over your hair. That 's why I didnt chose Loreal to color my hair black. Oh well, its okay. Bf likes my hair color brown/light brown...I like it darker. I wont color my hair lighter FOR YOU! hehehe.. ^^ I just like that natural brown, not those light brown/japanese girl slutty light brown color. (dont know how else to explain it) nono, just not me. Umm, I think I want to grow my bangs out this time. I've been having my bangs pretty short for the last couple of months. It's just so hard to take care of my bangs! I think this time I'll grow it out up till my chin and then go to the salon n let my hair dresser do their thang! hehhee.
Every sunday after church, it has been a routine for me and my bf to watch CSI MIAMI togeather. oh goshhhh, when it comes to CSI, I'm addicted to it! It's so interesting and I cant even take my eyes off the tv. Usually it plays from 9 pm to 1 am, back to back. So me and jastien would watch it continously until we fall asleep, and until it's time for him to go home. hehehe. Must watch it. ^^
I know this blog is pretty useless. Just updates, randomness, and nothing else to say. Hmm....I dont know what else to say. I'm just wasting time...tu tu duu, life is good.
Ok guys, I have nothing else to write. I'll write more when i have something GOOD to share and worth writing.
Until then, caio bella...
Jess
How was everyone's weekend? MINES SUCK. Yea, unfortunately my weekend was a nightmare. :( But the good news is I'm finally on spring break! I am super happy. I love the feeling of waking up late and not worrying about being late to class. I love the fact that I dont have to set my alarm clock 7oclock am in the morning. But unfortunately, I do have some work I have to get done for my marketing class online. :/ I'll probably do that tomorrow. Ahhhh, today was very very unproductive. I stayed home all day. Woke up at 11 am, cooked breakfast for him and watched t.v the entire day!!!!!!!!!!! IMAGINE THAT. I havent done that for such a long time now, considering that fact that I have morning class. I love the feeling of being a potatoe couch, but it feels like I'm being a bum in the same time! hahaha. Tomorrow will be productive, I hope.
Before I forget, I wanna send my March birthday wishes to all the birthday gals and guys out there. Dhita, Della, & Chandra. Hepppi bday you guys!!!
Remembered I colored my hair black a month ago? Well guess what? It turned back to my natural hair color before I dyed it black, which is brown :/ I thought the brand I used was pretty good considering that it was a Japanese brand. Turns out it wasnt as great as Loreal. The reason why I didnt use Loreal is cause I dyed it black once before in high school, and the result was completely hideous. It was not your natural black hair color, it looked like someone painted a black paint all over your hair. That 's why I didnt chose Loreal to color my hair black. Oh well, its okay. Bf likes my hair color brown/light brown...I like it darker. I wont color my hair lighter FOR YOU! hehehe.. ^^ I just like that natural brown, not those light brown/japanese girl slutty light brown color. (dont know how else to explain it) nono, just not me. Umm, I think I want to grow my bangs out this time. I've been having my bangs pretty short for the last couple of months. It's just so hard to take care of my bangs! I think this time I'll grow it out up till my chin and then go to the salon n let my hair dresser do their thang! hehhee.
Every sunday after church, it has been a routine for me and my bf to watch CSI MIAMI togeather. oh goshhhh, when it comes to CSI, I'm addicted to it! It's so interesting and I cant even take my eyes off the tv. Usually it plays from 9 pm to 1 am, back to back. So me and jastien would watch it continously until we fall asleep, and until it's time for him to go home. hehehe. Must watch it. ^^
I know this blog is pretty useless. Just updates, randomness, and nothing else to say. Hmm....I dont know what else to say. I'm just wasting time...tu tu duu, life is good.
Ok guys, I have nothing else to write. I'll write more when i have something GOOD to share and worth writing.
Until then, caio bella...
