Something is telling me to take the risk, but another part of me is hesitating. What do I do?

Well see...

stressed. I've never been this stress ever in my life. So much pressure and emotions running through my veins. I cant take it anymore, I feel so weak and as much as I defend myself, it gets me nowhere. I'm so tired of it. im sick of it.

When are exams ever gonna end? I feel like I've been stacked with exams every week now since last month. I've been going through the same routine for the past 2 months and its burning me out. Classes in the morning till the afternoon, go home, study, eat, shower, study till late, sleep, wake up, and the day starts all over again with the same routine. I know I shouldn't be complaining, but this is burning me out to the max. Ok, I have to stop complaining!

I just finished with my DS exam today, and what do you knowwww? I got another exam next week, in which i have to prepare starting today, BUT, I'm not even studying right now. Why? because I feel like I need a break. bleh. "Successful people dont take breaks, they keep on going." OH WELL.

The weather in SF has been so inconsistent lately. Once day its super hot, the next it's raining, and the next its super hot again. Today was so windy. I hate those days when there is sunshine, but its sooo cold. It almost feels like youre in Alaska. Icy cold!

“Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves,
when our dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little,
when we arrive safely because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when with the abundance of things we possess,
we have lost our thirst for the waters of life, having fallen in love with life,
we have ceased to dream of eternity, and in our efforts to build a new earth,
we have allowed our vision of the new heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas, where storms will show your mastery, where losing sight of land, we shall find the stars. We ask you to push back the horizon of our hopes, and to push us into the future in strength, courage, hope, and love.
This we ask in the name of our Captain, who is Jesus Christ. “
— Francis Drake

wonderful life...

It's been one crazy week! These two weeks has been completely crazy. I've been getting no sleep at all. Exam week sucks. Ruining my life! Yesterday, I slept at 5.30am, woke up for class at 7am this morning, had class from 9am-12pm, had a "break" for 2 hours, but not really considered a break since I was studying for my exam. Took the exam at 2pm, went home, ate, did my two bio report lab, studied for Bio quiz, and now here I am blogging. WHAT A LIFE! I must admit, I like being productive. I hate not being productive, and ok so why am I complaining right? I'm just honestly tired and drained. I feel cranky these past two weeks. I just need sleep, but I feel like if I sleep, I might not wake up or I might lose focus, so I don't sleep. bleh! Today was my last day of exam 1. I can finally rest at least for another 2 weeks before my 2nd exam starts again. I feel really challanged this semester, not only because Im taking 6 classes, but because I feel like for once I'm taking classes that I love, but in the same time its pretty challenging. I dont know if that made any sense, but I think this semester is going to be a great one!

Aside of school, everything has been great. Okay, maybe not so great. Ever since this whole exam started two weeks ago, and the whole lack of sleep situation, everything I do effects the way my mood. I dont feel like doing much. I just want to go home and rest after a long day, and yeah sounds pretty boring, but I dont have any more energy or strength to go out anymore. My friends all think I'm crazy for studying too much. ok enough of the school talk, seriously.

its 1 am right now, and I dont know why im still awake when i should be getting my sleep. Okay, I should probably be sleeping soon. Until then....

Goodnight sweet dreams
<3 Jess

One crazy week

This week was beyond crazy and tiring :( I had 4 exams, and one more next week. I feel like I haven't even have time for myself. Been waking up super early, sleeping super late and the routine like so continues like that for the whole week. My sleeping hours is so messed up and I feel like I've been consuming myself with so much caffeine and energy drinks just to keep myself awake. On the lighternote, studying does pay off though. I totally feel that studying boosts up my confidence, and my worry level decrease by 50%. haha :) Meaning, I still worry and get nervous before exams, but at least its down by 50%. You know that feeling when you're buzzed? You kinda feel dizzy and light headed right? Thats the way I felt today. I guess its because I didnt get much sleep, so I felt so light headed, almost like the feeling as if you were buzzed. The unfortunates of getting lack of sleep is seriously not fun. I respond to people late and I feel clueless and blank! I had lunch with my friend today, and he asked me why I was so quiet and looked so blank. I simply said, LACK OF SLEEP! Another unfortunate is I get so cranky and moody. Seriously. I felt like everyone was so annoying today. I just felt like slapping each and everyone. haha. sorry. just the honest truth. ^^

