20 Questions

Hey Everybody, I found this little mini survey from Guru's on YouTube, and I wanted to take it. ^^ So here it is:

1--Thing you cannot leave the house without ?
I would say my phone, but that would be very cliche of me to say. So umm...I guess it would be a hand sanitizer. I carry a hand sanitizer with me wherever I go. I can't live without it. Germs are everywhere, and you may never know what you're touching or what may be dangerous, so it's very important to carry a hand sanitizer in your bag or car.

2--Favorite Brand of makeup?
This is hard. I love all brands of make up. I personally dont use a lot of colored make ups, but I do buy a whole lot of make up just to experiment and have fun with it. I usually use neutral colors like shades of brown and shades of peach. Wait, thats not the question! haha. Okay, favorite makeup, hmm...I would have to say Urban Decay and Bare Esscentuals. I love Bare Esscentual's eye shadow because not only are they a mineral eye shadow, but they are so pigmented. Its so beautiful. Urban decay has the best primer potion and eye liner. Love it!

3--Favorite Flower ?
My favorite flower are Orchids. I love Orchids! They are so beautiful. It's funny, because usually when it's my birthday or anniversary, I would tell my boyfriend that if he is planning to buy me flowers, get me a Orchid instead. I love purple and white Orchids the best.

4-- Favorite clothing store?
Hmm, I dont have a favorite clothing store. You would see me everywhere. I shop whatever that fits me and what looks good on me, so I dont really have a typical favorite clothing store. If I were to choose, then I would say Forever 21 and Zara.

5--Favorite Perfume ?
When it comes to perfume and fragrances, I'm so crazy about it. I have a lot of perfumes that I love, but there are 2 that I commonly use and these 2 are my all time favorites: First, Parlux Guess de Parfum. It contains a scent of tangerine, green apple, dewy freesia, pink peony, delicate muguet, peach, red fruit, cedar wood, amber, and musk. It smells so good. Nothing strong. Second, Dior J'Adore by Christian Dior. I love love this smell. It smells so sophisticated and sexy. Both perfumes are light and feels soft.

6--Heels or flats ?
I use both heels and flats. It depend on the occasion, what day/event, when, and where I'm going. For church or a nice dinner out, I would use heels. On a usual day, I wear flats, `cause wearing too much heels does damage my foot. I love both heels and flats equally though.

7--Do you make good grades ?
I have to. I try to maintain above average, and aim for the best. I try my best in everything, and never giving up. I think giving up is such a bad quality to have in a person. Strive for the best! I'm not perfect. I dont have the best grades, but I try my very best, and if I dont end up getting the perfect grade, at least I know that I've tried my hardest. I think thats the most important thing. I still need to work harder. -_-

8--Favorite colors?
Purple. I loved purple since I was a little girl. My favorite color does change from time to time though. It depends on my mood and probably the season. I love white and black when it comes to clothing. You wouldnt see me wearing a whole lot of bright colors.

9--Do you drink energy drinks?
Absolutely no. Too much sugar. It's bad for you too. If I do have a big exam coming up, and if I REALLY feel like I need to consume a dose of energy drink, then I would go for the 5 Hour Energy Drink. It's different from the typical energy drinks like Redbull or Rockstar. Why? Because 5 Hour Energy Drink contains lots of vitamins, especially Vitamin B. No sugar added, and no carb`. It gives you a longer lasting energy without crashing later!

10--Do you drink juice?
I drink juice. I like it, but I'm not a big fan of it. Meaning, I can live without it. I dont like drinks that is super sweet. Some juices are very sweet. I can't take that. My favorite juice would be orange juice. I love strawberry banana smoothie though. hehe. :)


11--Do you like swimming ?
This is embarassing, but I can't really swim. I love being in the water. I love splashing and just the feeling of being in the water is fun. But, to actually swim, I'm not so good at it. An embarrassing story: When I was in middle school, I took swimming classes, and I never passed the first level. I stayed in the first level 3 times! Embarrassing, huh? ^^ I can do back strokes and freestyle, but I cant keep it consistent.

12--Do you eat fries with a fork ?
If I was eating in a fancy restaurant, then I would use a fork. But if it was In-and- out or any kind or regular fries, then of-coz I use my fingers!

13--Favorite Moisturizer?
Shiseido, hands down! I love their moisturizer. It leaves your skin perfectly flawless. It is not oily. Some moisturizer makes your skin sticky and oily, but Shiseido's moisturizer is just perfect for my skin.

14--Do you want to get married later on in life?
Marriage is definetly something I want to do later on in my life, but not right now. I still have a lot of things I want to do in life. Goals and dreams I want to pursue, so it's definetly not anytime soon. Unless someone proposes me with a big huge diamond ring, then I'll probably think about it. haha. Jk. ^^

15--Do you get mad easily?
It really depends what situation I'm in. If something or someone makes me mad, then of course I'll be mad. I'm not the type of person that hide things. I dont think I'm even good at it. If I dont like you, I'll show it by not talking to you. I dont create problems or fights or anything like that. I handle my anger with silence. Unless, it was my boyfriend or my parents then I'll defintely show it! hehe.

16--Are you into Ghost Hunting ?
Ghost hunting? What? No. I like watching ghost hunting shows on tv, 'cause they are very entertaining, but I dont go around ghost hunting. That's just scary.

17-- Any phobias?
I think I've mentioned this 100 times on my blog, I have a fear or coffins. That's all I'm gonna say. Read my previous blogs. :) What else? I would say heights. Is that considered as a phobia? Recently, I've been annoyed being in clustered places. So, that would make me a clusterphobic. I am so clusterphobic.

18--Do you bite your nails ?
I do. It's such a bad habit. I bite especially when I'm nervous. I dont bite them anymore though, `cause it's bad for you, right? My nails are really one of a kind. It would grow beautifully a period of time, and then it just breaks when it gets even longer. I guess I need vitamins, because my nails are so fragile.

19--Have you ever had a near death experience?
No. I dont want to, and I hope I will not encounter anything like that. I think I had a thought of suicide long time ago when I was in high school, because I was experiencing a lot of peer pressure and stress. On top of that, my self esteem was extremly low in the very beginning of my high school year, and I guess that lead me thinking about suicide. Never again will I ever think of suicide.

20--Do you drink coffee ?
Oh, I love coffee! BUT, I can not consume any more coffee. My body does not function well with coffee. I start to shake and get jitters when I drink caffiene. I get naughty and drink coffee when I feel like it, but I have to remind myself not to drink coffee. I've been drinking a whole lot of green tea. I love green tea!

3 top destinations

Hi all, so I've added 3 other destinations that I want to visit before I die. I dont know if I will ever visit ALL of these places in my lifetime, including the other 5 I wrote on my previous blogs, but hey, maybe one day I will get the chance to travel and get a little taste of these places. So here is the other 3 destinations:

1.) British Columbia, Canada
2.) Greece
3.) Australia


British Columbia, Canada

I think I've been watching too much of the Bachelorette, but there were some episodes of the Bachelorette when they were in Jillian's hometown, and when I was watching, I was completely in awe! British Columbia is so beautiful and spectacular. You know, to be honest, I never even heard of British Columbia. Let alone, I didnt even knew it existed in Canada. I've only heard of Vancouver. I know, I'm crazy! From the city, to the lakes, to the mountains...British Columbia has to be the major top place I have to go before I die. My close friend went there last december, and told me how beautiful it was. I want to visit Victoria, the capital city. I also want to visit Vancouver island, and climb up their tallest mountains! I also want to take a ride in the train. I want a lot of things! I think British Columbia is probably the most beautiful city I've seen so far (by picture). The city alone is so romantic, relaxing, yet sophisticated and urban. Check this website out: http://www.hellobc.com/en-CA/default.htm

British Columbia, you are a beauty! One day I'll visit you :)


Greece

Who doesnt want to go to Greece? Well, I do! I dont know much about Greece. I dont even like the food, but I know that Greece has so much culture and history. Aside of the beautiful beaches, I want to visit the Ancient Acropolis Architectures, their Monuments, and also Art Museums. I was never really interested in art, but I think Greece has so much history with their art. Oh, and one more thing, I want to visit the Greek Stadium. So much history! I'm not forgetting the beaches though. The crystal clear waters are to die for. I also want to visit their Nude beaches. I heard it's famous for it. Dont get me wrong. I wont go nude! But, I'm just interested.



Dubai

I dont know much about this city either, but I am amazed by the tall unique buildings, and the city alone at night is beautiful. I never thought the Middle East would be as beautiful, but Dubai is definetly a beautiful city.

Never judge a book by its cover

I'm guessing everyone's heard of that line before; "Never judge a book by its cover." Last 2 weeks ago, my dad suggested to try this Thai restaurant out near our area after church. We never knew there were Thai restos around our area. This place was near a residential area, located in the corner beside a house, very small, dark, and seems from the outside looks like there were not many people inside. Unfortunately, they closed on sundays. I knew that it was a sign that we should'nt even bother going inside because probably it wouldnt be good. That following week, my dad was still curious and anxious, so we gave it another visit. It was open this time. Throughout the ride from our house to the resto, my mom and I made a bet with my dad that if this resto wasnt good, he'll give ME 50$. hahah....I really didnt had the tastebuds to go to a resto especially if it is not crowded. To make the story short, I was wrong. The food was delicious. It was beyong my expectation, and the service was so friendly and warm. They were very welcoming. While I was waiting for my food, I watched customers ordering to go and picking their food up, and I saw how close the customers were to the manager. They seemed to be an all time customer. Gosh, I felt so bad, because I judged their resto from the way it looked outside. I was so surprised how good this place was, but on top of that, how great of an experience I had here.