Jess
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thoughts
I just finised by quiz and don`t feel like going home, so why not blog again? ^^ I bit my inner lips by accident and it hurts so much. I cant even open my mouth, seems like my face cannot function appropriately. :/
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I was reading my previous blogs, like I always do. I kind of regret deleting my previous blogs from '06. I knew one day I'll say this, and yes, I'm saying it right now. I shouldnt have delete them, but I had to get over it, that's why I delete everything to earase all the memories. But evidently, it isn`t working. One of the things I like to do is reading my previous blogs, to see any transitions or changes, memories etc...To think of it now, I just wish I never deleted those posts. But I guess I did it for a good purpose? I became more aware as to what I write here in my blog. I always believed what I write here is for the sake of myself; to reveal my feelings and emotions, but now, I feel that I need to filter what I say in my blog. I dont want people to get a wrong impression of me. I really am thankful for everything I have right now, thankful for everybody who is a part of my life. I'm truly embracing the place I'm in right now. But, can a person control their feelings and emotions? I myself, can not even control my own thoughts. I cant tell my mind to think this and not to think that. At times, I feel quite "stupid" and "immature" for thinking about it. There really is no reason to think about it. Sometimes the thought of it appears in mind in the most wrong and odd times of the day. When I'm putting my shoes on..when I'm making breakfast...or simply when I'm putting a jacket on. Sometimes when I take a walk outside, the breeze, the cold weather, that ambiance is still there. I really want a closure, a complete closure. I dont take it emotionally or personally to the heart. I really am happy now, to have him in my life. Having someone love and care for me this much with this crazy attitude of mines really does mean something to me. His probably the most greatest thing that has happen to me. I dont think can picture my life without him, but again, it is God's will. kalo jodoh, ngak bkl kemana2. kalo dari Tuhan, smua bkl go smooth. I'm still trying to figure out...trying to dig up, but I cant find myself a concrete reason why I'm still thinking about it. What are the chances that it thinks of me? I feel completely bodoh. Mikirin orng yg ga mikirin loe, bodoh bgt seh jes! At the end of the day, I realize that what I'm doing isnt right. Though I'm not doing anything wrong, the thought of it makes me feel guilty, as if it's a wrong thing to think about it. I think what I need to do is completely get over it. I need to throw away and forget. Everytime I think about it, I need to just completely let go. I think all this time, I'm very capable to do that, but I allow myself to sink in and let my thoughts take over me. For years, I've realized this is what I've been doing. I cant simply pretend it has never been a part of me, but I think I can officially get over it foreal this time. duuhh jess, loe harus!!!
I think this is a closure for me. I think I've had enough, its time to really let go. I dont think I can promise myself to never think about it, because I always do, but I need to do this for myself.
blessed day to all,
Jess
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I was reading my previous blogs, like I always do. I kind of regret deleting my previous blogs from '06. I knew one day I'll say this, and yes, I'm saying it right now. I shouldnt have delete them, but I had to get over it, that's why I delete everything to earase all the memories. But evidently, it isn`t working. One of the things I like to do is reading my previous blogs, to see any transitions or changes, memories etc...To think of it now, I just wish I never deleted those posts. But I guess I did it for a good purpose? I became more aware as to what I write here in my blog. I always believed what I write here is for the sake of myself; to reveal my feelings and emotions, but now, I feel that I need to filter what I say in my blog. I dont want people to get a wrong impression of me. I really am thankful for everything I have right now, thankful for everybody who is a part of my life. I'm truly embracing the place I'm in right now. But, can a person control their feelings and emotions? I myself, can not even control my own thoughts. I cant tell my mind to think this and not to think that. At times, I feel quite "stupid" and "immature" for thinking about it. There really is no reason to think about it. Sometimes the thought of it appears in mind in the most wrong and odd times of the day. When I'm putting my shoes on..when I'm making breakfast...or simply when I'm putting a jacket on. Sometimes when I take a walk outside, the breeze, the cold weather, that ambiance is still there. I really want a closure, a complete closure. I dont take it emotionally or personally to the heart. I really am happy now, to have him in my life. Having someone love and care for me this much with this crazy attitude of mines really does mean something to me. His probably the most greatest thing that has happen to me. I dont think can picture my life without him, but again, it is God's will. kalo jodoh, ngak bkl kemana2. kalo dari Tuhan, smua bkl go smooth. I'm still trying to figure out...trying to dig up, but I cant find myself a concrete reason why I'm still thinking about it. What are the chances that it thinks of me? I feel completely bodoh. Mikirin orng yg ga mikirin loe, bodoh bgt seh jes! At the end of the day, I realize that what I'm doing isnt right. Though I'm not doing anything wrong, the thought of it makes me feel guilty, as if it's a wrong thing to think about it. I think what I need to do is completely get over it. I need to throw away and forget. Everytime I think about it, I need to just completely let go. I think all this time, I'm very capable to do that, but I allow myself to sink in and let my thoughts take over me. For years, I've realized this is what I've been doing. I cant simply pretend it has never been a part of me, but I think I can officially get over it foreal this time. duuhh jess, loe harus!!!