To top it off, work was even worser. I spilled 5 bowls of ponzu sauce all over the floor, and knocked down couple glasses of water on the floor as well. Its super embarrassing. Sigh. Today is just not my kind of day. :( I hope tomorrow will be better. I'm just excited for the weekend. Though I have another exam to study for, at least I have a day or two to enjoy before I head back to my torture zone. :)

Ok it's almost 1am and I should be sleeping, but why arent i? I dont know. I'm a stubborn girl, remember? Ok, I should probably go to bed and catch on my sleeping hours.

goodnight guys,
Jess

I thought I would do a short blog before I study. (: I just got off work an hour ago. I feel tired and exhausted, but I have to start studying for my exams next week. This is when I seriously question myself why in the world did I choose to take 6 classes this semester! bleh. \

This week has been so crappy for me. No idea why. I just feel crappy. So many things to do, and so little time. I feel like I lose focus easily over small things, and that's not good. I really need to focus, but I feel like there is so many distractions heading my way. I have family visiting from Indonesia, so I have no choice but to accompany them. My other relatives are also here for a month, so yeah I have to accompany them too. It's just frustrating. I feel bad for not accompanying them, but in the same time, I have so many responsibilities and other things that I need to get done. How in the world am I supposed to prioritize? My family is important, but so is my school work. Sigh...

Sometimes I feel like life is so unfair. I know this might sound selfish, but I don't like not getting what I want. Let me rephrase that. I like getting things my way, and if I don't get them my way, it just sucks. Yeah, I know that sound selfish of me to say, but what can I right? Humans are never satisfied with anything and everything. True, right? I think this is why I've been feeling crappy lately. Aside of my family being here and being busy with the University, I feel like I have drown into a pit of a black empty hole. I think I'm beginning to realize that whatever I did was not worth it, and it sure is not worth my time. I have to admit. I made a huge mistake, and I somewhat regret it. I should have never questioned myself and followed my heart. Now, it's just hard on me. But things happen for a reason, right? Now, I just have to deal with it. SIGH. Bad timing, seriously. I cant lose focus now. Its a sucky feeling. I hate having to deal with the leftover crap. I wish I can blog happy blogs, but right now its just so sucky. :(

Okay this is getting way too long. I need to study! ^^

blessed day,
Jess

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Lately everywhere I go, I see a resemblance of you...

I don't know what to do. I'm stuck in between, and though I know what the right thing is for me to do, I don't want to do it. I can honestly say that I'm scared to lose what I have, but I also don't want to lose the friendship that I've already built. So what do I do? Someone has to get hurt in the end. I have to do it.

Almost Perfect. . .

One more day of long weekend, and back to school )= I really enjoyed my Labor Day weekend. It was nice for a change to do something with my friends that I never really got the chance to do on a usual weekend. We went to Santa Cruz on Saturday. Went to a spa called Tea Tree Spa and hit the beaches. Love it! The rest of the night got really blurry, cause I was completely buzzed after drinking a couple of drinks.

The whole weekend just seemed almost perfect. I enjoyed every moment of it. Its like I'm in this dream and I just dont want to wake up from it. I feel like I am living a fairytale right now. :( I hate saying goodbye. I am so helpless right now...

My life is so confusing right now. Nobody has an idea how confusing it is! OK, this is a very useless blog, so PLEASE don't read it, unless you have no life but to read my rants! I am in the middle of confused and sure. Does that even make any sense? I don't understand myself! Most of my friends say that I'm a positive person, but this....THIS I just don't think I can be positive about. I am too confused to fit positive in this situation. Man, I don't know what to do! I really don't know what I should do. I don't even know what is the right thing to do. OMG. I am going crazy! Someone needs to calm me down! I AM A CRAZY WOMEN!

I'm so excited for this weekend! I have a 5 day weekend. No school friday, labor day on monday, and next week is furlough day, so it means I have a 5 day weekend! I'm starting to like the idea of furlough days! Sucks for the teachers, but we benefit them with days off from school! The only unfortunate thing is that some professors are lame and are not willing to teach certain material that is supposed to be covered on the furlough day, that means we have to learn it ourselves. blah!

