I got this from a friend of mines in facebook n decided WHY nottttttt list 30 interested facts about me. I know YOU are interested :) shall we begin?
1.) I buy a whole lot of make up products, but I barely use them!!!
2.) ln high school, I would go shopping every week that I had to hide my shopping bags so my
mom won't find out. hahaha
3.) when I was a teen, I had so much acne that my mom would take me to the dermatologist every week!
4.) I'm very open minded n open to anything. Sometimes, i'm a bit too open, hahah...that's a bad thing man!
5.) my parents n friends thinks I talk much...very annoying they say.
6.) I'm a very productive person. (or at least I try to be.) Im not the type that would give up that easily.
7.) dislike people who are so fake n two faced. Be real!!!
8.) I really don't care what ppl say or think about me. They have their own opinions.
9.) I could live and eat sushi or shabu2 for the rest of my life !!! Lovess it.
10.) I can't swim in the deep water. I drowned before, since then, I never ever ever dare to be near the deep end.
11.) i'm a neat freak. I like to organize and make sure everything is clean!
12.) I brush my teeth 3 times a day..hahah.
13.) I pray before I eat any meal, before I go to sleep, when I wake up n before each exam. Don't get ms wrong, I'm not one if those highly religious ppl, but I do believe that prayers changes everything.
14.) when I first got my debit card, I got charged $500 for over using my limit!!!!!! I didn't know, I was naive. Heheh. Crazy me.
15.) I miss my family n friends in indo n some here in the u.s that I barely see or talk. Miss u all !!!
16.) most people think Im snobby or "stuck up " because of the way I look. U really hate ppl who judge me without getting to know me first. Who are you to say I'm snobby? That's just the way I look! I'm a kind gal at heart. Plis stop making false judgements.
17.) always wondered what I would look like with my hair short. I will neverrr cut my hair short. I'm addicted to long hair, hahah...
18.) can't stand or be around people who smokes and talk bad words,, aka potty mouth. Didn't your mama teach u better than that???!
19.) If I go shopping, I would stay in a store for 2 hours the most. I'm such a undecisive person!!!
20.) I would love to travel some day with my hubby or family. Explore new countries, their foods n lifestyle.
21.) always think how my life would be if I won the lottery! Yea baby!!! :). I would help those who are in need first then give to my church, n then I can spend ittt like water!!!!
22.) I have big dreams n ambitions. The question is, will I ever accomplish all if them? Mmmm, maybe. Well see...
23.) don't believe the saying, "love at first sight", because my first love failed, but, how fortunate I am to find someone so special in my life. ^^.
24.) I care too much about my skin n hair. I'm a freak!!!!
25.) lovessss to cook n try out new things with food. I'm not a great cook, but I love to cook. Maybe one day I can become like a super expert chef like my mommy.
26.) I love cereal from the bottom of my heart! I can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner! Love the ones with the granola. Add some strawberries n banNnA n I'll have myself a fiesta! :)
27.) I suck at sports. All kinds of sports! I can't ice skate or rollerblade. It took me a good 5 months to learn how to bike! Hahaha...the only sport I enjoy is running n exercising.
28.) I used to be 130 pounds. Imagine that! Super fat n chubby. Then, I lost a whole lot of weight to 80 pounds. I was nothing but bones!!! Believe it or not. I would see a doctor every week for a year. Now, I'm good n stable. Mann, what a devastating year! ^^.
29.) I over analyze just about everything. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing. :/ Also, I'm good with remembering things. I have sharp eyes, mind and ears.
30.) I could write more about me, but too bad I can only write 30 facts. I guess you just gotta befriend me. Heheheh ;)Before I end this, one last thing. I have hots for decent looking white guys! Hahaha.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
clean n clear!
Lately, I've been feeling so tired. Even though I'm not working or just had one class a day, I could feel so exhausted. I think I found my answer. I need more sleep! Lately, I've been sleeping really late, around 1 or 2am. Maybe to some people 2am isnt considered late, but for me that's considered late! I learned that if you sleep early, around say 10pm, the next morning, you'll feel more energized n you will regain more strengh. My sister has been sleeping earlier than me n she told me that it made a real difference of sleeping early. It's good for your health and for your soul. I tried it last week, slept at 10 n guess what? I couldn't sleep! I laid in bed till 12.30 n that's when I fell asleep. Maybe I'm not used to it yet, cause sleeping late has always been a habit for me, but if I tried to sleep at 10 from now on and give it a try for maybe a week or two, then maybe sleeping early can be a new habit. My body will of course be used to this newschedule of mines. So how about we give it a try? Did I also mention that getting good enough of sleep is good for your skin as well? Yea, I did some research. Getting a good amount of sleep is one of the many ways to balance our your diet. Your skin needs rest to rebuild and repair itself. Talking about skin, brings me to my next topic.