I think this is a closure for me. I think I've had enough, its time to really let go. I dont think I can promise myself to never think about it, because I always do, but I need to do this for myself.
blessed day to all,
Jess
It's still har.d for all of us Dai..
hey everybodyy,
I`m here at Starbucks finishing up my online quiz for marketing before I head to work. Going to work yesterday was quite difficult. I really felt that tension, it seems like everywhere I go, I see him. Although I was never close to him, I was once his friend and he made a great impact in my life. We shared, we laughed, we had one of those deep talks on the way home from work, and now his gone. Its really hard, and not just for me, but for everyone. I question myself since the day his gone, "why?" Then I realized. Though his gone, he made such a big impact to all his friends life. He is such a nice person, very humble and kind. My manager, my other co workers, even the amigos in the back felt that loss at work. I passed by the bridge that he got hit, and there were a lot of flowers and sincere cards etc....There were a whole bunch of people too just staring and pondering. Its too fast Dai, its too soon. Youre too good. When I'm at work and its busy, I'm alright....when I'm at school and I'm studying I'm fine. But when its quiet, and at the end of the day, the thought of him leaving and the question "why?" is always on my mind. A person that I was never so close to really had an impact in my life. I try not to fret, not to be sad, not to cry. I know dai is in a better place, and I know his save. I really do want to see him for the last time in the funeral, but I cant bare to see him. I really cant. I know the right thing to do is to go, but ever since my grandpa passed away, I couldnt help myself to see another dead body or even a casket. It has always been by phobia, a.ka, "Fear". I want to remember his smile, that is why I chose not to go. People may not understand, I know alot of people who says that they go because its for dai, and I completely understand. If I could handle it, I would go in a heartbeat, but my body and soul can not even function to see a dead body or the thought of a casket!
That's it for now...
I`m here at Starbucks finishing up my online quiz for marketing before I head to work. Going to work yesterday was quite difficult. I really felt that tension, it seems like everywhere I go, I see him. Although I was never close to him, I was once his friend and he made a great impact in my life. We shared, we laughed, we had one of those deep talks on the way home from work, and now his gone. Its really hard, and not just for me, but for everyone. I question myself since the day his gone, "why?" Then I realized. Though his gone, he made such a big impact to all his friends life. He is such a nice person, very humble and kind. My manager, my other co workers, even the amigos in the back felt that loss at work. I passed by the bridge that he got hit, and there were a lot of flowers and sincere cards etc....There were a whole bunch of people too just staring and pondering. Its too fast Dai, its too soon. Youre too good. When I'm at work and its busy, I'm alright....when I'm at school and I'm studying I'm fine. But when its quiet, and at the end of the day, the thought of him leaving and the question "why?" is always on my mind. A person that I was never so close to really had an impact in my life. I try not to fret, not to be sad, not to cry. I know dai is in a better place, and I know his save. I really do want to see him for the last time in the funeral, but I cant bare to see him. I really cant. I know the right thing to do is to go, but ever since my grandpa passed away, I couldnt help myself to see another dead body or even a casket. It has always been by phobia, a.ka, "Fear". I want to remember his smile, that is why I chose not to go. People may not understand, I know alot of people who says that they go because its for dai, and I completely understand. If I could handle it, I would go in a heartbeat, but my body and soul can not even function to see a dead body or the thought of a casket!
That's it for now...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
ill always miss you daisuke.
Hey guys...
These couple of days, since yesterday, hasnt been so pleasant. I just heard from my co worker that one of other co worker has just passed away from a motorcycle accident in millbrae. I was never close to him, but we did worked togeather and he was one of the friendliest guy I've ever met. I really do miss him. The last time I saw him was last thursday after work. I gave him my last hug. It is so wierd because that day, I was crossing the millbrae bridge and saw a accident, and who knew it was him that was laying down in the street. It's hard to even write this, but I feel like he deserves this. Its all of sudden you know? I dont think its fair for him to leave. I dont know this has to happen to him. I try not to think about it, but whenever my thoughts wander off to different things, i always stumble back to the thought of him and it hit me bad, that his really gone for good. I just cant believe youre gone daisuke. This really hit me hard. I realize that God can take anyone in anytime. I learned to be more thankful for everything and everyone that I have in my life. It just makes me realize that anyone you love can just leave you in a instant. I learned now...I learned to show my love to those I never show love to. I give my condolsence to his family. I know how much pain they are going through. I miss you dai. It seems unfair to us, but I know youre in a better place. Ill always keep you in my memories. love ya buddy. :)