So whats the lesson? NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER. After this experience, I truly learn to look outside the box, think bigger, and defintely not judge something that we dont know. I truly felt bad :(

I have been so lazy to blog lately. Usually throughout the day, I would have things in mind and stories to share, but when I get home, I'm sleep til 4 am. On thursdaalready too tired to blog. Either its already too late, or I'm just not in the mood. I twitter instead. Nothing much has been going on. Nothing so interesting? Summer seems so long, and I'm trying to find some activity that will keep me busy. I actually found one, and I'm starting on this project starting tomorrow. I hope by the end of summer, I will be a PRO and hope to jump to the next level.

Lately, I've been sleeping really late. This past week, I've been undergoing a really horrible lack of sleep. I drank coffee and I couldnt sleep till 5.30 am. The next day, I drank green tea that has caffeine, and couldnt sleep til 4 am. The next day, I slept at 3am, woke up at 8am to work the whole day. On saturday (yesterday), I slept around 1am, woke up at 7am for music practice. Ahhh, I'm not getting enough sleep. YEA, its my fault. :( I love coffee, I really do, but I have to stop drinking it! My body cant take any more coffee, or any kind of caffeine. I have jitters and start to shake badly. haizz....I'm so stubborn!

I've been addicted to Prison Break. In fact, I have been watching this show for the past few weeks, everyday! ahhh. It's so addicting. Great show. Great actors. Great storyline. Michael Scofield, a.k.a Wentworth Miller is definetly a hottie! His such a great actor!!! ahhhhh, im in love with him! hehe...

OK im gonna head to bed now. Sorry for this choppy blog. God bless!

xoxo, Jess

Hey everybody...

Hope you guys had a great weekend. As for me, my weekend was alright, except the fact that I think I'm getting sick. I don't know if it was probably the Thai food that I ate today for dinner, or maybe I just caught it? I feel so ill these couple of hours. I feel like throwing up, but it wont come out. My body feels cold, but it's warm. My throat hurt when I swallow. I'm not coughing or have stuffy nose, thank God. I think it was because I went home so late around 2am last night after watching Transformers. I wore shorts and a tank top due to the heat outside (it was hot at night). I hope I get better soon.

Anyway, so far, my summer has been fun/boring/unproductive. I guess its a mix of all three things in some days. I should have taken summer school, but I thought I was going back to Indo that is why I didnt take summer class. I havent gone back for almost 2 years, and although most of my family is here in US, 80% of them are still in Indo, and I just want to see them again cause I miss them dearly. Life in US and Indo' is completely different, totally the opposite. I said once that I dont see myself living there, but I dont mind a vacation. A couple of weeks to a month is perfect for me, but more than 1 month, I dont think I'll be able to stand the heat and crazyness of Indonesia. I cant even stand a day of the heat and traffic!

I'm still working on my OASIS, and hopefully to get it done by the end of july, because I really need to get that out of the way. I'm the Queen when it comes to procrastination. I procrastinate alot, and it's such a bad habit. It's not a good thing, and I'm still learning to stop procrastinating and start DOING IT! I actually take that back. hehe. ^^ I'm not as horrible as you think. I procrastinate, but by the end of the day, I'll feel bad for not doing it, so I end up doing it anyways. I'll feel guilty if I dont! So, I procrastinate, but show some action in the end. Not bad right? hehehe. Talking about procrastination, tomorrow would be a great day to finish up my Oasis because mondays are a laid back day for me.

It's 12 am right now, and I'm gonna try to get some sleep. Need to get as much rest as I can. I slept at 3 am last night :/ Goodnite everyonee.





trying my best....

lonely friday night

It's Friday night, and where am I? at home!!! :( I usually work on Friday nights, but we planned to go San Diego this tonight, that is why I didn't work. And guess what happens? People bail out on me! Guys oh guys...they don't want to drive, so we didnt end up going, and decided to fly next week. I was looking forward to it too! I could have work and enjoyed my friday night at work...(yes I enjoy working) heheh....Despite of the crazyness and hecticness, I enjoy working fridays. I'm stuck at home right now. :( I guess I shouldnt complain...

Anyway, yesterday at work, I experienced something very unatural, out of the ordinary and may I say wierd? Theres this old chinese guy that has been coming to my workplace every week since last year, and he never comes with this family or friends, only himself. He is beyond wierd. He smiles and laughs out of nowhere, he stares at me and ahhhh, it gives me the chills! To make the story short, while he was waiting for his table, he handed me his number inside this tiny envelope. Inside that tiny envelope was a USB memory stick. He told me, "You can throw away that memory stick, but keep my number." First of all, why would he give me his number inside an envelope along with a memory stick if he told me to throw it away? why couldnt he just give me the number without the envelope inside with the memory stick? And what's more creepier is behind his number, was a name card from a PHD from NY University from the health/Psychology department. His probably a patient there? To think of it, it makes sense. He has some brain problems....I know this is so mean of me to say this, but only if you knew him, you would understand how totally creepy he is. A customer even told me how creepy he was. I clocked out earlier yesterday, told my manager the story, and when i was i the back, he asked where i was to my coworker. my goooodnesss.....Thank God I have a manager who truly cares about my safety! I need to stop being nice to customers. Some takes it the wrong way. This sucks...

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why...

These past few days, everywhere I go, seems to remind me of it. It's funny that a small thing can go a long way. My friend kept mentioning about it. Am I supposed to stay quiet, and pretend that I did'nt hear what he/she said? Am I supposed to lie and hide my face from the truth? Its been a long while that I went there, and going back there brings back so many memories. I try to keep all the good, and throw all the bad. As much as I hated my friend for mentioning it, I also hated the feeling of having to hide. I dont want to remember anymore. I want to forget it all. I want to step forward, not step back. I think I did pretty well all this time, and yes, I have completely let go. Maybe there are just some things that can not be forgotten permanently, like memories and places that I once went. I stood near that bench, smiled and your face quickly disappeared. Its so funny the many areas that reminds me of it.

I stood there, gazed around the beautiful city, and sniffed the afternoon breeze, but all i can remember is it. Its the ambiance, I'll get over it soon...

CHI Silk Infusion

Damaged Hair? Dry hair? CHI Silk Infusion is your answer to a perfect soft and silky hair! I'm terrible at adverstising, but this CHI Silk Infusion works like magic. No kidding. You know how some products say they work, and "worth it" to buy but really it isn't? Well, this product will amaze those with damaged and dry hair. My hair is not oily, and is not dry. BUT, I use hot tools very oftenly to achieve my desired hair, and yes, it does damages my hair if I dont use any syrum. I've also noticed that my split ends are getting worser and worser, and if you dont know me, HAIR is my number #1 concern, then skincare. I cant manage to have dry damaged hair, and if I do, I just dont feel confident. Everyone has something that their not confident about right? Well, this is mines.

Long before I discovered this amazing product, I tried many products to heal my damaged and dry hair. From all kinds of syrum and spray, anything you can possibly imagine. BUT, none of those products compared to CHI Silk Infusion. When I read reviews online, I felt hopeless and had figured that maybe this product is just like the other products I've tried. I was skeptical, but I gave it a try anyway, and bought this product near my local beauty store. When I first tried it, it was HEAVEN! haha....sorry for my cheesyness, but seriously, its so magical! It makes my hair softer, silkier, sleeek, shiny, and just beautiful!

CHI Silk Infusion is enriched with pure natural silk, wheat and soy proteins, leaving your hair silky softness, super manageability and unbeatable shine. It protects your hair against thermal styling. If you're the type of person who uses curling and flat irons, this is probably the best product I would recommend. The texture is very oily, smells like orange. Pour a little in your hands and rub or stroke throroughly in your hair before prepping and ironing you hair. You can put it in either damped or dry hair. A little goes along the way, so don't put too much because it is oily, but the good thing is that it DOESNT make your hair looking oily. You know how some products makes your hair super oily? CHI Silk Infusion doesnt give you that oily looking hair.

Enjoy your soft and silky hair! ^^

Weekend

I hope everyone had a great weekend, cause I sure did! :) On saturday, I accompanied Jastien at the office for an hour. That was probably the shortest I've hung out in the office on a saturday cause usually it is 6-8 hours long filled with "nothing-to-do-ness". You have no idea how happy I was. I also accompanied him to get a hair cut, which was probably the fastest hair experience. Cutting guy's hair is super fast comparing to women! After that, we had dim sum, then had frozen yogurt, then we went to stroll down in SR, known as Santana Row. I love going there on Saturdays. I never seem to get tired or bored of that place, especially on saturdays! There are always events and music, and the environment is so relaxing! After strolling down in SR, we decided to cook some dinner at home. So, we went to Wholes Food and did some grocery shopping. I love grocery shopping with my hunny. He is the most patient guy ever! hahaa....I spend like, I dont know...hours deciding what to cook and what to buy and all the ingredients and what not, and his just so patient, but so picky! Btw, I love Wholes Food Market. It is probably my favorite grocery shopping market. Nothing compared to Safeway and Traders Joes!!! Too bad there is no Wholes Food near my area. Anyway, after hours of grocery shopping, we went to his place and turned on the grill! Had dinner, and watched endless episodes of Prison Break. I cant get enough of that show. Wentworth Miller is def` a hottie :)

Today, Fathers Day, I went to church and after church I took my family out to dinner. Food was so-so, service was bad. It didnt matter though, because I was surrounded with people who i love. Nothing beats more than a family. Did that make sense? hahaha...