Have you ever want to have clear and beautiful skin? I truly envy those who have clear and flawless skin. Lately, I've been having breakouts around my forehead and chin area. Their not one those big red acne, but their so tiny n I just wanna poke em n get rid of em!! I've always been so worried about my skin, face and hair. Those three physical attribute is what I really care about the most. My skin and my hair is llpsuperrrrrr sensitive. My skin isn't oily, but it gets dry easily. Same goes to my hair, it gets dry n I hate it! (hair will be a whole new topic) but anyways,I've been getting these little acne and it driving me nuts. If I were to take a picture of it, I don't think you would be able to see it, but it's obvious for me. When I went to see a dermatologist in indo, the doctor told me that the food you eat has a big impact on your skin (especially chocolate and peanuts). But when I saw the dermatologist here in america, they told me that food doesn't affect your skin whatsoever, and it was just a myth. You know that saying, "you are what you eat", I do actually believe in that.
I'm trying this new thing where i eat less greasy food. In fact, I'm trying not to eat greasy foods at all! Usually, I dont really eat foods that are deep fried anyway. I dont eat mcdonalds or any kind of fast food unless im in a road trip which is like twice a year. So, i guess thats a good thing. ^^ Although the food you eat dont really take an effect of your skin, balancing our nutrition is so important. I'm consuming a whole lot of water and soymilk so my skin will be smooothhh smooth smoooth! im a sucker for clear skin and smooth hair! hahaha....call me crazy. Eating fruits and veggies are also an important diet for your skin, and not to mention, its good for you too! I cant live without fruits and veggies.
Anyways, i hope my plan works out. Getting enough sleep, eating healthier...well see about that! `till then bloggers ;)
blessed day
Have you ever want to have clear and beautiful skin? I truly envy those who have clear and flawless skin. Lately, I've been having breakouts around my forehead and chin area. Their not one those big red acne, but their so tiny n I just wanna poke em n get rid of em!! I've always been so worried about my skin, face and hair. Those three physical attribute is what I really care about the most. My skin and my hair is llpsuperrrrrr sensitive. My skin isn't oily, but it gets dry easily. Same goes to my hair, it gets dry n I hate it! (hair will be a whole new topic) but anyways,I've been getting these little acne and it driving me nuts. If I were to take a picture of it, I don't think you would be able to see it, but it's obvious for me. When I went to see a dermatologist in indo, the doctor told me that the food you eat has a big impact on your skin (especially chocolate and peanuts). But when I saw the dermatologist here in america, they told me that food doesn't affect your skin whatsoever, and it was just a myth. You know that saying, "you are what you eat", I do actually believe in that.
I'm trying this new thing where i eat less greasy food. In fact, I'm trying not to eat greasy foods at all! Usually, I dont really eat foods that are deep fried anyway. I dont eat mcdonalds or any kind of fast food unless im in a road trip which is like twice a year. So, i guess thats a good thing. ^^ Although the food you eat dont really take an effect of your skin, balancing our nutrition is so important. I'm consuming a whole lot of water and soymilk so my skin will be smooothhh smooth smoooth! im a sucker for clear skin and smooth hair! hahaha....call me crazy. Eating fruits and veggies are also an important diet for your skin, and not to mention, its good for you too! I cant live without fruits and veggies.
Anyways, i hope my plan works out. Getting enough sleep, eating healthier...well see about that! `till then bloggers ;)
blessed day
Monday, February 23, 2009
read :)
I'm writing this while I'm in my way to work. For some reason, my iPhone won't let me blog in blogger, don't know why... I find it really odd.
I've been wanting a sewing machine and a manikin for such a long time! I've always wanted to experience the joy of using a sewing machine n creating whatever I can create from the top of my head. I have so so many ideas that i want to create, but I can't draw. I can't design. I suck at drawing so bad. I guess my talent isn't in that area? This is why I want a sewing machine. Though I can draw, I have a visual illustration in my mind of how I want the results to look like. Anyways, I've been searching for the best sewing machine I can find. I want one that is easy n comfortable you use. No complicated ones. After all, I'm still a beginner so it's reasonable got me to buy a simple one.
For a long time now, I've always dreamt of working inthe fashion industry. I mean, who doesn't? I think all women who loves clothes and fashion would die to work in that field. Before I started my years at the University, I wanted to sign up for FIDM so bad, but my parents won't let me. Ahh, so typical! First, it's a very competitive industry to be in. I mean, everywhere you go there will always be competition. But the way I see it is that people will always want to search for the best designers or buyers, etc...after all, fashion isn't An iimportant field, unlike business. They already have many top fashion designers n other departments in that industry alone. Why need more? So I guess I understood why my parents wouldn't let me go into they field. Second, wherever you go, it is important to have a business background.a few years ago, the vice president of CNN (I'm not sure if it was CNN, I remembered it was a news channel) came to state and talked about job opportunities and the whole talk aboutcollege. He told us that wherever you go, it's a plus to know and have that knowledge of business. A business knowledge is essential. Then, I thought about it...and wow, what he said was complety true. Think about it. If I were to go to fidm, I would only learn about fashion itself. And maybe if I were to have my own line, how am I supposed to sell my products? Who's going to handle my finances? You will need that accounting or marketing background. So I'm very very thankful that I didn't go for fashion because I know in the long run, the field that im in right now, I will benefit from it 120%. I was talking to my business counselor a while back, and she told me that she graduated from fidm, got her aa degree n was lost. She went back to college to study business , cause she knew it was benefical for her.