These couple of days, since yesterday, hasnt been so pleasant. I just heard from my co worker that one of other co worker has just passed away from a motorcycle accident in millbrae. I was never close to him, but we did worked togeather and he was one of the friendliest guy I've ever met. I really do miss him. The last time I saw him was last thursday after work. I gave him my last hug. It is so wierd because that day, I was crossing the millbrae bridge and saw a accident, and who knew it was him that was laying down in the street. It's hard to even write this, but I feel like he deserves this. Its all of sudden you know? I dont think its fair for him to leave. I dont know this has to happen to him. I try not to think about it, but whenever my thoughts wander off to different things, i always stumble back to the thought of him and it hit me bad, that his really gone for good. I just cant believe youre gone daisuke. This really hit me hard. I realize that God can take anyone in anytime. I learned to be more thankful for everything and everyone that I have in my life. It just makes me realize that anyone you love can just leave you in a instant. I learned now...I learned to show my love to those I never show love to. I give my condolsence to his family. I know how much pain they are going through. I miss you dai. It seems unfair to us, but I know youre in a better place. Ill always keep you in my memories. love ya buddy. :)
Friday, March 13, 2009
hey everybodyy,
I just got home from work a couple of hours ago. took a shower, and now here I am relaxing. TGIF!!! Theres a change of plan tomorrow ^^ Not going to Napa Valley, but Montery Bay. I have been wanting to go there for so long now. Jastien loves aquariums and animals...I dont know why? The reason why I wanted to go there is cause its near Pebble beach and Caramel. If you havent been to Pebble beach, you should go there. The sand is so soft...feels like heaven. So I'm pretty excited....but lets hope he doesnt ruin it by waking up late!!!! Work was pretty busy though. Better than yesterday, but not good enough for a friday night. Usually it'll be packed with people waiting, inside & outside, but i guess it makes sense why it has been slow this couple of days: economy. :/ Dont wanna get into that. haha...
I have been thinking alot lately. With the crazy budget cuts, and considering that next semester and next year will get even worser, I have been thinking to transfer out of SF State. I have always wanted to graduate from one University. The whole transfering process is too hectic and complicated so to speak. But this problem is truly affecting me so much. I hate having only 3 classes, because I'm so used to having more classes. This whole budget cut crisis is just slowing me down from my graduation day. I really do want to get out asap, but with the economy like this, I know the only thing I can do is try to do the best I can and rise above mediocre. Honestly, I really dont think America can regain its economy back, at least not for a few years. What do you think? I heard the SJSU isnt experiencing a whole lot of budget cuts...that's really odd to hear. I wonder if other states are facing budget cuts as deep as us! I need to do some research before I TRANSFER out. haha...
I have always wanted to transfer out to Ohio State University. I was planning to study there after high school, but it is pretty far, and I dont know anyone there. I've always been fascinated about that school....I dont know why. Its always good for a change, you know? Ive always been this city girl. I love the noisy streets and crowded areas, but maybe moving to a whole new city that isnt so crowded like SF can be a good change. This is just something for me to consider. Theres alot of planning and saving up to do, but if anyone can do it, I can do it. Theres no doubt at all. I think the only thing I will fear is change and living alone. Ive always wanted to experience that independency, but to think of it again, it can get really tough. Especially i dont really know anyone there. Maybe one day Ill visit the city and get to know the place a little more just to get comfortable before really considering it. ^^
I can`t believe its already March! Time does go by really fast. It feels like it was just December. I really dont like the way time ticks by so quickly. I just want to savor each and every moment I can, while I can. Looking back, it only amazes me how great our God really is. He stood by me in every step I took, and He is still by me until today. I made mistakes in the past, and sometimes I choose the wrong path, but He is still good and continue to fulfill his promises for me. I remembered when I was still in high school, I was still this little naive girl, but as years flew by, it makes me laugh at all the funny n` "dumb" things I did back in hgh school. I gained some friends & lost some friends. Most relationships and friendships I encountered in the past, I knew it wasnt going to last. I still talk to some of my old friends from time to time but i guess everybody has changed so much since then, and everyone has their own hectic life of theirs. I dont blame `em. I have my own busy life to handle.
And for relationships I've lost in the past, all i have left is my memory with them. I really do miss it. I just wish that we could still be friends, but having a friendship is just like having a relationship. It takes two to make it work. I cant force someone to continue to be friends with me if what they want is not what I want. It makes me more aware now as who my true friends really are. Maybe someday Ill get to see them again...