Alright, honestly, I dont like doing these updates and "what I did" sort of thing, it reminds me of English class. Run on sentences...and essays that makes teachers fall asleep.

caio bella, goodnite :)
Jess

Q u i e t

There has been some things in my mind lately that I wish I had the answers to. I honestly wish I knew how my future will be like 3,4,5, or more years from now, but no one can depict the future right? I feel like I'm stuck in between. I feel like I know where my road is going to end, and right now, I dont think I want to end in that road, but I feel like I have no choice. I never thought it would be this hard to decide. I know it is still a couple years down the road, but there are decisions that needs to be discussed and planned before it is time to hit down that particular road. I dont know how my future will be like nor do I know how my life would be like 3-5 years from now, but I just have a feeling 100% that he may want to move back and live there for good, and for me, that is a huge decision. Maybe right now, I'm still close minded. Maybe later on, I will see that its not that bad after all moving out of the US? Maybe...I hope. As of right now, I dont see myself living else where. I honestly want to stay in the US, work here, raise my family here....live here till I die. I honestly dont see myself living back there. Its a huge decision for me. For him, it isnt so complicated, but for me, considering that I was grown here in the US, its gonna be a tough decision for me. Giving up everything...it's unbelievably hard to imagine. I dont wanna think about it, but c`mon, 3-4 years is just right around the corner! time flies by so quickly!

Well, I dont know. I honestly dont think worrying is gonna get me anywhere or give me any solution. I guess I`ll just have to let go and let God do His work. I know that when the time comes, whatever decision I make will be the right decision because wherever God places me, is the place where He wants me to be. :)

goodnight guys.

Jess

I had a bittersweet weekend. Started off in the wrong foot, but end the weekend with tears of happiness. I guess that's how I would put it. ^^

I'm so happy that I finally get to understand you more, though sometimes I feel like its hard to understand through your perspective, I've learned to place my position in your foot once in a while. I think now I'm getting a bigger picture, and I've learned to appreciate your hard work and passion you have in your field. Every week seems like I'm less seeing you, considering we only meet twice a week. Work on weekdays, and work on weekends. But I completely understand, you run a business and I know youre just doing you job. I also understand that you are so tired from work on saturdays and just wanna head home and rest, and though my heart doesnt accept, I've learned this week that you truly work so hard, and I'm really proud of you.

Happy big 2, little 4 huntut. I love you.

It's been a while since I blogged. I've been enjoying my summer, and even though I spend most of my mondays and tuesdays at home, I feel so relaxed and just love the feeling of sleeping and waking up late. I still havent decided what to do or where to go for this very long summer vacation, but I hope I figure out something soon! I really want to get out of the City, and go some place totally different. I just need to find the right time and the right place. I'm terrible at planning. Nothing ever comes out right, so I'm trying not to plan much. haha...



I'm so tired of san francico's weather. It's been nothing but ugly. These past few days has been cold, windy, not so foggy, but just plain ugly. Today was showering and so so foggy. Hatesss itttttt! I miss the warm hot weather. It doesnt even feel like summer. May it be summer or winter, it is always cold.

Alrighttt, I have nothing else to say for now. Till then :)

Decisions or decisions...

I never thought buying a car would be so difficult. The process itself is already confusing. My boyfriend is in the car industry and though he knows alot about cars, it can be too much! My parents wants me to get this, and he wants me to get that, and I'm stuck in the middle deciding which one is the perfect car for me. Safety is number one, price is number 2. At least that's the way I see it. Ahhh, I'm so confused. This is gonna take a long time....haiyaaaa.

I've been sitting in front of my laptop since yesterday night and today morning searching for the perfect car, but we all know my decision does not count because my parents would not agree anyways! I seriously need to get up and stop sitting in front of my laptop or else I`ll go crazy!

ahhh, help me!!!

Homemade Donuts

Last week, I twitted that I was making donuts at home, and promised to post up the final resutlt, but unfortunately the donuts was still super hot so I couldnt put the toppings on top or else it`ll melt. I had work that night as well, so I topped my donuts when I got home from work. I got tired after work, so I didnt have time to post the pics up. phew! That should explain everything :)

Making homemade donuts seems very simple, but it's not that simple. You need the right temperature for the dough and most of all, you gotta make sure its the perfect before you fry it. I used my grandma's recipe, and it turned out so perfect. ^^ My grandma is such a great cook, so it my mom. I hope one day I'll follow my mother's cooking step. :) I'm not a real big fan of donuts. I actually hate it. I hate the sweetness, the texture, and the aftermath of eating a donut. It almost makes me wanna puke. I can still have a donut if it's from Krispe Kreme, but if it was from any other donut shops, I'll pass. My grandma's recipe though is so delicious. It doesnt even taste like a real donut! It almost tastes like bread, but fried! Of course I wont give you guys the recipe, hahaha because its my family's recipe, but here is the process in making my homemade donuts:

So the first step I did was blend in all the ingredients (flour, sugar...etc...) in one big bowl, and stir with a electric stir for about an hour. Then, I rolled my dough in small balls like this:

Preheat you pan with oil in medium heat, and make sure it isnt on high because you dont want your donuts to be brown on the outside and uncooked on the inside. That's why its so important to put it on medium heat. Once you oil is already hot, toss one dough at a time to the hot oil. Use a chopstick to create a hole in the middle of the dough so it will look like a donut. I tend to spin it so the hole will look bigger and not close in.

After frying my donuts, I let it sit for as long as possible until its cool. Then its time to top our donuts!!!!! I use Krafts cheese, and De Ruijter chocolate sprinkles made from Holland. This is the final result:

(Im not used to posting pics, I'm still learing, so excuse me for the disfunctional look of the way I post pics up. ^^)

Another ramble

I'm so excited for tomorrow! Well, kinda. I'm going to Great America with some friends, and yeah, I know it kinda sounds corny but I havent been to Great America since high school and I love love love roller coaster, and Great America is probably the nearest theme parks here in Bay Area (Six Flags is further). The only ride that I dont dare myself to go is Drop Zone, and that's just because I know my body will not be capable to handle Drop Zone. haha....I will not go Drop Zone, and no one better force me to go `cause there is no way I'm riding that monster!

Today I woke up at 12pm. Unbelievable! ^^ My phone was on low bat last night and for some reason I forgot to charge my phone, and that is like the stupid-iest thing ever! So my phone died this morning, and I wasnt aware of the time. Usually, even during the weekends, I would set my alarm clock just so I dont oversleep, but today, my phone died and when I woke up I looked at my big clock and I literally jumped. (aaaaa, excuse me of my grammer n my very very long sentences ^^)

I dont know but for some reason, I've been really into the color blue lately. I bought 3 dresses that are blue. I dont know. Everything I pick out lately is blue and it looks great so that's why I bought it. :) Im not really a huge fan of the color blue itself, but this summer, I feel like blue is really in.

Ok, I'm really sleepy now. I dont even know why I'm blogging. As I'm writing this, my eyes are closing. goodnight everybody. Ill blog more tomorrow when I have enough energy :)

ta ta,
jess

Hey everybody,

I'm so glad to be home. Work was super busy, but it was one of those days where it's busy at every hour. So one hour it's slow, the next hour is busy. Kinda sucks, cause I rather have it busy all at once ^^ This morning I woke up 9.30 am, got ready, and went to downtown to do some shopping :) I havent gone shopping since finals week, and today was such a relieve! I got a cute peacock headband from urban outfitters, and a top from Abercrombie, but it was too big so I have to go back tomorrow to return it. ahhh, I should have tried it on before purchasing it. That's what I get for being in a rush! Tomorrow is another long day for me. I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow for music practice at 7 am for church. aaah, so early. why Adam? why 7 am? why not 8am? hehehe. I hope I can wake up, cause sometimes my alarm clock doesnt ring at all even though I already turn it on! I need a "live" wake up call!

These couple of days Ive been undergoing a major crisis, a.k.a "cankersore". It hurts to the max. It's so painful and disturbing. I cant even eat anything that is flavourful, big, and chewy cause it hurts so bad. A couple of days ago, I went to Chipotle with my friend and bought a burrito and I couldnt even eat that big thing! I gave it to my sis....Yesterday, I ate shabu2, and it was so painful because the sauce was so citrusy. What else? Today, I ate green curry for dinner and couldnt stop tearing up because it was so flavourful that it hurts my cankersore so bad. :( Just when one is healing, I have another one in my tounge. Sorry if this talk is disturbing, but I think its my dentist fault! haha... No, I think I just need to drink more water. Also, I tend to bite my tounge alot so I guess that's why? Ok enough of this talk. I hope it will heal soon, because I can't even smile :/

My Obsession of the Day #2

I think I'm going to start having "My Obsession of the Day" entries, because I have so much cravings from time to time...haha.

My favorite snack lately has been a avacado smoothie. Its's yummy, healthy, and its so easy to make. :) Avocado is rich in magnesium that reduces risk of excess belly fat, high blood pressure, high cholesterol and high blood sugar. If you have cholesterol, avacado is a good source of diet. Here is my avacado smoothie recipe (you can find them online, but this is the way I make them. Every recipe is quite alike. Told u its simple!):

-1 large avocado (add more avocado, depending how much you want to make)

-2 teaspoon milk

-1 cup of ice

-sugar (eye ball it)

Blend everything, and you got yourself a yummy avocado smoothie!