So am I satisfied with my major right now? Yea, I definetly am. I think the field that I'm in can lead to a lot of different things.Most ppl who graduates with their major doesn't end up working in that field anyway. So right now, it doesn't matter much. As long as I have that business knowledge, then I'm good. Am I forgetting about my fashion? No. I still have that in mind. It's my passion, my hobby. That's why I wanted to buy a sewing machine, n experiment the little or big things I can to with it. I hope someone, anyone who reads this can get something out of it.
Olrighttt guys,, this blog is getting out of control. ^^ sorry for this long post n thanks for reading :)
I've been wanting a sewing machine and a manikin for such a long time! I've always wanted to experience the joy of using a sewing machine n creating whatever I can create from the top of my head. I have so so many ideas that i want to create, but I can't draw. I can't design. I suck at drawing so bad. I guess my talent isn't in that area? This is why I want a sewing machine. Though I can draw, I have a visual illustration in my mind of how I want the results to look like. Anyways, I've been searching for the best sewing machine I can find. I want one that is easy n comfortable you use. No complicated ones. After all, I'm still a beginner so it's reasonable got me to buy a simple one.
For a long time now, I've always dreamt of working inthe fashion industry. I mean, who doesn't? I think all women who loves clothes and fashion would die to work in that field. Before I started my years at the University, I wanted to sign up for FIDM so bad, but my parents won't let me. Ahh, so typical! First, it's a very competitive industry to be in. I mean, everywhere you go there will always be competition. But the way I see it is that people will always want to search for the best designers or buyers, etc...after all, fashion isn't An iimportant field, unlike business. They already have many top fashion designers n other departments in that industry alone. Why need more? So I guess I understood why my parents wouldn't let me go into they field. Second, wherever you go, it is important to have a business background.a few years ago, the vice president of CNN (I'm not sure if it was CNN, I remembered it was a news channel) came to state and talked about job opportunities and the whole talk aboutcollege. He told us that wherever you go, it's a plus to know and have that knowledge of business. A business knowledge is essential. Then, I thought about it...and wow, what he said was complety true. Think about it. If I were to go to fidm, I would only learn about fashion itself. And maybe if I were to have my own line, how am I supposed to sell my products? Who's going to handle my finances? You will need that accounting or marketing background. So I'm very very thankful that I didn't go for fashion because I know in the long run, the field that im in right now, I will benefit from it 120%. I was talking to my business counselor a while back, and she told me that she graduated from fidm, got her aa degree n was lost. She went back to college to study business , cause she knew it was benefical for her.
So am I satisfied with my major right now? Yea, I definetly am. I think the field that I'm in can lead to a lot of different things.Most ppl who graduates with their major doesn't end up working in that field anyway. So right now, it doesn't matter much. As long as I have that business knowledge, then I'm good. Am I forgetting about my fashion? No. I still have that in mind. It's my passion, my hobby. That's why I wanted to buy a sewing machine, n experiment the little or big things I can to with it. I hope someone, anyone who reads this can get something out of it.
Olrighttt guys,, this blog is getting out of control. ^^ sorry for this long post n thanks for reading :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
randomness
hey all,
I hope everyone's havin a great week, `cause I sure didnt! My exam on monday didnt went so well, and maybe yall might be thinking that it's just an exam...BUT for me, it's not just an exam. For once, I really studied super hard, stayed up until morning, working my a** off, and guess what? right when I got the exam, I went completely blank. This never EVER NEVER EVER happened to me before, and I was devasted! Seriously....I even cried. I know, I'm such a crybaby, call me sensitive! i dont care! It was such a bad way to start my week. And you know what's even worse? I had past exams from my friends, and not just me, but everyone who is in that class has the old exams. I studied almost everything, and you know what? the exam version i recieved was the SAME exact version of the old exam. I reviewed it right before I stepped into that class; the chamber of death! and guess what?! I WENT BLANK! Do you have any idea how devastating that is?! I literallly couldnt think. I HAVE ALL these formulas...MC=MR, on and on and on....and I was just completely blank. Man..it was the worse day of my life, Im tellin u! But.....I learned my lesson. I learned that I SHOULDVE gotten enough sleep before the exam, and maybe i should have studied more? The only thing that I couldnt accept till now is the fact that i went blank when really, i KNEW the answers to everything. :( I dont know whats up with me and exams man...its like bad luck everytime i walk in for a test. NO KIDDING....Anyways, I will do better next time. I WILL. :)
This semester I'm only taking 2 classes which equals to 9 units. it sucks really bad. I've never been in a position where i took only 3 classes. Im so used to taking alot of classes, and this semester is kind of new to me just taking 3 classes. It's not pretty laid back though, considering the fact that all my classes are one of the hard core classes in the business department.