I just got home from work a couple of hours ago. took a shower, and now here I am relaxing. TGIF!!! Theres a change of plan tomorrow ^^ Not going to Napa Valley, but Montery Bay. I have been wanting to go there for so long now. Jastien loves aquariums and animals...I dont know why? The reason why I wanted to go there is cause its near Pebble beach and Caramel. If you havent been to Pebble beach, you should go there. The sand is so soft...feels like heaven. So I'm pretty excited....but lets hope he doesnt ruin it by waking up late!!!! Work was pretty busy though. Better than yesterday, but not good enough for a friday night. Usually it'll be packed with people waiting, inside & outside, but i guess it makes sense why it has been slow this couple of days: economy. :/ Dont wanna get into that. haha...
I have been thinking alot lately. With the crazy budget cuts, and considering that next semester and next year will get even worser, I have been thinking to transfer out of SF State. I have always wanted to graduate from one University. The whole transfering process is too hectic and complicated so to speak. But this problem is truly affecting me so much. I hate having only 3 classes, because I'm so used to having more classes. This whole budget cut crisis is just slowing me down from my graduation day. I really do want to get out asap, but with the economy like this, I know the only thing I can do is try to do the best I can and rise above mediocre. Honestly, I really dont think America can regain its economy back, at least not for a few years. What do you think? I heard the SJSU isnt experiencing a whole lot of budget cuts...that's really odd to hear. I wonder if other states are facing budget cuts as deep as us! I need to do some research before I TRANSFER out. haha...
I have always wanted to transfer out to Ohio State University. I was planning to study there after high school, but it is pretty far, and I dont know anyone there. I've always been fascinated about that school....I dont know why. Its always good for a change, you know? Ive always been this city girl. I love the noisy streets and crowded areas, but maybe moving to a whole new city that isnt so crowded like SF can be a good change. This is just something for me to consider. Theres alot of planning and saving up to do, but if anyone can do it, I can do it. Theres no doubt at all. I think the only thing I will fear is change and living alone. Ive always wanted to experience that independency, but to think of it again, it can get really tough. Especially i dont really know anyone there. Maybe one day Ill visit the city and get to know the place a little more just to get comfortable before really considering it. ^^
I can`t believe its already March! Time does go by really fast. It feels like it was just December. I really dont like the way time ticks by so quickly. I just want to savor each and every moment I can, while I can. Looking back, it only amazes me how great our God really is. He stood by me in every step I took, and He is still by me until today. I made mistakes in the past, and sometimes I choose the wrong path, but He is still good and continue to fulfill his promises for me. I remembered when I was still in high school, I was still this little naive girl, but as years flew by, it makes me laugh at all the funny n` "dumb" things I did back in hgh school. I gained some friends & lost some friends. Most relationships and friendships I encountered in the past, I knew it wasnt going to last. I still talk to some of my old friends from time to time but i guess everybody has changed so much since then, and everyone has their own hectic life of theirs. I dont blame `em. I have my own busy life to handle.
And for relationships I've lost in the past, all i have left is my memory with them. I really do miss it. I just wish that we could still be friends, but having a friendship is just like having a relationship. It takes two to make it work. I cant force someone to continue to be friends with me if what they want is not what I want. It makes me more aware now as who my true friends really are. Maybe someday Ill get to see them again...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
updates & spring break
hey everybody!!!!!!
I'm feelin` great today, for some reason. THANK GOD finance exam are over. Yesterday was probably the most craziest and busiest day I've ever had to gone through so far this year. I stayed on campus for almost the whole day. I studied like I've never studied before...and I actually did pretty well. I felt somewhat confident but there were some questions that I wasnt sure of. I hope I did well....I heard my prof curves real good, but if someone aced the exam, then most likely its going to screw us all over!
Anyyyway, today I had class from 9-12pm, then went home...watched some lectures for a good 3 hours and now here I am...just chilling on a nice afternoon. Ahh, I feel so productive today! I think once I get in that "study/productive mode", I get used to it..and studying just becomes a habit. Like yesterday, I studied the whole day, and after the exam, I felt a sense of accomplishment and today, it just makes me wanna do better. haha...Let's hope this long enough...
Today is suchhhhh a beautiiiifullllll day. Its been sunny these couple of days but also cold and windy. For some reason, today is just simply beautiful. Wish I didnt have so many things to do, or else I'll be enjoying the sun ;) Hmmm...what else? I'm just trying to kill some time. I dont know why. Today I feel so happy and JUST GREAT! I think it's the weather...the smell of the bbq that i can smell from below my balcony...the fresh spring breeze...ahhhh so lovely. ^^
I cant wait for spring. I havent planned anything yet, and I'm trying not to plan anything because everytime I plan things, it never turned out the way I want it to be. So I guess well just see what happens? Spring though, is just right around the corner. I want to shop mad but i got to do some savings for the summer :) I feel like there is always a need to spend everyday. Like yesterday, I had a finance exam, and I figured I needed a financial calculator, so of course I bought one. When I opened the case and tried to work with the calculator, i couldnt figure how to use it! it wasnt your normal scientific calc`. crazy! It was the most hardest thing i had to deal with! the manual didnt even helped. So i went to the bookstore, and I wanted to return. But guess what? They didnt let me. The people in the sfsu bookstore suck so bad. SO MEAN, not polite and rude. They said because I opened the case, I'm not able to return it. I was so mad!!!! $40 down the drain. So yes...I need to start saving big time, not because of this incident, but just because there sometimes temptations gets in the way, and that feeling of "I JUST GOT TO HAVE THAT" kind of feeling. so yes, LETS start saving, shall we?