I wasnt feeling so well today. Maybe its the lack of sleep I've been getting. Last night, I couldnt sleep until 3-4am ish cause of that caramel macchiato I drank from campus. Yeah yeah, I told you I'm stubborn! I'm bad with caffiene, but I still drink it anyways! I was having runny nose, my throat was itchy, and my eyes felt so heavy. I feel a bit better now because I took a little nap this afternoon. Hopefully I feel better for the weekend! :)

Ok, I dont know why I am blogging when I should be reading! Ok, signing off!

Jess

Hi everybody,

I'm back to another week of school. I'm actually starting to love this semester more than I thought I would, despite of the hectic and crazy schedule. I think this semester will be by far my best semester. I have a feeling :) My goal for this semester is to aim for A's. It seem so impossible just 'cause I'm taking 6 hard core classes, and considering that I have a not so good time management, but I'm working my butt off just to raise my GPA. Yeah, my GPA isn't looking so good right now, and I have to raise it for internships. AHHH, stressing me out! This is seriously making me go crazy. Sometimes I feel like I dont know how to do everything all at once, and I dont even know if I can aim for 6 A'S, but I really need to raise my GPA. That's probably my biggest concern and goal. PLEASE HELP ME GOD!!! you can do it jess you can do itt...!

I dont have class until 7pm tonight. Sucks, but I dont really mind cause I can actually catch up on my readings the whole day. I really hate night classes, but I rather by night classes rather than morning classes. I just hope this class will be entertaining. On the bright side, I dont have classes on fridays, which means I have a 3 day weekend this semester :) This week, I have a 4 day weekend! Yay to labor day!

Ollright guys, dont even know why I am blogging when I should be reading. Cheers to everyone! :)

blessed day,
Jess

Time heals everything...

Isn't funny how time can heal just about anything? I was reading through my previous blogs like I always do, and it's been a while since I've mention about it. Time does heal everything. In my case, unfortunately, it took me couple of years to realize and wake up to the truth. I felt so stupid. Sometimes when I think about it, I just laugh it out. I mean, everyone isnt perfect right. I felt so guilty having that emotions and feelings that I know I should'nt be having. But what was I supposed to do? I cant help myself. I feel things for a reason. I think of things for a reason. I dont even know what is the reason, but anyway, time heals everything. I'm happy now, even though it took this longggg to get over it, I think this time I'm starting to realize the truth. I dont feel like a fool. I feel stupid at times for thinking about it, but I dont feel like a fool. I think its normal for humans to think of certain things especially their past and just cant get over it. OH well right? Life is life. Sometimes though, I wish that things couldve been different. I wish that we could still be friends, but I guess some things are just not meant to be permanent in your lives. Some things stays, some things are meant to go. <3

Anyway, fall semester started this week. I am already feeling the pressure. I dont even know what to study for first. It is really frustrating, but I'm trying to be positive about it and go day by day. ahhh. God please give me the strength!!!!

Hey guys,

It's been a while since I blogged. I got back from San Diego last week. That was my last big vacation before fall semester starts. I start class again tomorrow. I'm somewhat excited, somewhat not. I hate having to purchase bundles of textbooks that costs so much. And in the end, I cant sell them because they usually come up with new editions for the next semester. Well, that's the way they make money right? This semester is going to be a tough one. It's been a while since I took 6 classes. All my friends think I'm crazy for taking so much classes, considering that they are pretty hard core, but I believe I can do it. I mean, I took 7 classes before! I know quality is better than quantity, but I know with God, all things are possible.

I am excited that summer is coming to an end, and winter is coming! Bring on the boots and scarfs! :) Lately, I've been playing the piano again. Well, I've been trying to get back to playing the piano. It's been a while since I play the piano or even touch it. I used to take piano lessons back then, but its just been so long since I played the piano. I'm still working on it, and brushing my skills. So, maybe I'll play a song for you guys :)

Alright, well I dont know what else to say. I'll try to blog more often, but since fall semester is starting, I cant promise anything. But whoever reads my blog should know me. I either blog my feelings out or blog randomly. :)

Have a blessed day everyone! Jesus Bless you!