ill post more later, my show is coming on soon!!! hahah sorry! :)
blessed day,
jes
I hope everyone's havin a great week, `cause I sure didnt! My exam on monday didnt went so well, and maybe yall might be thinking that it's just an exam...BUT for me, it's not just an exam. For once, I really studied super hard, stayed up until morning, working my a** off, and guess what? right when I got the exam, I went completely blank. This never EVER NEVER EVER happened to me before, and I was devasted! Seriously....I even cried. I know, I'm such a crybaby, call me sensitive! i dont care! It was such a bad way to start my week. And you know what's even worse? I had past exams from my friends, and not just me, but everyone who is in that class has the old exams. I studied almost everything, and you know what? the exam version i recieved was the SAME exact version of the old exam. I reviewed it right before I stepped into that class; the chamber of death! and guess what?! I WENT BLANK! Do you have any idea how devastating that is?! I literallly couldnt think. I HAVE ALL these formulas...MC=MR, on and on and on....and I was just completely blank. Man..it was the worse day of my life, Im tellin u! But.....I learned my lesson. I learned that I SHOULDVE gotten enough sleep before the exam, and maybe i should have studied more? The only thing that I couldnt accept till now is the fact that i went blank when really, i KNEW the answers to everything. :( I dont know whats up with me and exams man...its like bad luck everytime i walk in for a test. NO KIDDING....Anyways, I will do better next time. I WILL. :)
This semester I'm only taking 2 classes which equals to 9 units. it sucks really bad. I've never been in a position where i took only 3 classes. Im so used to taking alot of classes, and this semester is kind of new to me just taking 3 classes. It's not pretty laid back though, considering the fact that all my classes are one of the hard core classes in the business department.
ill post more later, my show is coming on soon!!! hahah sorry! :)
blessed day,
jes
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Hi everybody...
Happy Valentines day to everyone and to all you lovers out there! I hope ya`ll had a great valentines day, cos I sure did! Thanks hun for the roses, they are beautiful and also for the romantic dinner....(although I had a wrong choice of entree.) ^^ Cepet bgt ya rasanya...uda 2 taon kita pacaran. aku bersyukur bgt for everything that you`ve done for me selama 2 taon ini. aku percaya the best is yet to come... So overall, Vals day this year was quite a success, despite the fact that it was raining hard and we didnt bring any umbrella at all! But anyway, i enjoyed it to the fullest.
Its almost 12.30 am n` I'm not sleepy yet, though i should be sleeping cause i need to wake up super early to study for my mgmt exam on monday! ughhh...
A few days ago, my friends and I was talking about our greatest pet peeves and I just thought of sharing it with you guys since its late and I CANT SLEEP yet... hehhee...There are 3 major petpeeves that I just cant stand at all. Dont take it offensive or personal in any way, this is just been my main petpeeves that i personally can NOT stand at all.
First, I can not stand prank callers. I dont understand what's their deal. What do they get out of it? It annoys me so much, and its the most immature and foolish act you can ever do. Ever since last year, I've been getting prank calls from some annoynomous person and that block number has been calling me several NUMEROUS times every SINGLE day. And i dont mean calling and hanging up. They would call me very late at night or sometimes in the morning, and they would call me constantly without speaking. Its completely unneccessary. A few weeks ago, that same person called me 52+ time constantly. It was to the point that I felt harassed. Grow up n` get a life. I used to laugh about it, but now its not even funny anymore. Its a form of harrassment and if i could track that person down, I would in a heartbeat. I would be thrilled and love to know who has been prank calling me these past couple of months. But... I finally changed my number, and so I guess I'm save now.
Second, people who hate or dislike me for no complete reason. Dont get me wrong, I could care less if people dislike me for whatever reason, but its the fact that some people who hates me doesnt even know the real me. It just bothers me because I obviously did`nt do anything to them, and here, they are hating me. Why? i dont understand you. If you dont like me, that's fine. If you want to criticize me, thats fine with me too. But at least give me a concrete reason as to why you dislike me. And if i hurt anyone or said something wrong, then I'm sorry. But there is no reason to hate and criticize people that you dont KNOW at all. Get to know the person before you make any judgements. I used to be one of them, but I realized that it was wrong. I know that I'm not perfect as a person, and i would love to be better, that's why i chose to stop criticizing people by the way they look, especially. I realized that people who criticize other people are`nt satisfied with their own life. Look yourself in the mirror...Please, noone in this world is perfect.
Lastly, i dont know if this is considered as a petpeeve, but i am realllllyyyy realllllyyy reallllyyyy disgusted by people who CAN NOT flush the toilet in public restrooms. SERIOUSLY, it's really disgusting and unrespectful to other people. Is it so hard to just flush after yourselves? I really can not stand bathroom stalls that are dirty. I understand that "public" restrooms arent supposed to be clean and shiny, but it's really not that hard to flush the toilet!!!