I honestly dont follow this recipe. I go by it, but I usually just eyeball how much sugar, ice, milk and avocado I put in. Put as much or as little as depending on your taste. It really isnt hard to make at all, you just need some dedication for avocados! yum ^^

5 Things that gross me out

There are probably not a lot of things that disgusts or gross me out, but these are 5 things that I find really disgusting. Here goes:

1.) Mice/insects- Anything that has to do with little insects such as bugs, cockroaches, spiders- you name it, gross me out so much! I hate looking at them and being near them. Speaking about it already gives me the itch. Mice also grosses me out. I just dont see why some people find them cute? Rats, mouse....I find them disgusting. I used to live in a house that has many mice, oh gosh, it was disgusting. I cant stand looking at their tails. It freaks me out...

2.) Public Restroom-Most, not all, public restroom grosses me out. If it was a 5-star hotel, or even say a regular hotel, and a nice fancy restaurant, then I dont mind using their restrooms. BUT, if it was mall or a fast food public restroom, I rather not use them. I dont understand why some people do not flush. I mean, I understand it's a public restroom and it is supossed to stink and what not, but please flush. It's not so hard to flush and clean after yourselves, right? ^^

3.) Old men hitting on young girls- I truly truly cant stand seeing old men hitting on young girls. Like I said before, I work in a restaurant, and from time to time, I would get a wink wink, a stare, or a flirty smile from old men. Let me tell you how disgusting it is. Seriously, it's disturbing. I also find guys that already has girlfriends flirting and just staring at other girls very disturbing. It grosses and freaks me out. They should be ashamed of themselves. If you're not satisfied with one girl, then you shouldnt even be in a relationship. I get these alot as well, it just bothers me, because if my boyfriend did that, I'll probably flush him down the drain. Oh yes, I have good eyes. :)

4.) Baggy Pants-Guys with saggy baggy pants to the point that shows their boxers grosses me out. If you wanna show your boxers then you might as well not wear any pants at all? I dont if it's just me, but I dont it attractive at all. It's actually a turn off. Oh, and you know what's funny? Their walk. You know when your pants are saggy, you're not able to walk properly right? Well, their walk is pretty annoying. I guess they find it attractive, I dont know. I just dont see it.

5.) Smokers/druggies- I dont want to offend anyone, but I find people who smokes really grosses me out. I cant stand the smell, I just cant stand being anywhere around smokers. I just find it pointless to buy cigarettes, its expensive and its bad for you. umm, doesnt that ring a bell? Anyway, enough of this talk. Dont want to offend anyone now. As for druggies, I'm not usually around druggies, cause I dont have friends who doesnt them, but people who does drugs does gross me out. Their smell, their actions, everything.

Summer time...

It's my first week of summer and I'm already loving it. :) Actually, in some ways I'm enjoying it and in another way I'm not. I love being able to wake up late and not worry about rushing to class, but one thing I dislike about summer is not having anything productive to do. On Monday for instance, I stayed in the whole day doing pointless things such as browsing in the net, laying in bed, and watching tv! You see!? I remembered being in front of my tv for almost 7 hours straight. It's unbelievable. I could have went out, but my friends had work, some in Indo already, and its freezing out....so I guess I should`nt complain right? ^^

I'm still deciding what to do for summer. I'm waiting for Jastien to finish so we can finally decide what to do. So I made a list of what may come this summer :)

1.) Camping in Angel Island (camped here once, its beautiful...)
2.) San Diego (I've been wanting to go SD since December, but never had the chance to!!!!)
3.) L.A again? (never seem to get enough of this city!)
4.) Disney World I (Would be my dream come true to come here again. I've always wanted to go here. Been here once when I was very little but forgot everything.)
5.) Indo` (This was my actual plan to go back, but I'm still deciding whether or not I should go this summer or december. It's pretty late to buy the ticket now since it will get even more expensive especially now that it's summer, but well see.)

So there's my list...I dont think I would be able to go to all 5 places, but I do hope I can go to at least 2/5 places I listed up there. hahaha...For some reason, my plans never work out. Dont know why....You know what's odd? Whenever I plan something, either it doesnt turn out the way I expected it to be, or it just never happens. But when I dont plan, most likely that event will happen. Wierd, huh? Thought so. :/

I'm amazed that it's been weeks since I thought of what I thought was going to be hard to forget. There were many times I wondered why I kept thinking about it all those days, but these few days I've thought of all the possibilities that I should forget it completely, and to my surprise, there is so many things I found that makes me want to let go. Honestly, it was'nt worth it. I think the only reason why I kept holding on was because I liked the feeling. I enjoyed remembering every single thing, because for me, it was precious. But if I remember the opposite of the enjoyment, there was probably more that I can list than the enjoyment feeling.

I'm truly happy and glad to be in the place in here right now. Sometimes I tend to forget and take things for granted, like what I have isnt enough and felt like what I needed was more, but I had the wrong mindset. I'm truly happy that things ended up the way it did, and honestly, thank God I was not stuck there because I would not be able to be loved the way I am loved right now.
I think everyone has their moments. Sometimes it takes time to realize the truth, and right now, I've realized the truth. This time, I'm 100% over with u for sure. Thanks God!

Accepting yourself.

Accepting who you are as a person can be tough at times. I'm not perfect, in fact, nobody is. Sometimes I wish I was taller, have a better body, and the list goes on and on, but all these things that we want and hope for is all imaginary. There are times where I feel like I'm not good enough, not just physically but emotionally. Sometimes I feel like I could have done better, or I maybe feel like I wish I was this or that. BUT, these things doesnt change you as a person. You keep complaining, but the truth is no body is perfect. Everyone has their flaws, and everyone would want to change something about themselves. Let me make this clear. Everyone has something in them that they lack, something that they want to have. Isn't that true? Humans are never and will never be satisfied. We will always want more and more. If I can say that humans are greedy and selfish, I can assure you that humans are 100% greedy and selfish. Well, technically we are.

I've been learning to accept myself as an individual. You know that saying, "you have to love yourself first before you love anyone else"? Well, that saying is true. I love myself, I care about my own being (dont take that in a wrong way), but there are things about me that I wish I can change. Traits, personality, and physically...I just wish I can get what I want. If there is one thing I'm good at, that is complaining. Sometimes it's hard to accept who I am, but I realize that I must accept myself for who I am. God created me in my own special way, and complaining is the same thing as saying God's creation is horrible. I realized that by complaining, I'm hurting God. I'm learning to accept myself as an individual, and to love myself the way I am. I'm beautiful in my own way and I know for one that my inner beauty is indeed more beautiful and important than the exterior. Thanks God for opening my eyes. But above all, thank you for allowing me to be a strong individual.

I`m so mad that my webcam isn`nt working properly! I thought that now my computer is working fine and now that it's fast, it'll let me make videos, but turns out its still nagging on me!!! aaaaaaaaaaa, im so mad! I tried making one earlier this morning, and when I played the video it was slow. When I talk its not following my lips. It's just nagging, its so slow I cant stand it!!!

2 more days until summer and I'm somewhat excited. I just want to get over with finals. Well, then after that, its the waiting game: the grade.

time for dancing with the stars, and bachelorette!! ahh so excited!

til then,
jes

break time...

I've been sitting in front of the computer screen for the past 4 hours listening to my marketing lecture and trying to get a perfect score on these quizzes. I have finals this week and next week. I hate finals week. Who enjoys it anyway? I'm trying to keep a smile on my face, and pretend to enjoy it because I dont wanna have a negative view! This is the time where I need some positivity and encouragment because right now, my grades are on stake. Did i say that right? heheh ^^ I think I'm doing pretty well in my classes so far, but finance is really killing me, I just wish I was good at math. Let me take that back. I dont mind the math. As long as there is a formula and a way to solve it, I'm fine. But, its the concept that is so difficult and hard to grasp (at least for me). I thought I was really good with concepts, but turns out that I'm not with finance. But to be honest, this semester was by far the best semester I've experienced in my University so far. Maybe it's because I had the focus, or maybe it's because I'm doing pretty well. hehe...Anyways, tomorrow is gonna be long day. I'm working on a finance stock valuation project with my classmate. Were doing it on AIG. I dont understand stock at all, or how it works and what not, but after doing some reasearch, its pretty interesting and quite entertaining. I dont think I'll get myself into buying stocks though. Ok, enough of education.

alrightt, im gonna go back studyingg... :/

Marriage

I'm not married, nor am I close to getting married. It is probably the biggest and longest decision that I'll ever have to make when the time comes. So why write about marriage, considering that I'm not even married yet? I couldn't find a greater answer other than the fact that I've always been interested in this topic itself. I'm no expert, I still have alot to learn, so you may or may not agree with me, and that's okay. These are simply just my opinion, and it can change overtime. Shall we start?

Marriage might seem to be simple to some people, but we all know it isn't as simple as 1,2,3. First, we got the wedding, the honeymoon phase, then after all that good stuff, comes the real marriage life. If I were to describe what marriage really is in one simple sentence, it will be, "either the marriage is successful or a failure." What is a successful marriage though? Well, I can't really answer that because I'm not married, and even though if I was married, I dont think I would be able to give you a concrete answer. I don't think a married couple can answer that either. I think the only person that can answer that question is a couple that has been married and retired; a.k.a when you're old. Why? Because they've been through it all. Through thick and thin, and and through all the gutters possibly imagined.