Because I dont want to plan spring break, the places that I have in mind are Tahoe, San Diego or LA, or Vegas? Well see...I've been to Lake Tahoe, LA and Vegas, but I dont mind going there again. I really want to go disneyland..and SD, the zoo and the sea world there. I heard its amazingly beautiful. ^^ Vegas...hmm, who doesnt want to go vegas? Now, that I'm 21, I can do some gambling....ha ha...just kidding? Tahoe...I dont know. Jastien wants to go there, but I really dont want to go there, considering the fact that I've been there so many times before. Well see though. If those 4 places dont turn out good, then I dont mind staying in the city. Maybe go to Montery Bay (ALWAYS WANTED TO GO THERE) or have some bbq and beach :)
Alrighttt, this is getting way too long of a update. Thanks for reading and I'm offff.
mUahhhh,
Jess
I'm feelin` great today, for some reason. THANK GOD finance exam are over. Yesterday was probably the most craziest and busiest day I've ever had to gone through so far this year. I stayed on campus for almost the whole day. I studied like I've never studied before...and I actually did pretty well. I felt somewhat confident but there were some questions that I wasnt sure of. I hope I did well....I heard my prof curves real good, but if someone aced the exam, then most likely its going to screw us all over!
Anyyyway, today I had class from 9-12pm, then went home...watched some lectures for a good 3 hours and now here I am...just chilling on a nice afternoon. Ahh, I feel so productive today! I think once I get in that "study/productive mode", I get used to it..and studying just becomes a habit. Like yesterday, I studied the whole day, and after the exam, I felt a sense of accomplishment and today, it just makes me wanna do better. haha...Let's hope this long enough...
Today is suchhhhh a beautiiiifullllll day. Its been sunny these couple of days but also cold and windy. For some reason, today is just simply beautiful. Wish I didnt have so many things to do, or else I'll be enjoying the sun ;) Hmmm...what else? I'm just trying to kill some time. I dont know why. Today I feel so happy and JUST GREAT! I think it's the weather...the smell of the bbq that i can smell from below my balcony...the fresh spring breeze...ahhhh so lovely. ^^
I cant wait for spring. I havent planned anything yet, and I'm trying not to plan anything because everytime I plan things, it never turned out the way I want it to be. So I guess well just see what happens? Spring though, is just right around the corner. I want to shop mad but i got to do some savings for the summer :) I feel like there is always a need to spend everyday. Like yesterday, I had a finance exam, and I figured I needed a financial calculator, so of course I bought one. When I opened the case and tried to work with the calculator, i couldnt figure how to use it! it wasnt your normal scientific calc`. crazy! It was the most hardest thing i had to deal with! the manual didnt even helped. So i went to the bookstore, and I wanted to return. But guess what? They didnt let me. The people in the sfsu bookstore suck so bad. SO MEAN, not polite and rude. They said because I opened the case, I'm not able to return it. I was so mad!!!! $40 down the drain. So yes...I need to start saving big time, not because of this incident, but just because there sometimes temptations gets in the way, and that feeling of "I JUST GOT TO HAVE THAT" kind of feeling. so yes, LETS start saving, shall we?
Because I dont want to plan spring break, the places that I have in mind are Tahoe, San Diego or LA, or Vegas? Well see...I've been to Lake Tahoe, LA and Vegas, but I dont mind going there again. I really want to go disneyland..and SD, the zoo and the sea world there. I heard its amazingly beautiful. ^^ Vegas...hmm, who doesnt want to go vegas? Now, that I'm 21, I can do some gambling....ha ha...just kidding? Tahoe...I dont know. Jastien wants to go there, but I really dont want to go there, considering the fact that I've been there so many times before. Well see though. If those 4 places dont turn out good, then I dont mind staying in the city. Maybe go to Montery Bay (ALWAYS WANTED TO GO THERE) or have some bbq and beach :)
Alrighttt, this is getting way too long of a update. Thanks for reading and I'm offff.