Happy Valentines day to everyone and to all you lovers out there! I hope ya`ll had a great valentines day, cos I sure did! Thanks hun for the roses, they are beautiful and also for the romantic dinner....(although I had a wrong choice of entree.) ^^ Cepet bgt ya rasanya...uda 2 taon kita pacaran. aku bersyukur bgt for everything that you`ve done for me selama 2 taon ini. aku percaya the best is yet to come... So overall, Vals day this year was quite a success, despite the fact that it was raining hard and we didnt bring any umbrella at all! But anyway, i enjoyed it to the fullest.
Its almost 12.30 am n` I'm not sleepy yet, though i should be sleeping cause i need to wake up super early to study for my mgmt exam on monday! ughhh...
A few days ago, my friends and I was talking about our greatest pet peeves and I just thought of sharing it with you guys since its late and I CANT SLEEP yet... hehhee...There are 3 major petpeeves that I just cant stand at all. Dont take it offensive or personal in any way, this is just been my main petpeeves that i personally can NOT stand at all.
First, I can not stand prank callers. I dont understand what's their deal. What do they get out of it? It annoys me so much, and its the most immature and foolish act you can ever do. Ever since last year, I've been getting prank calls from some annoynomous person and that block number has been calling me several NUMEROUS times every SINGLE day. And i dont mean calling and hanging up. They would call me very late at night or sometimes in the morning, and they would call me constantly without speaking. Its completely unneccessary. A few weeks ago, that same person called me 52+ time constantly. It was to the point that I felt harassed. Grow up n` get a life. I used to laugh about it, but now its not even funny anymore. Its a form of harrassment and if i could track that person down, I would in a heartbeat. I would be thrilled and love to know who has been prank calling me these past couple of months. But... I finally changed my number, and so I guess I'm save now.
Second, people who hate or dislike me for no complete reason. Dont get me wrong, I could care less if people dislike me for whatever reason, but its the fact that some people who hates me doesnt even know the real me. It just bothers me because I obviously did`nt do anything to them, and here, they are hating me. Why? i dont understand you. If you dont like me, that's fine. If you want to criticize me, thats fine with me too. But at least give me a concrete reason as to why you dislike me. And if i hurt anyone or said something wrong, then I'm sorry. But there is no reason to hate and criticize people that you dont KNOW at all. Get to know the person before you make any judgements. I used to be one of them, but I realized that it was wrong. I know that I'm not perfect as a person, and i would love to be better, that's why i chose to stop criticizing people by the way they look, especially. I realized that people who criticize other people are`nt satisfied with their own life. Look yourself in the mirror...Please, noone in this world is perfect.
Lastly, i dont know if this is considered as a petpeeve, but i am realllllyyyy realllllyyy reallllyyyy disgusted by people who CAN NOT flush the toilet in public restrooms. SERIOUSLY, it's really disgusting and unrespectful to other people. Is it so hard to just flush after yourselves? I really can not stand bathroom stalls that are dirty. I understand that "public" restrooms arent supposed to be clean and shiny, but it's really not that hard to flush the toilet!!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
"Top 5 Destination Places I want to go before I die"
I`ve always wanted to travel. Who does`nt want to travel all over the world? Although there are many MANY MANY places that I want to visit, I know its just too impossible. So I roughly cut them down to 5, and these top 5 places are a must go places before I die. :)
(1.) Alaska
I know. You must be wondering 'why in the world would you go to Alaska?' I dont know why. I've always been fascinated by the wonders of that place. The snow...The mountains...the weather...talk about whales! I want to experience the lifestyle of the people that lives there. Their lifestyle must be different then mines, since Alaska is nothing but snow and mountains? I want to at least have the experience before I die. Oh, and do people really live in igloos? (sp?) hahah....duhh, i dont even know.
(2.) Paris, France
Who would`nt want to go to Paris!? Paris, in my eyes is one of the most romantic must go places, and yes, I will go there someday :) The fashion...The city...The food...the lights at night..it's simply wonderful. Of course, someday when I'm married, I will go there with my hubby. The main reason why I want to go there is for its fashion. Although I cant draw or design clothes or what not, I always admire those top designers and I'm truly inspired by those top models i see in the runway. Maybe someday I can be part of the fashion industry, but for now, all i can do is try to be successful in whatver I'm doing, and maybe...just maybe, in the future fashion may be my calling.
(3.) Bahamas
When I was deciding what island I want to visit, I felt stuck. There is Hawaii, Cabo, Bali...and many many other islands that would be so romantic to go to especially for honeymoon. heheh. But, again, I'm fascinated by the beaches there. Seems so relaxing and one of the hit places I would want to go for my honeymoon. But again, I cant decide that now. I know I would change my mind overtime...haha. If you guys dont know me, I'm in love beaches. I love it, especially on a beautiful sunny day. I can lay down in the beach the whole day, watching the waves and just enjoying the weather without being disturbed.