Even though I can't answer "what is a successful marriage", a couple things I do know is that a successful marriage requires commitment, communication and trust. I think a lack in one of those criterias is the ultimate cause of a divorce. Commitment, communication and trust is the foundation to any relationships. Even before getting married, I believe that these 3 criterias need to occur first. You need commitment, because without commitment there is sinply no relationship. Commitment does not only require you to commit your whole being to your spouse, but it is sacrificing and dedicating your life to them. It also requires time. If you're one of those workaholics that works day and night, I don't suggest you to get married! Marriage also needs communication. Misundertandings and misconmunications can also lead to divorce. You need communication period. Trust is probably the most important criteria in a marriage. Without trust, there is no commitment, and vice versa. Trust is the foundation of any relationship.

Now, here comes the juicy part. Divorce! So what really causes divorce? I think a lack of either commitment, communication and trust is the cause of divorce. Americans tend to believe that divorce is okay. I dont know how many times that I've heard celebrity news on divorce. It just seems that divorce in this country is considered to be "okay" and a "normal" thing. It's like a trend, you know? One season you get married, the next season you divorce. It seems to be a hot trend in America. I think one of the most important thing that people need to remember is that no one is perfect. Every individual is different, and there will always be differences between two people, so work it out! You might not see it in the boyfriend/girlfriend phase, but sooner or later you`ll see it, especially in marriage. As much differences, disagreements and arguements a couple might encounter, divorce is just not acceptable. You got yourself into this, so deal with it! grow up!!! If yall are not ready to get married, then dont! If you dont think he/she is a match, then dont get married! You married people reading my blog might be thinking, "this girl is a child! she doesnt know nothing!" I might not know everything, and yes, all divorce cases are different and maybe people wont ever understand your case, but getting a divorce certainly does not solve anything. You're probably making it worse, especially if you have children.

Here comes the part for all the women out there :) Again, this is just my opinion. Here goes: ALL GUYS ARE JERKS. No matter what, in all circumstances, in all cases, guys will always be guys. If a hot sexy women is flirting or being seductive, and your guys sees it, wouldnt he be attracted or tempted? I bet you you a million dollars he would. Dont be stupid ladies! Stop being naive, and face the truth! I know trust is the number #1 thing you MUST MUST do in any relationship or marriage, I'm not saying not to trust them. You can trust them 110%, but dont be blind. If your husband is constantly coming home late from work everyday, that should be a hint that something fishy is going on. Guys will always be guys! There will always be temptation in them, and I guess I can say this goes to women as well. Cheating on your spouse is just unacceptable. I think many divorce cases deals all because one of the spouce is cheating with somebody else.

Overall, marriage is beautiful, but I'm certainly not ready for it yet! NOT AT ALL. I still have so much to accomplish, so much I want to do for myself before I plan on settling down. I think the most important thing us women, or men as well, need to remember is that we need to find our own goals, and reach them. dream big. Theres no price for dreamig. Have a vision, and set goals to accomplish them, because once you are married, you are living a whole different life and you may not be able to do the things you want to do. As for me, I'm living my life day by day, and achieving my dream and be a millionaire. :) hahaha, just kidding...

Hope this helps...

Blessd day,
Jess

speechless

Last night, I dreamt that I surrounded by empty coffins in the cemetary. It was so weird, and honestly, I felt so scared in my dream. I could almost feel like it was real. Coffins are my biggest fear; my phobia. I didnt know what that dream was trying to tell me, because I've never dreamt of something so odd like. I mean, coffins would be the last thing I would want to talk about, especially at night! Blogging about this just makes me shiver! Just a couple minutes ago, I searched on google the interpretation of coffins in dreams, and it says that when you dream of empty coffins, it means "to let go of something that has already died." That totally hit me. It really did...

I'm letting go.

What a day!

I just got home an hour ago from class, and I'm so so tired. I honestly never felt this exhausted after coming home from class. Maybe it's because I've been out the whole day, and its raining outside... just made me all tired and icky. I dont know why, but lately I've been getting back aches and pain on my shoulders as well. I think perhaps I slept the wrong way? Or maybe I cracked a bone? I feel it in my sleep though, its like I dont sleep comfortable. Whenever I turn to the right or left, I feel so "pegel". My mom is a chef and as a chef, back aches and pain in her body is a normal thing for her. She's been to many massage therapists but none seems to take an effect on her. Last couple of weeks, she recommended me to this one massage therapist, an old chinese lady that lives in Hayward. She massages your body for a good 2 hours for 40 bucks. I think its pretty worth it. I really need a Professional or an Expert to massage my body! I think it's also because I work as a hostess/waitress in a fast paced restaurant environment, and usually by the end of the day, my body feels like it has been beaten by a muscular guy or something.

Another thing, I dont know why, but me and coffee just does`nt get along well. Yet, I still drink it! You see, I'm so stubborn!!! I know its bad for me, I also know my body doesnt function well when I drink coffee, but I still drink it anyways. My boyfriend calls me stubborn. I think I can finally admit that yes, I am stubborn. I drank a grande ice coffee from starbucks this afternoon, and usually I'm okay, but today they were promoting this new ice coffee with milk for $1.45 if I'm right, and so I thought why not? I never payed attention to the price anyway cause ice coffee is usually cheap, but I wanted to try it because instead of pouring your own milk, they blend it in for you. A few hours after enjoying my ice coffee, I started to feel this ill-feeling inside of me. I started shaking and felt like my heart was pounding and beating faster than it normally would. A couple hours flew by, and my friend and I decided to get an early dinner before my class at 7, and he suggested we share a strawberry margarita. I promised him to sip a little bit of it just because I've never really tried a margarita before. (I know what you might be thinking! I dont drink alcohol much. I only drink when its the right occasion. The only alcohol bev` I drink is wine) Anyway, when I took my first sip, it tasted like a normal strawberry slurpee, so I got addicted to it! I drank half glass of the margarita, and the glass was pretty big too. Usually when I drink alcohol, my shoulder starts to hurt. Dont ask me why. I dont even know. My friends all say I'm lightweight(sp?), meaning I cant consume much alcohol or something like that. A couple hours later, the coffee mixed with the margarita started to take a whole effect on my body! I started feeling so weak. But aside from that, I cant blame coffee and margarita, I think that my body is very sensitive and needs more milk and vitamins. I dont drink vitamins at all. I consume my vitamin C from drinking OJ and milk from eating cereal, but I know that isnt enough to make me healthy, because it's not everyday that I drink OJ and eat cereal. I made a promise today that I should start taking vitamin C and calcium. Consuming calcium will help your muscles and bones to be stronger. It also helps your cardiovascular system. I wanna live a healthy life! I wanna live long, and I sure want my bones and muscles to be strong so I dont have back pains and what not when I get old! I know many old people, including my grandparents that are enduring such pain like back aches, and maybe that's because they didnt take their vitamins when they were young. I finally realized that it starts now. You are what you eat. So try to eat healthy, and take vitamins and also exercise, because you will defintely benefit from it in the future. :)

Wowww, I just realized that I wrote alot for a blog! ^^ hehe.. I think that's it for now. Gonna get some rest. Must wake up early tomorrow for study session n class. goodnite :)

Blessd day,
Jess

no internet

Hey everybodyy,

I'm using my sister's computer because for some odd reason, my internet wont seem to work in my laptop. I dont know what's wrong, or who has been using my computer while I was in LA! Speaking of LA, my trip was a blast. I spend 3 days and 2 nights there. I love the city, though I gotta admit that I hate HATE the traffic and how its so hard to get anywhere. I can never stand traffic. I hung out with a couple of friends and went to a beamerfest in Santa Barbara, which was okay. This morning when I woke up, it was so hard to wake up! I'm still in that vacation mode, just wish I had more of it :( But....back to reality jessica!

I only had one class in the morning today, and my friend asked me if I wanted to watch Wolverine with him, so I did. I didnt like the movie. From the storyline to the action, I just dont get it? I dont like it. Especially the ending. I dislike endings that leaves you with a question mark. Apparently, that movie kept me a sense of hanging and questioning what happened to who and who. But, it turns out that this movie was a flashback of some sort from the beginning. I dont understand! If i was to give it a rating from 1-5, I'll give it a 3. I would give it a 1, but there were some hotties in the movie :) haha...

Today is pretty gloomy, but not too cold or windy. At least its not raining!! I kind of like this weather. Its good for a change, cause its been warm these past couple of weeks. Today was my early priority registration date and I was able to add classes up to 8 units, and boy was I amazed to get 3 classes registered! I hope by July Ill get the rest of the classes that need. I dont know what else to say...I guess I'll be tweeting for now until my internet is fixed. :/

Until then bloggers....



its been a hard, but I think I'm finally overcoming it..

PRAY FOR OUR NATION :)

Its 12.35 am right now. I'm not sleepy yet, I think it's because I had a 3 hour nap earlier in the afternoon. :/ I spend most of my day today at home, relaxing and regaining my strength. I've been taking afternoon naps lately, and I actually like that feeling after you wake up..feels more refreshed and have more strength.