Jess <3

Hey guys,

I can`t believe summer is coming to an end. I'm actually not sad that summer is ending. This summer went by so slow, and to be honest, I'm excited for school to start. I need something to look forward to. I need to be productive! I miss procrastinating, and staying up late doing papers or studying for exams. I know, believe it or not I am. But I know for sure after a couple weeks of school, I'll be wishing it's the holiday already. :)

These couple of weeks, I feel like I've been dreaming. I feel like I've been living in my own little world. I don't know how to explain it. I miss the feeling. I miss that excitement. I don't know for some reason, I've been so happy lately. I've been waking up in the morning with the biggest smile on my face for no reason at all. I don't know, I feel like words cant even describe how cheerful and joyful I am. There would be times where I just smile and the feeling of happiness is just so powerful that I smile for no reason. haha. I dont know if that made any sense or not. I feel like I'm repeating myself, but you know sometimes happiness can not be bought with money or material. Finding true happiness is surely from within. That sounds really vague, but its so true. As of right now, I feel like my life is so complicated. I dont think anyone will ever understand how complicated it is. Reading my blogs doesnt get you to understand how complicated it is. Sometimes I am that type of person that doesnt like to tell anyone how I feel. I keep it in my heart and in my mind. I learned that its not a good thing to hide things. I shared to a couple of my friends, and honestly, I am so happy to have friends who are willing to listen and willing to help me, even if it is just giving me a simple advice. I know have such great friends, and I am so grateful for it.

I havent decide anything yet. I havent break the egg shell. I dont know if I ever will. I just feel so unright doing it. I guess I just have to hinder myself away from it? I dont know. I really dont know what to do. If you guys are reading this, you might not understand or get anything I'm writing, and thats okay. You can stop reading, cause I'll be talking nonsense from now. ^^ It just feels so right, but in the same time its wrong. I'm really confused and frustrated. I dont know what is the right thing to do, I really dont. Only if life is simple as 1 2 3 right? I think one day, I will break that shell, but for now, I have to keep it to myself. :(

Life.

Life seems so great right now...at least for me. I don't know how long this feeling would last, but I lately, I've been feeling so happy. I wake up in the morning with the best mood ever with no reason. :) I'm not sure of what I did was wrong, but my intentions are nothing more. In a way, I should have left it the way it was, because deep down I know it is not right. But on the other hand, I knew if I did not take the chance, I would wonder and regret it in the end. Right now, I just don't know what is right and what is wrong. If anything, I'm just so happy.

In life, there is a time for everything, right? A time to slack off, a time when you just don't care about your education or work, a time where everything just seems to go downhill, a time to cry and a time to mend. But there comes a time in life in everyone where a light bulb just suddenly pops into your brain, and you suddenly realize that life is not worth living unless you do something great with it. Guess what? That shiny light bulb that's been lost for years has finally struck my brain like a lightening bolt. These couple years I've been in University has been great, but there was nothing in particular that excites me or motivates me. Sometimes, I try to motivate myself and find my own excitement in life, but just hearing the downfall of the economy, unemployment rates, and how hard it is to find jobs truly brought my excitement to the lowest level of levels. I've always had a dream of making it big one day, and working for some big company in the future, but that feeling just suddenly disappeared a couple years back. It's like I finally saw a light, and I'm trying to aim and reach for that light, but somewhere along the line, I felt like it is just too impossible to reach to that light, because there were many things in my way. I'm not blaming anybody...if anything, I blame myself. All these years, I have done what pleases other people. Everything I do is to please my parents. I was so scared to walk out of my comfort zone, and stand up for myself. I did what they wanted me to do, because deep down I felt like that was the right thing. Even though I had these many goals and visions I want to pursue and see myself becoming in the future, I felt like everything leads to a dead end. The idea of having to make two choices later in the future frightens me. Honestly, all my goals that I want to achieve, I was not excited about it. I did not work hard for it. I just didn't care. I just wanted to go with the flow and see where I will end up after I graduate. But, after that light bulb strike in my head, I've realized that life is truly worth nothing unless you do something that makes you happy. What I mean by 'what makes you happy' is not just from your surroundings, but what you're passionate about; making your dreams become into reality.