(4.) Africa
I have a passion to help the people of Africa. If I had the fund to help them right now, I would go there in a heart beat. I've seen many commercials/donations in TV of those kids in Africa that is in deep need of food, shelter and education. But i dont trust those people that holds those donations. I would donate if I knew where my money is going to, but the truth is we dont know where the money is going. They advertise saying that our money will help the people of Africa, but honestly, I would just go there myself and give money, food, toys etc...MYSELF. Maybe that time isnt anytime soon, but I want to go there someday, and I will help even if I cant help anyone. I'm aware that the cost to even going there is very costly, and yes, its very corrupted, but if I was rich or if i HAD enough money to help those people, I would. Again, its my opinion, noone has to agreee with ME.
(5.) empty
I left the last one empty, because it can be anything? Ill leave the 5th one blank for me to decide later. Theres just too many places to decide to go, its so hard to decide.
If people want to comment and say bad things about my blog then you might as well not comment, because it is my blog, and clearly, I can say whatever I feel like saying. So, if you have your opinion, write it in your own blog, ok? thank you :)
(1.) Alaska
I know. You must be wondering 'why in the world would you go to Alaska?' I dont know why. I've always been fascinated by the wonders of that place. The snow...The mountains...the weather...talk about whales! I want to experience the lifestyle of the people that lives there. Their lifestyle must be different then mines, since Alaska is nothing but snow and mountains? I want to at least have the experience before I die. Oh, and do people really live in igloos? (sp?) hahah....duhh, i dont even know.
(2.) Paris, France
Who would`nt want to go to Paris!? Paris, in my eyes is one of the most romantic must go places, and yes, I will go there someday :) The fashion...The city...The food...the lights at night..it's simply wonderful. Of course, someday when I'm married, I will go there with my hubby. The main reason why I want to go there is for its fashion. Although I cant draw or design clothes or what not, I always admire those top designers and I'm truly inspired by those top models i see in the runway. Maybe someday I can be part of the fashion industry, but for now, all i can do is try to be successful in whatver I'm doing, and maybe...just maybe, in the future fashion may be my calling.
(3.) Bahamas
When I was deciding what island I want to visit, I felt stuck. There is Hawaii, Cabo, Bali...and many many other islands that would be so romantic to go to especially for honeymoon. heheh. But, again, I'm fascinated by the beaches there. Seems so relaxing and one of the hit places I would want to go for my honeymoon. But again, I cant decide that now. I know I would change my mind overtime...haha. If you guys dont know me, I'm in love beaches. I love it, especially on a beautiful sunny day. I can lay down in the beach the whole day, watching the waves and just enjoying the weather without being disturbed.
(4.) Africa
I have a passion to help the people of Africa. If I had the fund to help them right now, I would go there in a heart beat. I've seen many commercials/donations in TV of those kids in Africa that is in deep need of food, shelter and education. But i dont trust those people that holds those donations. I would donate if I knew where my money is going to, but the truth is we dont know where the money is going. They advertise saying that our money will help the people of Africa, but honestly, I would just go there myself and give money, food, toys etc...MYSELF. Maybe that time isnt anytime soon, but I want to go there someday, and I will help even if I cant help anyone. I'm aware that the cost to even going there is very costly, and yes, its very corrupted, but if I was rich or if i HAD enough money to help those people, I would. Again, its my opinion, noone has to agreee with ME.
(5.) empty
I left the last one empty, because it can be anything? Ill leave the 5th one blank for me to decide later. Theres just too many places to decide to go, its so hard to decide.
If people want to comment and say bad things about my blog then you might as well not comment, because it is my blog, and clearly, I can say whatever I feel like saying. So, if you have your opinion, write it in your own blog, ok? thank you :)
Friday, February 06, 2009
Have you ever felt as though your life is so limited? I tend to think about my future too much. Some say its a good thing, some say its something that I shouldnt worry about at this moment. When I think about my future, I think about living here in the States. Never in my mind did I thought about living in a different country. I love America, I see myself living here and having a family here in the future. I have so many hopes and dreams...so many things I want to accomplish. I see myself being successful here in America. But lately, I realized that it doesnt matter where I am. It doesnt matter where I live. As long as the place I'm in, is a place where I can be successful and happy, then that's all it matters. My mind tells me that America is the place I should be forever, my home. I guess my perspective has changed. I no longer care where I end up later in future anymore. It doesnt matter to me where I will end up. I know whereever I will be will be my calling, and the place I will land is God's plan for me. I'm accepting changes. I believe that's what will make me a stronger as an individual.