I might be going out of town to Santa Barabara this weekend. I'll be going with my bf and his bro's and his friends for this beamerfest (sp?) I dont know if I should go or not though. I have a mandatory meeting for church on saturday morning, and I feel like I should go, but then again, I promised them that I'll go to SB. Ah, decisions decisions! Why does everything have to fall under the same weekend?! I'll make my decision by tomorrow. :)

This Swine Flu/ H1N1 is really scarying me. No kidding. I've been watching n reading the news, watching videos from the internet, and its crazy how were now in level 5! I've been panicking. I wash my hands every few minutes and try to avoid people as much as possible. CALL ME CRAZY. Its okay. I think I'm going to buy a face mask and sanitizers tomorrow. haha...really. I feel like this is something that Americans have to be worried and aware about. This is a serious deal! This is the time that we need to seriously pray and ask God for His guidance and protection over us, our families and close friends, because knowing that its spreading quite fast, scares the heck out of me! To everybody, make sure you wash your hands a lot. When you cough, cough on your shoulders. Avoid shaking hands with random people, and if you do wash you hands. What else? I dont know..I've been reading too many articles, this is making me go nuts, And NO I'm not overeacting!!!! This is a BIG DEAL AMERICA! ahh I'm gonna crash now, and pray!

blessed nite,
Jess

I set you free...

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

(I Set You Free by Rachael Yamagata)

Honestly, I dont think it's fair...I dont think it's healthy either. I think I know the answer, but I dont want to admit it. jess knp seh loe stubborn bgt... Needless to say, I dont think I can go on like this...I feel guilty. I wish I never had to feel this way. Everyday it seems a little bit harder. But, I dont think I was strong enough. I didnt push myself, I wasnt trying hard. I think its only best if I completly let go. I know I've said it before, but this time, this very time, I need to set it free. I need to surrender, and completely set it free. I cant keep looking back. I cant keep reminicing the past. It's not fair for him or for myself. I have my own life, we both live seperate worlds, so I think its best for me just to let go and leave it here. What I need to do right now is focus on the future and look forward instead of looking back. The past is the past, and dwelling on it isnt getting me a step further. I think these past couple of days, I was aware, but I continued and kept thinking about it when I should have just let go. I'm letting it go, and setting you free.

My Obessesions of the Day

I just had a low fat granola cereal with soy milk and chopped strawberries, and let me just say its amazing I usually dont eat dinner after 6pm, and if I do eat dinner after 6pm, I try not to eat rice or any kind of carbs because it'll take long to digest. I really love the sweetness of the granola and the sourness from the fresh strawberries. Like I said, I can eat cereal 3 times a day. I'm in love with it! I prefer the granola kinds rather than the common ones you will find in Safeway. I like my cereal not so sweet because you get that sweetness from the milk already. Btw, I use non-fat milk. I'm not a health freak just to let you know! But, I do watch what I eat from time to time. I dont really eat meat such as pork or lamb. I can still eat beef or chicken, but I dont eat much of it anyway. Okay, I'm getting off topic! So going back, if you havent tried granola cereal with soymilk topped with fresh fruits, you must try!

Another obession that I've been having is for Green Tea. I drink green tea at least once or twice a day, everyday. If you drink a few cups of green tea, it'll keep ologists away. It's also good for your health. It lowers down your cholesterol levels, and did I mention drinking green tea can make you lose weight? Green Tea also fights such disease like cancer, infections, prostate cancer, and high cholesterol levels. Although its very tasteless, or no taste at all, its really good for you. When I first had my first green tea, I didnt like it at all simply because it had no taste. When you go to any chinese or japanese restaurant, they usually give you a pot of tea and a cup, right? Well, I dont usually drink it, I just ask for water. BUT, now, I actually drink my tea. Its a good habit. :)

You

I'm fine with it.

It was love which seemed fine like this

Before I knew, you even refused to meet

When I'm alone I start thinking

At that time, should I had rather forgotten?

But these tears are the answer aren't they?

I can't lie to my heart

It's almost scary that I can remember

your smell, your action and everything

It's strange isn't it? Please say so and laugh

Even though we're separated. It's nothing but you

I never thought that love would be so painful

That love would be so sad

You are the person inside me I can't forget about

The person who offered me everything

Even if you can never return

Right now it's only you...Just you

Nothing but you

by a friend of mines

What Makes Me Happy

There are actually many things that makes me happy and makes my life everyday beautiful. From family to education, to even the smallest things such as getting a new haircut or new shoes or simply having a nice cup of coffee in the morning. Little things makes a difference and for me, and it truly makes me very happy. Lately, I've been seeing life through a whole different perspective. I've realized once more that life is too short and too precious. Sometimes I dont realize it. Everyday I become more grateful and gracious to have family who loves me, friends who I can rely on, an education that I can benefit later in the future, but most of all, I am mostly thankful for my health. Not a lot of people are fortunate to have a healthy life, and I am one the billions of people who have a healthy life. That, I am so thankful of. It breaks my heart to see people with certain disease, especially those that are incurable. Sometimes I question myself why God chose these things to happen to human beings? I wonder why there is such things of disease. After all, He is the creator of everything here on earth. Why did He create them? No one is perfect, but why have a innocent people die from diseases they shouldnt have? These questions, I wish I knew the answers. But then again, there are no answers to everything. I guess that's just the way life is; unpredictable. Therefore, I am cautious, more aware. I've also learned to take life seriously. I've also learned to take people more seriously, and to love and cherish each and every relationship and friendship I have. Have you ever heard of the saying, "once they leave you, that's when you miss them the most." Well, its true. You never know when your friend of family, or someone special leaves you. Sometimes God takes the most precious people away from you. Someone that you thought never would leave you, leaves you. Little things like this, things that I would never think of everyday has caused me to think life through a different level. Sometimes, as humans, we forget these things. We tend to focus more on materials, and what is in front of us, when the most important thing we should be thinking of is the little things. Am I confusing you? ahh, I think I am. I dont think that sentence even made sense!

I think I've said this on twitter, but if there is one thing in life that I've learned, that is-- to never regret and dwell on the past. This is something that I've been trying hard not to do. I think for me, as a person, I'm overwhelmingly too sensitive. I analyze every bit of everything. Its a bad thing, you know. Dont get me wrong. I'm not an EMO person. I live a happy life. I'm cheerful and perky most of time, but there would be nights when I lay there in bed not being able to sleep, that is when thoughts start popping up. I questioned myself why in the world should I be thinking of it? I tried many times to avoid it, to ignore it. I've dreamt of it a couple times, though the dream doesnt seem to tell me anything. Usually a dream would have a story line of some sort, but these dreams of mine that I've been having from time to time does not have story line. Instead, its just there. Its like the wind, you know? You cant see it, but you can feel it. I think I can relate my dream to the wind. I cant see it, I cant picture it, and I cant tell a story from it, but I can feel it. I honestly dont think there is any purpose at all for me to be thinking about it. If I look back in the past, and saw the things that has happen and how they happened as a whole, I feel a sense of stupidty for thinking about it. Beacause it was hurtful. But somehow, I dont care. I dont think about it. All I think about is the sweet memories. This is probably just something I have to fight for...I dont think it is any easier for me. I dont think I can ever last one day without having it on my mind. I guess this is something I have to deal with everyday...

I miss you.

Exams are overrrrrrr!

I'm SO happy that midterms are out of the way! :) I stayed on campus for almost 11 hours. Yes, it was so devastating. Especially knowing its nice outside, and I gotta stay inside the clustered stuffy library for hours, really does suck. But for some reason, it didnt really felt that long. I didnt even notice I stayed that long. I didnt even feel it, which is a good thing. Also, I didnt even bother looking at the time, until 6 pm, then it totally hit me. CRUNCH time! I studied with a friend of mines from the same class, so it was fun. He kept me entertained. ^^ But anywayyy, I'm glad its over. Overall, I think I did okay. While we were doing our exams, the professor caught 8 mistakes he made on the exam. A bunch of people were complaining...bla bla bla....I didnt want to say a word. I didnt care at that point. I just wanted to get it done! In the end, he gave us 2 bonus points! good for us. :) OK enough of this school talk. I have enough of it...ahhhhhh stressed!

It's almost 11 pm now, and usually around this time, I would be tired, but I'm not tired? Although I've been in school for the whole day, I'm not too tired like I would usually be. My body isnt tired, but my mind is. I hope the weather tomorrow would be nice like today. I havent had the chance to enjoy the sunny weather. It really sucks. San Francisco is never sunny and warm. When it is sunny, its usually still windy and fogggy! So whenever its hot and nice outside, I take full advantage of it. :)

Do you notice that I've been blogging constantly for the past few days? Hhaha, I didnt even realize that until right now, right this second. I have nothing to talk about because I blog every single day that there is nothing new that I need to share with you! Olright guys, I think im done for today. :) Ill write a meaningful post when the time is right! nite bloggers.

GBU,
Jess

Hey everybodyy,

How was everyone's weekend? Mines was okay. On saturday, I hung out in Mountain View. Stayed in his office for a while, and went to gelayo gusto to study. On sunday, it was my dad's birthday. I had lunch with the family. Yep, my weekend was okay. Nothing special. ^^

I just finished my exam today. A part of me feels relieved, but I still have one more Finance exam tomorrow to endure. Today is such a beautiiiiffuuulll day. I wish I could just lay down in the beach and spend time under the sun without worrying about anything. I shouldnt even be blogging..hahah, but I just got off class, and I need a break! I'll start again at 2.30? hehehe. Hope so. I know I'll be up all night tonight. I should have never drank that coffee this morning. I dont know why, my body doesnt work well with coffee. I have jitters and I get nervous after drinking coffee. BUT, I still drink it anyway...hehe

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Its been days now that I wasnt able to sleep. I went to bed, but just layed there. My body and eyes are tired, but I just couldnt sleep. Have you ever had that feeling? Youre completely exhausted, but for some reason you cant sleep? I made a promise to myself. I tried my best...I did everything I possibly could, but I cant keep blaming myself. I cant hide my feelings. I cant simply ignore it. Why is this always happening to me? I just wish I knew the answer. I wish it was that simple. From hating the feeling of it, it gets to the point where I really dont mind. You know what I realized? All this time, I've been trying to ignore the thought, the feelings and emotions I had, but you know what? I really dont care anymore. I dont want to have to lie to myself. It is impossible to earase it, and I realized it is okay to think about it because thats just life. I just gotta deal with it. Its like I've been having this sense of guilt for myself. I hate it so much, but in the same time, I miss it. I just dont understand all of this. I dont understand myself! kenapa seh loe harus mikirin...why?