mUahhhh,
Jess
Monday, March 09, 2009
Pornography
I know, you might be thinking, why in the world would I talk about pornography?! Yeah, I thought so. I was skeptical and somewhat unsure wheather I should talk about it or not `cause I know that it is a very controversial topic and many people do have different views and own opinions considering pornography. But...I thought this would be a interesting topic to write about. You dont necessarily have to agree with anything I say, again, this is just my opinion. (trying to prevent trouble ^^)
Earlier, one of my friend (should remain annoynomous) and I was having a conversation and somehow, for some odd reason, we came talking about pornography. Yes, of course, this friend of mine is a guy and he of course had different opinions as to what I believed in. I'm just going to be straight up. Here goes...I think porn is uneccesary. THERE, I said it. I could give you many reasons as to why i think its uncessary. Ok, maybe unceccesary is NOT THE CORRECT use of word to describe pornography in my eyes, but I feel like its just a waste of time watching. Why do guys watch it? Yea, we all know. Because it turns them on, correct? Is it normal for guys to watch porn? Um...I think in this world, everyone thinks that watching porn is "normal" and I guess it is for guys? But, it really bothers me how guys (NOT ALL GUYS, dont get me wrong) dedicate most of their time in front of the computer watching porn, I mean, seriously? do you have a life?! Again, I'm not saying that all guys do this, but I did learn some things in regards to this topic, and it just disgusts me.
I guess if youre single and you dont have a spouse, wife, gf, bf, whoever....maybe its still reasonable, i dont know? I could care less, but if you are married or in a relationship, in my opinion, I dont think it's right to watch porn. In my eyes, it is the same thing as cheating on your own spouse or whoever it may be. It's disrespectful and rude. Why would you watch porn if youre married or in a relationship? It's like saying that you arent thankful for your partner, and you rather watch some women on the internet for hours rather than your partner...that just bothers me. Its sick. I just dont appreciate it. I know this topic is very controversial, and you might be saying, so what? But I find this topic very disturbing and serious in some way. I mean, I guess if both partners agree to watch it togeather, then maybe that is still reasonable, but imagine you discover that your spouse or partner watches porn behind your back, doesnt that hurt you? I mean, wouldnt that mean something to you? It certainly would for me. It's like another way of saying that he doesnt appreciate your body and rather watch other women's body and enjoying it rather than spending quality time with you. It is really sick. It makes me sick writing this. I really dont appreciate it, and for those guys who does do this, please respect your partner. I dont think it is something that I could forgive if it happened to me. It just all comes down to respect. IF you want to be treated with respect, then treat us with respect. After all, women are smarter than men (it's true) we are not stupid or naive, just so you know :)
Anyway, that's it for now. I should be heading back studying. I got almost everything done except chp 9 which I will finish tomorrow. g`nite bloggers
Jess
Earlier, one of my friend (should remain annoynomous) and I was having a conversation and somehow, for some odd reason, we came talking about pornography. Yes, of course, this friend of mine is a guy and he of course had different opinions as to what I believed in. I'm just going to be straight up. Here goes...I think porn is uneccesary. THERE, I said it. I could give you many reasons as to why i think its uncessary. Ok, maybe unceccesary is NOT THE CORRECT use of word to describe pornography in my eyes, but I feel like its just a waste of time watching. Why do guys watch it? Yea, we all know. Because it turns them on, correct? Is it normal for guys to watch porn? Um...I think in this world, everyone thinks that watching porn is "normal" and I guess it is for guys? But, it really bothers me how guys (NOT ALL GUYS, dont get me wrong) dedicate most of their time in front of the computer watching porn, I mean, seriously? do you have a life?! Again, I'm not saying that all guys do this, but I did learn some things in regards to this topic, and it just disgusts me.