It was hard on me for a while, because I was confused and frustrated. I'm like a little child squeezed in the middle of a crowd clueless. I felt like the right thing to do is follow him wherever he will go in the end, but where does that leave me? In one point of my life, I felt like it was just so useless to follow my dream and pursue what I want to do, because whatever I do, I will end up in one place: Indonesia. Working my ass off is not going to be worth it. I cant live my dreams there, that's not where my heart is. I felt like I've been such a child. I've been the follower, when I'm supposed to be the leader and the decision maker for myself. Deep down, I think its a nice gesture of me. I do it because I cared about him and I wanted us to work out in the long run, but is this what really makes me happy? What if someday things went south, what am I left with? Nothing.

This week, I've awaken and realized the importance of life. I learned that you need to make your own decisions in life, and stand up for what you believe in. I felt like all these years I've been dragged around. I felt scared to open up and say what I want to do with my life, because my parents might not approve. I chose accounting for goodness sake because my parents wanted me to take it. I tried to love it, but that was just not me. You have to be passionate about something. Set a goal, and achieve it. And you know what? I've finally found mines. I'm not gonna think about all these negativities, and how competitive my field might be, because I really don't care. Everywhere you go is competitive if you really think about. If I love it that much, I will work my butt off like crazy until I get what I want. I am so passionate about this, and I really want to make my dreams come true. I sound like a little girl right now, I know, but hey! You need to be excited in life. You need that drive and motivation that gets you moving, or else you're nothing. You gotta stand out as an individual :) As of right now, I really am not worrying about my future. I'm not worrying about going back to Indonesia or weather to follow him or not, because for once, I want to do something for myself. I want to see myself succeed. :)

No more looking back. No more negativities. Doing what you are passionate about really feels great, especially after you get your result. That feels even better :) Dont ever give up. Strive for the best. Life is too precious. :)

Sunday

Happy Sunday!

Today was such a different sunday than any other sundays. We officially moved to our new building today, so the service time changed to 9am and 11 am. I minister, so that means I have to attend 2 services. Ahh, what a big transition. I really do hate waking up early in the morning, but I shouldnt complain, cause our God is a great God, right? Our soft opening today was amazing and powerful. I'm so amazed how many great things that God has done; not just in my life or my family, but for the church as well. I think He has something great in store for us in the near future. I'm excited.

Anyway, to sum up my day, I had the worse cramp at church. I was standing in the stage and I couldnt help. I have a heartburn, and I guess thats what I get for not eating a little before I sing in front. After church, I had lunch with some friends and now I'm just home. I'M SO DRAINED! ^^ These couple of days, I've been waking up super super early. You can tell that my eyes right now looks so tired and red. :( I should nap, but I'm afraid I wont be able to sleep tonight.

Alrighty, well I have nothing else to say so I'll be back :) (I think im gonna sleep...i cant take it anymore! )

So many emotions are running through my veins right now. I was chatting with my friend a couple days ago, and he tells me to stop being depress, and he also said that I've been sad lately. Ok, I'm not always depressed or sad. He told me that all my status from facebook seems so depressing. The truth is I'm not! I am perfectly fine, and I am not always sad. I love life. I'm enjoying it, and I'm not always moody okay! I'm a cheerful person. When I tweet or type a certain something in my facebook that is sad doesnt mean I'm always depressed or emotional. Maybe I should stop tweeting and putting things on my fb, because people are starting to think I'm an emotional person. :/ I'm happy most of the time guys, I'm not an "emo" person. No body is perfect. Everyone has their own personal stories or problems. Most of the time when I'm feeling down, I either blog or tweet about it. That's just who I am. I put my emotions through words instead of telling it to people (only my close friends). I hope people would stop thinking I'm an emotional person, because I'm not. :) I just tend to reveal everything into words. Okay, enough of this shinanigans.

This week, our church is moving to a new building. Finally, after 20 something years, we finally have our own place. :) You know, I've never really made a big deal about it, but to think about it, its such a blessing to actually have our own building. Without God's mercy, none of this will happen. He is such a great God. I'm no super crazy religious person. Dont get me wrong. I'm not perfect. I still sin. That sounds horrible, but I still do. Being a Christian doesnt gauranteed you that you will go to heaven. The most important thing is your heart. God has done so many wonderful and miraculous things in my life. He has poured out so much blessings for me and my family. God is Good...