As humans, were not perfect. I've made many mistakes in the past..may it be personal things, or education....I know i should have done better. But you know what? I never regret a single day. I realized that the mistakes I made pushes me to go foward and be better. I want to be the best. A few weeks ago, my professor was talking about the economy and how America isnt getting better, but getting worse. In times like this, he said, we students should strive harder and take education to a higher level. We shouldnt graduate and live our lives as mediocre, but we should rise above mediocre. Especially with the economy like this, companies will want someone who is the best, not mediocre. Then i thought to myself...."wow that is true." What is the purpose of going to school if we arent going for the best? People would want to hire the best of the best. Not mediocre. That hit me. I realized that now isnt the time to be playing around anymore...Well, maybe I should have realized that when i first started university!!! haha...but I guess i was so closed minded. ^^
As humans, were not perfect. I've made many mistakes in the past..may it be personal things, or education....I know i should have done better. But you know what? I never regret a single day. I realized that the mistakes I made pushes me to go foward and be better. I want to be the best. A few weeks ago, my professor was talking about the economy and how America isnt getting better, but getting worse. In times like this, he said, we students should strive harder and take education to a higher level. We shouldnt graduate and live our lives as mediocre, but we should rise above mediocre. Especially with the economy like this, companies will want someone who is the best, not mediocre. Then i thought to myself...."wow that is true." What is the purpose of going to school if we arent going for the best? People would want to hire the best of the best. Not mediocre. That hit me. I realized that now isnt the time to be playing around anymore...Well, maybe I should have realized that when i first started university!!! haha...but I guess i was so closed minded. ^^
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
hey everybody...
I know I havent blogged in a while. I've been getting used to my schedule for school and though it is not as scattered as last semester, and though i only have 4 classes, most of my classes are full of mathematics! Unfortunately, I didnt get in to the other 2 classes that I want to take, but I guess everything has its own reason and purpose. Maybe its better off for me to take 4 classes instead of 6 because the courses I'm taking this semester is truly a super killer!!!
Anyway, enough of school. I'm actually in starbucks right now, drinking signiture hot chocolate as usual and trying to finish up some marketing assignments! I love taking online classes but there are the goods and bads of it. The good is that it's very convenient. You can listen and take quized whenever you want, upon your own avaliability. But the bad is that I tend to get lazy and procrastinate. But this semester, I'm aiming for all A's and B's. Hopefully, I can earn it :)
My friend just downloaded my webcam in my computer and I'm super excited to use it!
olllright guys, gotta head back studying x(
bless`d day,
Jessica
I know I havent blogged in a while. I've been getting used to my schedule for school and though it is not as scattered as last semester, and though i only have 4 classes, most of my classes are full of mathematics! Unfortunately, I didnt get in to the other 2 classes that I want to take, but I guess everything has its own reason and purpose. Maybe its better off for me to take 4 classes instead of 6 because the courses I'm taking this semester is truly a super killer!!!
Anyway, enough of school. I'm actually in starbucks right now, drinking signiture hot chocolate as usual and trying to finish up some marketing assignments! I love taking online classes but there are the goods and bads of it. The good is that it's very convenient. You can listen and take quized whenever you want, upon your own avaliability. But the bad is that I tend to get lazy and procrastinate. But this semester, I'm aiming for all A's and B's. Hopefully, I can earn it :)
My friend just downloaded my webcam in my computer and I'm super excited to use it!
olllright guys, gotta head back studying x(
bless`d day,
Jessica
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
A Depression in my University
I've never experience anything in my life more brutal then trying to add a class in state. I'm telling you, I've never ever seen anyone desperately wanting to go to class. I started my spring semester just a few days ago and it feels like WAR and competition all over. I've been trying to add as many classes possible in the business department, but everything, and i mean EVERYTHING is full. My state alone is experiencing a crazy budget cuts meaning they laid off so many professors and cut down 300+ courses, leaving us students with NOTHING! This budget cut is killing me. I'm actually thankful that I'm registered for 4 classes, but honestly the classes that I have wasnt the ones that I need the most...ughhh beteeee! I'm so desperate to find a class! I even stayed for the whole entire class, begged, and when the teacher said no, I even emailed them. but guess what? THEY WONT LET ME IN...duhhh, annoying bgttttt.
And you know what's more irritating? Usually, every year, we can sell our books back, or maybe people like me, I sell my books in craiglist or what not, but this year...they made a new rule. They wont let us sell old textbooks. So every semester/year, they bring out new editions of textbooks so we wont be able to sell our books. This is why publishers get so much money. I actually sold a textbook to someone from craiglist, and she called me a week later saying that she isnt able to use the book because they came in with a new edition. how whack is that? Me being the kind hearted gal, I gave her money back. I dont blame her lah... US is going through a major economic crisis...soon to be like the Depression. (i hope not) hehe...
ollrighttt, gotta head to work now. thanks to those who read my blog full of rantingsss (is that even a word?) haha.... :)
blessed day
Jess
And you know what's more irritating? Usually, every year, we can sell our books back, or maybe people like me, I sell my books in craiglist or what not, but this year...they made a new rule. They wont let us sell old textbooks. So every semester/year, they bring out new editions of textbooks so we wont be able to sell our books. This is why publishers get so much money. I actually sold a textbook to someone from craiglist, and she called me a week later saying that she isnt able to use the book because they came in with a new edition. how whack is that? Me being the kind hearted gal, I gave her money back. I dont blame her lah... US is going through a major economic crisis...soon to be like the Depression. (i hope not) hehe...
ollrighttt, gotta head to work now. thanks to those who read my blog full of rantingsss (is that even a word?) haha.... :)
blessed day
Jess
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I was talking to one of my best friends just a while ago, and he told me about his past back at home and how he never really revealed it and shared it with anyone and now, its all coming back to him and wishing he had some more time to spend with her. Now, their both in a very different world, and how their worlds are too far apart, and how time has been wide deep.