I guess if youre single and you dont have a spouse, wife, gf, bf, whoever....maybe its still reasonable, i dont know? I could care less, but if you are married or in a relationship, in my opinion, I dont think it's right to watch porn. In my eyes, it is the same thing as cheating on your own spouse or whoever it may be. It's disrespectful and rude. Why would you watch porn if youre married or in a relationship? It's like saying that you arent thankful for your partner, and you rather watch some women on the internet for hours rather than your partner...that just bothers me. Its sick. I just dont appreciate it. I know this topic is very controversial, and you might be saying, so what? But I find this topic very disturbing and serious in some way. I mean, I guess if both partners agree to watch it togeather, then maybe that is still reasonable, but imagine you discover that your spouse or partner watches porn behind your back, doesnt that hurt you? I mean, wouldnt that mean something to you? It certainly would for me. It's like another way of saying that he doesnt appreciate your body and rather watch other women's body and enjoying it rather than spending quality time with you. It is really sick. It makes me sick writing this. I really dont appreciate it, and for those guys who does do this, please respect your partner. I dont think it is something that I could forgive if it happened to me. It just all comes down to respect. IF you want to be treated with respect, then treat us with respect. After all, women are smarter than men (it's true) we are not stupid or naive, just so you know :)
Anyway, that's it for now. I should be heading back studying. I got almost everything done except chp 9 which I will finish tomorrow. g`nite bloggers
Jess
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
gloomy rainy afternoon...
Today is such a gloomly day. In fact, it's been gloomy for weeks now. :( sucks so much. I miss the sunny days in san francisco but lately it has been nothing but rain and dark clouds. It was good for a change but now it's just getting annoying. I cant even go out....and the fact that i have to wear bundles and bundles of clothing is ehhhh....annoying.
Lately, my back has been hurting so badly. I dont really know why or the cause of it, but I guess since I work in a restaurant, I've been carrying heavy plates and doing heaving chores, walking by here and there, running from front to back, so i guess thats the cause? But i've been working in the resto for 2 years now and I was perfectly fine before? I dont know. I just hope it heals soon and hopefully its nothing worse.
I have night class at 7-10pm tonight and let me tell you how muchhhh i dont want to go. I was planning on skipping tonight since its raining and I'm sick, but I just realized that I have an exam for this class so I have to go!!! I really really hate coughing, I mean who does? I hate it when my throat itches and I have to cough like a million gazillion times and when i cough my back starts to hurt. UGHHH ok jess, stop procrastinating.
Changing subject, I'm planning and creating on this project of mines. I've been wanting to it for a long time but you know? I never have time! THATS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE! :) But i just realized that it doesnt or wouldnt take much of my time and maybe if I start on it soon, ppl would love it and maybe I can start a small business out of it or something? I dont know, it's just a thought. Well see how it goes. I'll update you all more on that later. ;)
Yesterday night, I watched the season finale of the BACHELORS. omgg it was so dramatic!!! i mean, considering the fact that it was the most craziest thing that happened in bachelor history. A part of me hates Jason for ditching Melissa, esp on national tv, but a part of me also understands that we shouldnt live our lives in regrets and I did understand why he did what he did. But one thing i didnt understand was the fact that he had to ditch her in front of America? I mean, cmon? what is there left to say if it wasnt PLANNED OR STAGED in the first place? I think there was something fishy going on behind all of this? Wish the best of luck to molly and Jason!
Olrightttt, thats it for now. gonna get some rest before i head to campus. haiizzzzz :(
`blessd day,
Jess
Lately, my back has been hurting so badly. I dont really know why or the cause of it, but I guess since I work in a restaurant, I've been carrying heavy plates and doing heaving chores, walking by here and there, running from front to back, so i guess thats the cause? But i've been working in the resto for 2 years now and I was perfectly fine before? I dont know. I just hope it heals soon and hopefully its nothing worse.
I have night class at 7-10pm tonight and let me tell you how muchhhh i dont want to go. I was planning on skipping tonight since its raining and I'm sick, but I just realized that I have an exam for this class so I have to go!!! I really really hate coughing, I mean who does? I hate it when my throat itches and I have to cough like a million gazillion times and when i cough my back starts to hurt. UGHHH ok jess, stop procrastinating.
Changing subject, I'm planning and creating on this project of mines. I've been wanting to it for a long time but you know? I never have time! THATS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE! :) But i just realized that it doesnt or wouldnt take much of my time and maybe if I start on it soon, ppl would love it and maybe I can start a small business out of it or something? I dont know, it's just a thought. Well see how it goes. I'll update you all more on that later. ;)
Yesterday night, I watched the season finale of the BACHELORS. omgg it was so dramatic!!! i mean, considering the fact that it was the most craziest thing that happened in bachelor history. A part of me hates Jason for ditching Melissa, esp on national tv, but a part of me also understands that we shouldnt live our lives in regrets and I did understand why he did what he did. But one thing i didnt understand was the fact that he had to ditch her in front of America? I mean, cmon? what is there left to say if it wasnt PLANNED OR STAGED in the first place? I think there was something fishy going on behind all of this? Wish the best of luck to molly and Jason!
Olrightttt, thats it for now. gonna get some rest before i head to campus. haiizzzzz :(
`blessd day,
Jess
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