Alright, I'm gonna stay away from the computer now. Till then ^^

jess

20 Questions

Hey Everybody, I found this little mini survey from Guru's on YouTube, and I wanted to take it. ^^ So here it is:

1--Thing you cannot leave the house without ?
I would say my phone, but that would be very cliche of me to say. So umm...I guess it would be a hand sanitizer. I carry a hand sanitizer with me wherever I go. I can't live without it. Germs are everywhere, and you may never know what you're touching or what may be dangerous, so it's very important to carry a hand sanitizer in your bag or car.

2--Favorite Brand of makeup?
This is hard. I love all brands of make up. I personally dont use a lot of colored make ups, but I do buy a whole lot of make up just to experiment and have fun with it. I usually use neutral colors like shades of brown and shades of peach. Wait, thats not the question! haha. Okay, favorite makeup, hmm...I would have to say Urban Decay and Bare Esscentuals. I love Bare Esscentual's eye shadow because not only are they a mineral eye shadow, but they are so pigmented. Its so beautiful. Urban decay has the best primer potion and eye liner. Love it!

3--Favorite Flower ?
My favorite flower are Orchids. I love Orchids! They are so beautiful. It's funny, because usually when it's my birthday or anniversary, I would tell my boyfriend that if he is planning to buy me flowers, get me a Orchid instead. I love purple and white Orchids the best.

4-- Favorite clothing store?
Hmm, I dont have a favorite clothing store. You would see me everywhere. I shop whatever that fits me and what looks good on me, so I dont really have a typical favorite clothing store. If I were to choose, then I would say Forever 21 and Zara.

5--Favorite Perfume ?
When it comes to perfume and fragrances, I'm so crazy about it. I have a lot of perfumes that I love, but there are 2 that I commonly use and these 2 are my all time favorites: First, Parlux Guess de Parfum. It contains a scent of tangerine, green apple, dewy freesia, pink peony, delicate muguet, peach, red fruit, cedar wood, amber, and musk. It smells so good. Nothing strong. Second, Dior J'Adore by Christian Dior. I love love this smell. It smells so sophisticated and sexy. Both perfumes are light and feels soft.

6--Heels or flats ?
I use both heels and flats. It depend on the occasion, what day/event, when, and where I'm going. For church or a nice dinner out, I would use heels. On a usual day, I wear flats, `cause wearing too much heels does damage my foot. I love both heels and flats equally though.

7--Do you make good grades ?
I have to. I try to maintain above average, and aim for the best. I try my best in everything, and never giving up. I think giving up is such a bad quality to have in a person. Strive for the best! I'm not perfect. I dont have the best grades, but I try my very best, and if I dont end up getting the perfect grade, at least I know that I've tried my hardest. I think thats the most important thing. I still need to work harder. -_-

8--Favorite colors?
Purple. I loved purple since I was a little girl. My favorite color does change from time to time though. It depends on my mood and probably the season. I love white and black when it comes to clothing. You wouldnt see me wearing a whole lot of bright colors.

9--Do you drink energy drinks?
Absolutely no. Too much sugar. It's bad for you too. If I do have a big exam coming up, and if I REALLY feel like I need to consume a dose of energy drink, then I would go for the 5 Hour Energy Drink. It's different from the typical energy drinks like Redbull or Rockstar. Why? Because 5 Hour Energy Drink contains lots of vitamins, especially Vitamin B. No sugar added, and no carb`. It gives you a longer lasting energy without crashing later!

10--Do you drink juice?
I drink juice. I like it, but I'm not a big fan of it. Meaning, I can live without it. I dont like drinks that is super sweet. Some juices are very sweet. I can't take that. My favorite juice would be orange juice. I love strawberry banana smoothie though. hehe. :)


11--Do you like swimming ?
This is embarassing, but I can't really swim. I love being in the water. I love splashing and just the feeling of being in the water is fun. But, to actually swim, I'm not so good at it. An embarrassing story: When I was in middle school, I took swimming classes, and I never passed the first level. I stayed in the first level 3 times! Embarrassing, huh? ^^ I can do back strokes and freestyle, but I cant keep it consistent.

12--Do you eat fries with a fork ?
If I was eating in a fancy restaurant, then I would use a fork. But if it was In-and- out or any kind or regular fries, then of-coz I use my fingers!

13--Favorite Moisturizer?
Shiseido, hands down! I love their moisturizer. It leaves your skin perfectly flawless. It is not oily. Some moisturizer makes your skin sticky and oily, but Shiseido's moisturizer is just perfect for my skin.