Ill get over this someday, one day.

late night blog, once again :)

It's almost 2 am, and I wanted to blog a bit. This is going to be a very short blog. I'm so exhausted from work. I do need rest because I need to save my energy for the weekend to study for my exam. :( I wish exams didnt have to land on Mondays. I rather have it on Fridays or any other days of the week, just not Mondays. Maybe I'll go for a massage tomorrow or something. I really need a good body massage! My whole body aches, you dont even know! But overall, I enjoyed work today. I love working with my best coworkers...their like friends to me. I dont even consider them as coworkers. haahah :)

For once, I'm not as excited that its weekend. ughh....I hate the feeling of having exams, especially two days in a row! The feeling of not studying yet leaves me a sense of guilt. I'm pretty comfortable with the exam for Monday, but the one for my finance class is a killer. I just need to pass that class with a B and I'll be ok. youu cann doo ittt!!! Anyway, I've been really addicted to this Indonesian reality show called "Termehek Mehek". Ive been watching that on youtube for the past few weeks and i love it. It's basically a show about someone who lost contact with their friend, parents, or bf/gf and they want to find them, the team will try to find them. I dont know how to explain it. I'm really bad when it comes to explaining things...haha. But check it out, IF ur Indonesian ;) (text only in indo') Many people thinks its like a drama. Scripted, and staged. But i dont think so. The word "termehek mehek" means "crying"....and from my POV, I can definetely differentiate between real tears and fake tears. Its real people, its not staged!

Ok, this is getting way to long. I'm gonna head to bed nowww...my comfy bed. ^^ Goodnight :)

transfer or not?

Hey everybodyyy,

Right now, it's 1 am and yes, I should be in bed like I always say, but it wont hurt to blog a bit right? heheh... ^^ I just got off work a couple hours ago. It was pretty busy today, which amazes me because usually wednesdays are'nt busy at all. I replaced my coworker since she couldnt work. It wasnt that bad though. I dealt with really great customers. No annoying, impolite, disrespectful customers.

One of the things though that I most hate working is the fact that sometimes, some random guy would ask for my number and it's so irritating because sometimes after I recieve their bill, they would write their name and phone number in the back of the reciept. Common sense. Do you think I'll call you? I dont know. Maybe I'm just not the type that would give them a call? I'm sorry, we can be friends but not outside of the resto! This has not happened to me once, it has happened many times before. From young a guy to an old gentlemen. No kidding. I'm not making this story up, you can ask my manager! I felt so disgusted and didnt know what to do because they were asking me questions and I wouldnt know how to answer them. I guess im the type of person that is really hard to say NO. ughh, jesss, your so weakkk! Cant help itttt. Good thing I changed my number. I feel much safer now. No, dont get me wrong. I didnt give them my number, but I did experienced many prank callers and I just couldnt deal with it anymore! So that is why I changed my number. So whenever I get one of those customers that tries to "hit" on me, I would ask my coworker to take their order. I would try every possible way to stay far away from them. ^^

Ive been thinking alot lately about my education and the whole transfering University process. I do so much want to transfer out. I really cant take what the economy has done to my University alone. Budget cuts, no classes...everything has made my life miserable! I was supposed to graduate next year 2010, but guess what? I wont be able to :( I'm really sad about it, but I guess I realized, whats the rush? Its better to take your time and aim for the best grade than rushing and getting a mediocre score. I know God has a plan for me and I know by the time I graduate, He'll have something planned out perfectly for me. I'm just so sick and tired of worrying about my future. Everything that has been going on is making me go crazy! I just want to be able to relax and not have to worry about what will happen afterwards, but parents are always pushing me and pressuring me. I know it's their job, but give me a break!!? I only have one brain, one mind, and 2 hands to function! Sometimes parents just does'nt get it. Who agrees with me? hehe ^^ As much as I want to transfer out to Ohio state, or LA or wherever, I dont think right now is the best time for me to transfer out. Considering the living cost, tuition cost, personal consumption, that will cost me a whole lot. I mean, I should just be thankful and embrace the place I am in right now. I settled in this University, why not just stay here until the end? Although I want to experience the whole "independency", I dont think I can imagine living else where. I love San Francisco too much to leave this city. I talked to a friend that used to live in SF, but now resides in the Midwest. He recently transfered to OSU, and told me how empty the city was! He rather lives in SF. ya iyaa laaaah, sapa seh mao tngl di desa!? huahah. He told me he likes OSU, but prefers SF. yes yes...of cozzz. So will I be transfering or not? Ummm, maybe for now, I'll stay in SF. It's not so easy to move to a whole new state, a whole new community without knowing anyone there. I would love to visit, but to live there? I dont know how I can survive. hehe. Maybe I'll visit one of these days, tour around the campus perhaps. Do you think they have a program where they can just tour future students that is interested and may be willing to transfer? Hmm, gotta check that out :)

Olrighttty, I need to head to bed now. It's almost 2am and I need to wake up early tomorrow to go pay my court! yikees, its past the due date, and I totally forgot! I really wish I had an assistant :/ Impossible jessica impossibleeee.

goodnitee bloggers. God bless.

Just an update

Happy Monday everyone...

Today was quite a productive day, but it could have been better. I'm sitting in front of my laptop right now, trying to finish up some quizzes while blogging. I've been having a tummy ache since yesterday night. I dont know if it's food poisening or maybe I ate the wrong food today or something. It hurts so bad, it feels like someone is pinching my stomach. Is this what pregnant woman have to go through? I heard from my mother that when youre giving birth, the pain feels the same pain when you have a tummy ache but even 1o times worser. Ouch! I could sort of feel it now.

Anyway, I have a long day tomorrow. Like I said, tuesdays isnt my favorite day of the week. In fact, I hate it so much!!! But what can I do right? Face it Jessica, face it...deal with it! :)

Lately Ive been sleeping real late. When the clock strikes 2 or 3 am, I question myself what am i still doing up. hahah. ^^ Its bad to sleep late, but I dont why I keep doing it. Maybe my body is prone to sleeping late? Right now, my eyes feels so tired and feels like its forcing me to shut my eyes but I still have these quizzes to finish. :/

Yesterday was Easter, and honestly, I wish I could have spend my Easter day at my church, but since my parent's friend which is a Pastor invited us to his church, I had no choice but to go. I felt bad for not going because they are like a family friend to us. Weve known eachother for such a long time now, so we went there and supported them. Comparing their church to our church, its totally different! Our church is more modern, theirs are more traditional and did i mention most of the congregation is old people? hehe....not bad though. They were really nice people, very welcoming.

Ok guys, I'm gonna head back to my quizzes. I dont even know why I'm blogging. I have nothing else to say! Ill be back when I have better things to say. caio bellla...

Jess

the little simple things in life

As years gone by, I see the many differences and improvements I have made in myself. I dont think anyone is perfect, in fact, no one is perfect. Everday, I learned the little simple things in life that I never knew about. I've learned to understand people more, be more patient as a person, but above all, I've learned and allowed challenges to come to me. If you dont know me, I'm just like your normal average girl, or "woman" may I say. But there are plenty of things about me that is not perfect, and I just wish so much that I can change these little things that I dont like about myself, but I realize that I am who I am, and God created me in my own way for a purpose. I'm not talking about physical appearance, but what I'm trying to say is the inner beauty, the foundation that makes you, you. I feel like there is so many little personality-type-error that I have in myself that I wish I didnt have. Can a person really control their feelings? I dont know if I can. I`m the type of person who talks right out without thinking, most of the time. Dont get me wrong, I have respect for people, but sometimes I say things that I dont mean and some people get the wrong impression. Maybe there's just some things in life that i dont understand. Sometimes I dont get myself either. I'm a very simple person, but I make my life so complicated! I analyze everything and just about anything. I dont know if thats a good or bad thing. Maybe life is a big question mark? There are no answers to everything. Sometimes I just wish I wasnt so complicated and analyze every bit of everything. I wish I was more patient...more open minded to things. Well, dont get me wrong, I am...but there some things that people see that I dont see or understand. Is this blog confusing you? I thought so. I'm confusing myself too. I guess the person that really truly knows me is God alone. Honestly, the only thing that keeps me strong is Him. Without him, I dont think I`ll be able to face the challenges everyday. With Him, I feel so safe and secure. I have faith, and I know that faith is from Him. People will always change, things will always change, but our God will always remain the same. Nite bloggers...

late night blogging

hey everybody,

Is anyone still awake? :) I decided to blog a little before I head to bed. It's almost 12.30 pm and I should be sleeping by now, but I just cant get in a habit to sleep early! I posted a blog a couple of weeks ago that I'm trying this new thing out and that is to sleep early. Well guess what? that didnt go so well! The other advice I gave you, its going pretty well, but the whole sleeping early part, emmm....not so good. ^^

So I've decided to color my hair back to brown. I've always had brown/brunette hair, but a month ago I decided to color my hair black to see how it'll turn out and turns out that I did like it black, but I felt like it wasnt me. I'll probably color it a little bit lighter so I get that lighter shade. Right now, it's really black, but in the sun, you can see some shades of brown. I just want my brown hair back!!!! :)

I finally finished washing laundry, but havent finished folding them. Still have 2 baskets to go. One of the least favorite chores I hate doing is laundry. I just hate the waiting part. First, you gotta wait 30 minutes for it to wash, then another 1hr or so to dry....and if it doesnt dry, then you gotta wait for another hour to dry. I just hate the process of waiting! It's really time consuming I'm telling you! Only if I had maids....JK. We do have those in Jakarta though. I hate calling them maids because I do treat them just like my friends. When I went back to Jakarta 2 years ago, I bonded quite much with the maid that works in my uncles house. She is probably one of the nicest person I've ever met. When I came here to the United States at 4, my mom also hired a maid to come live with us and help us out here. She worked with us for 6-7 years. We didnt consider her as a maid. People call her a maid because in Indonesia, they are seen as "maids". But we treat them and consider them as a family friend that is willing to help us out. Sort of like a nanny. Now, she lives in LA, has her own job, has a bf, and is so AMERICANIZED! Cant believe it! I'm so amazed.

Alright, thats it for now. Gonna head to my comfy bed and get some rest. G`nite bloggers. xoxo

It's break time...

I`m taking a break from doing bundles of laundry and cleaning up my closet. I didnt realize that I had SO many clothes. Some are very old and I dont even use them anymore. I seperated the ones I dont use anymore and I'm going to find a place to give it away so I dont have to throw it away. Its a waste I know, but I dont use them anymore. Maybe the charity or goodwill? I dont know yet...

Overall, today was pretty productive. I had morning class, took REALLY good notes, and let me tell you that it never ever happens to me because that class is super boring and all I ever do is browse through in my iPhone. ^^ Sorenson is a horrible teacher. All he talks is about himself and the economy, and barely teaches the material. So why go? Because I'll feel guilty for not coming to class. For some reason, I always tend to have this guilty feeling if I dont attend class or if I skip class. If I do skip class, I have to keep myself busy or do something productive and keep myself occupied so I dont feel guilty for skipping class. ;) This semester I barely miss class. Why? Because the classes I'm taking rightnow requires taking notes, though I dont write notes on my mgmt class, but anyway, its hardcore classes so yes, I have to go. :(

This is something so random, I dont know if it's just me, but I hate calculators! I love the fact that it gives you the answer in a quick away and that it's convenient, but somehow me and calculators are not the best of friends. I dont know....I think it's just me. Like yesterday, I had a study group with some friends from class and I was solving some problems and it took me 3 tries to get the right answer! No, I'm not slow! I just tend to have some bad experiences with calculators! Its frustrating... I find that I'm better off without calculators and get the answers right without a calculator, believe it or not!

Ok, laundry is finished. Time to fold some clothes. Maybe I'll blog again tonight. :) Until then bloggers.

finance class and my rambles

Today is such a gloomy day. It's strange how the weather can change so drastically!!! I was lovin` the hot weather. It feels great not wearing bundles and bundles of clothing, but I guess this week is back to the good ol` foggy San Francisco!

This morning I woke up at 10am...made some breakfast for the little one and watched some morning tv and now here I am blogging. Tuesdays are not my favorite day. In fact, its one of those days of the week where I feel so tired and devastated! I have night class from 7pm-10pm and I wouldnt mind if it was an english class or what not, but this is a Finance class, and 3 hours of finance at night is something I absolutely dont ENJOY! Speaking of finance class, my finance Professor is probably one of the worst teachers I've ever met in my campus. His one of those teachers who just reads off the powerpoint and lectures accordingly to what he has on the powerpoint. Also, I cant seem to understand what his saying. His accent is so deep and strong that I cant differentiate what word his trying to pronounce or say. No offense to him, but I just wish some teachers knew what they are talking about! I just wish there were better teachers out there I guess.

Theres still 2 1/2 months left until this semester is over, and I'm excited to get it over with! This semester isnt so bad since I'm only taking 3 classes, but these classes are pretty hard core. I do hope fall semester, I will get at least 5 classes, thats if theres space!!!

Olright guys, this is a short post. I need to get ready for my study group. Yay to education! :)

blessed day folks,
Jess

5 Type of Restaurant Customers

I've been working part time in a Japanese Restaurant for quite some time now, and every single week I work, I pay close attention to each and every customer. I came up with 5 types of customers that I have experienced and encountered. There is the the good tipper, the worse tipper, ones with no respect, the talkative ones, and the quiet ones. I find it really interesting...

1.) The Good Tipper: The good tipper is usually the customers who gives amazingly great tips despite if we gave them good or bad customer service. What I notice is that usually good tippers are the respectful ones whereas bad tippers are unrespectful. Most customers who tips over 25% are usually the ones who have a huge amount of money, or maybe they feel that we gave them an excellent customer service that we absolutely deserve that good amount of tip. Some customers just have a habit of following the "rule" and tip accordingly to the total amount they spent. Most customers though, tip according to how good or bad the customer service they get. This one, is very reasonable and a rule that I personally follow when it comes to tipping. I believe that giving a good tip all depends if I get a good customer service or not. Not all customers are people friendly though. Let's go on to the worse tippers.

2.) The Worse Tippers: Now, you can see that I titled this as the "worse" tippers, a.k.a greedy tippers, not the bad tippers. I've never really dealt with bad tippers, but I've dealt and encountered many times with worse tippers. They probably mean the same thing to most of you, but worse tippers in my eyes are the ones who first, don't tip accordingly to the percentage, and second, though we gave them a superb customer service, they still manage to give us "worse" tips. It's so simple! If you can't or are not able to give a good tip, then you probably shouldn't be eating out! I notice that most Chinese people are the ones who gives horrible tips. Mostly, OLD chinese people. Dont get offended now. I'm part Chinese, and its not like I've experienced this the first time, but many many times, I've seen old Chinese people giving horrible tips. It's really rude! I work in a restaurant part time, and I absolutely believe that we, the waitress/hostess are the ones who makes the customers dining experience worth coming. We are the ones who set the mood and that great sense of ambiance that allows them to keep coming back. But above all , we are the ones who makes sure that we give the best customer service to each and every customer who walks in the restaurant. Now hear me on this, not all waitresses/hostesses feels this sense of need when it comes to customer service. Some simply work by the hour and only for the money. I personally though, believe that giving a great customer service is truly and highly important because when I walk in a restaurant, I myself would want to recieve an excellent customer service. So my point is, some customers just doesn't understand how hard we work to give them a goood customer service, and yet, they give us bullcrap. Yes, I've experienced those customers many many times, and I dislike them with a passion! Some customers just doesn't have any manner or sympathy. Some are just plain rude and selfish.

3.) Unrespectful Ones: This type of customers are the ones who I absolutely can not stand! I can say that majority of customers who has no respect are the ones who are worse tippers, but I notice that not all unrespectful customers are worse tippers. Unrespectful customers are those who walks in the restaurant, and as we greet, they frown, and some just can't give us a smile. Unrespectful customers are also those who constantly bugs the hostess when is their time to sit, and keeps asking 3-5 minutes. I really can't take these customers. Does it hurt to wait? If you don't want to wait for the respected time given to you, then you might as well leave! Instead of begging and asking every 3-5 minutes, you should wait patiently like the other 20+ people who are waiting. They're not complaining, so should u! Complaining doesn't get you to sit anytime soon, so please have some manners! Another type of unrespectful customer are the ones who barge in the restaurant and sits themselves down without greeting, smiling, or waiting for their seats. These particular type of customer is probably by far the ones that I truly hate! What are you? The Queen of England?

4.) Talkative Ones: The talkative type of customers are the ones who constantly talk non-stop before they eat, in the middle of their meal, and after they finish their meal FOR HOURS. One of the most annoying things about talkative customers is that even though their food is sitting right in front of their eyes, they keep on talking without touching a speck of their food. The restaurant that I work in is quite small, on weekends especially, is the busiest days of the week. When we get one of these annoying talkative customers on the weekend, it pisses the heck out of me! Do they not see the line? Goodness, dig in your food already! Talk while you eat! Can you not multitask? These talkative types of customers I realize is usually a party of either two or three people. Sometimes, I would see a couple who has not seen each other for a long time and starts to cuddle and make out throughout the dinner! There are kids you know! Plus, if you want to smooch and makeout, please do it on your own timing. It sure is very disturbing to see couples all over eachother in a restaurant environment.

5.) Ones with No Mouth: "Is everything ok?", the customer: *nods*. "Can I get you anything else?", the customer: *shakes head*. Hellloooo? ARE YOU ABLE TO SPEAK? These customers are the ones who does not like to be disturbed when eating. I've experienced a lot of these customers every week. It's a good thing, but on the other hand it gets pretty annoying. The good thing is that they leave once they finish eating. The bad thing is I cant differentiate a "yes" nod, and "no" nod. It seems as if they can't and are not able to speak english! Everyone in this Planet Earth knows how to say YES or NO, correct? I wonder if it's so hard to just reply a simple word. Some customers just doesn't like to be bothered and questioned when eating. Or maybe they're too concentrated on their food? I dont know. They frustrate me.

Which type of customer are you? ;)