14--Do you want to get married later on in life?
Marriage is definetly something I want to do later on in my life, but not right now. I still have a lot of things I want to do in life. Goals and dreams I want to pursue, so it's definetly not anytime soon. Unless someone proposes me with a big huge diamond ring, then I'll probably think about it. haha. Jk. ^^

15--Do you get mad easily?
It really depends what situation I'm in. If something or someone makes me mad, then of course I'll be mad. I'm not the type of person that hide things. I dont think I'm even good at it. If I dont like you, I'll show it by not talking to you. I dont create problems or fights or anything like that. I handle my anger with silence. Unless, it was my boyfriend or my parents then I'll defintely show it! hehe.

16--Are you into Ghost Hunting ?
Ghost hunting? What? No. I like watching ghost hunting shows on tv, 'cause they are very entertaining, but I dont go around ghost hunting. That's just scary.

17-- Any phobias?
I think I've mentioned this 100 times on my blog, I have a fear or coffins. That's all I'm gonna say. Read my previous blogs. :) What else? I would say heights. Is that considered as a phobia? Recently, I've been annoyed being in clustered places. So, that would make me a clusterphobic. I am so clusterphobic.

18--Do you bite your nails ?
I do. It's such a bad habit. I bite especially when I'm nervous. I dont bite them anymore though, `cause it's bad for you, right? My nails are really one of a kind. It would grow beautifully a period of time, and then it just breaks when it gets even longer. I guess I need vitamins, because my nails are so fragile.

19--Have you ever had a near death experience?
No. I dont want to, and I hope I will not encounter anything like that. I think I had a thought of suicide long time ago when I was in high school, because I was experiencing a lot of peer pressure and stress. On top of that, my self esteem was extremly low in the very beginning of my high school year, and I guess that lead me thinking about suicide. Never again will I ever think of suicide.

20--Do you drink coffee ?
Oh, I love coffee! BUT, I can not consume any more coffee. My body does not function well with coffee. I start to shake and get jitters when I drink caffiene. I get naughty and drink coffee when I feel like it, but I have to remind myself not to drink coffee. I've been drinking a whole lot of green tea. I love green tea!

3 top destinations

Hi all, so I've added 3 other destinations that I want to visit before I die. I dont know if I will ever visit ALL of these places in my lifetime, including the other 5 I wrote on my previous blogs, but hey, maybe one day I will get the chance to travel and get a little taste of these places. So here is the other 3 destinations:

1.) British Columbia, Canada
2.) Greece
3.) Australia


British Columbia, Canada

I think I've been watching too much of the Bachelorette, but there were some episodes of the Bachelorette when they were in Jillian's hometown, and when I was watching, I was completely in awe! British Columbia is so beautiful and spectacular. You know, to be honest, I never even heard of British Columbia. Let alone, I didnt even knew it existed in Canada. I've only heard of Vancouver. I know, I'm crazy! From the city, to the lakes, to the mountains...British Columbia has to be the major top place I have to go before I die. My close friend went there last december, and told me how beautiful it was. I want to visit Victoria, the capital city. I also want to visit Vancouver island, and climb up their tallest mountains! I also want to take a ride in the train. I want a lot of things! I think British Columbia is probably the most beautiful city I've seen so far (by picture). The city alone is so romantic, relaxing, yet sophisticated and urban. Check this website out: http://www.hellobc.com/en-CA/default.htm

British Columbia, you are a beauty! One day I'll visit you :)


Greece

Who doesnt want to go to Greece? Well, I do! I dont know much about Greece. I dont even like the food, but I know that Greece has so much culture and history. Aside of the beautiful beaches, I want to visit the Ancient Acropolis Architectures, their Monuments, and also Art Museums. I was never really interested in art, but I think Greece has so much history with their art. Oh, and one more thing, I want to visit the Greek Stadium. So much history! I'm not forgetting the beaches though. The crystal clear waters are to die for. I also want to visit their Nude beaches. I heard it's famous for it. Dont get me wrong. I wont go nude! But, I'm just interested.



Dubai

I dont know much about this city either, but I am amazed by the tall unique buildings, and the city alone at night is beautiful. I never thought the Middle East would be as beautiful, but Dubai is definetly a beautiful city.