This reminded me of all the friendships and relationships that ive encountered in the past. I`ve never regret any friendships or relationships that I encountered, because i do believe that all those things that I've encountered means a great deal to me and is still a part of my life. I'm so grateful n` thankful for all my friends that I have now, their more precious than anything. Friends are your companions, we need friends. I truly believe in that. As for friends and people that i've lost contact with, they are still apart of me and they will always be.
I dont know, maybe as a "women", i overanalyze alot. I overanalyze just about anything, everything. I analyze from the smallest to the biggest things, you can call me crazy! Honestly, there are times when i think about the past and how my life would actually be if it would still be apart of me, but at the end of the day, I think to myself. ahhh, I'm so stupid for thinking about it! the past was the past. But i cant help myself. I still think about it, and even though we live seperate lives, and heck im crazy to even be talking about this, i reallly dont mind. Our seperation was so awkward for me because for a second, i thought things would work out, but it didnt. We lived a whole seperate and different lives, different level and i wasnt ready for that and neither was it. There are times where i wonder how it is doing and how things are going with it, BUT i feel dumb to even care because caring for someone that doesnt even care about you is pointless. this is getting too long.
This reminded me of all the friendships and relationships that ive encountered in the past. I`ve never regret any friendships or relationships that I encountered, because i do believe that all those things that I've encountered means a great deal to me and is still a part of my life. I'm so grateful n` thankful for all my friends that I have now, their more precious than anything. Friends are your companions, we need friends. I truly believe in that. As for friends and people that i've lost contact with, they are still apart of me and they will always be.
I dont know, maybe as a "women", i overanalyze alot. I overanalyze just about anything, everything. I analyze from the smallest to the biggest things, you can call me crazy! Honestly, there are times when i think about the past and how my life would actually be if it would still be apart of me, but at the end of the day, I think to myself. ahhh, I'm so stupid for thinking about it! the past was the past. But i cant help myself. I still think about it, and even though we live seperate lives, and heck im crazy to even be talking about this, i reallly dont mind. Our seperation was so awkward for me because for a second, i thought things would work out, but it didnt. We lived a whole seperate and different lives, different level and i wasnt ready for that and neither was it. There are times where i wonder how it is doing and how things are going with it, BUT i feel dumb to even care because caring for someone that doesnt even care about you is pointless. this is getting too long.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
goodbye by miley c.
I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I want to forget
Is goodbye
I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then
Put it down
Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind
I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I want to forget
Is goodbye
I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then
Put it down
Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
S u r v e y
I stole this survey from my best friend Kristyne n` thought it would be fun to do it too!
Basics:
Name: Jessica
Date of Birth: Dec 3rd 1987
Birthplace: Jakarta, Indo baby!
Current Location: I should keep this private
Eye Color: brown/black
Hair Color: dark golden brown/black
Height: 5'3 ???
Heritage: Indonesian/Chinese
Piercings: my ears
Tattoos: i hate tattooss! my body is too precious
Favorites:
Band/Singer: Britney Spears will always be my fav singer!
Song: too much to mention, really...
Movie: too much to mention...i love Cameron Diaz though
Disney Movie: Cinderella
TV show: the hills & Jon and Kate plus 8
Color: pink, purple, white, black. mostly PURPLE!
Food: salad. Seriously, if I got to an American resto, i usually order salad and nothing else but salad.
Pizza topping: mushroom and pepperoni
Ice-Cream Flavor: strawberry
Drink (alcoholic): light fruity ones. no hard drinks please.
Soda: ramune. (japanese drink)
Store: Forever 21 n` Zara
Clothing Brand: i wear everything and anything that looks good on me
Shoe Brand: anything that looks fab on me
Season: i love winter the most
Month: december, not just cos its my bday, but because i love the atmosphere of the dec` weather
Holiday/Festival: Christmas/valentines/my birthday/thanksgiving
Flower: orchids makes me happy. roses makes my heart melt.
Make-Up Item: anything that i wear on my face
Board game: i dont play board games
This or That
Sunny or rainy: Sunny
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Fruit or veggie: fruit
Night or day: night
Sour or sweet: sour
Love or money: love
Phone or in person: in person
Looks or personality: personality
Coffee or tea: tea
Hot or cold: cold
Your:
Goal for this year: to be successful in life
Most missed memory: with my family in jakarta, especially with my grandpa. i miss u n` i love you!
Best physical feature: my whole body! hahha....i dont know. im satisfied with myself.
First thought waking up: "today will be a beautiful day"
Hypothetical personality disorder: i talk to much, i can be annoying, im a pain in the butt sometimes....what else? u tell me.
Preferred type of plastic surgery: LOL. umm...im satisfied with myself i guess.
Sesame street alter ego: cookie monster
Fairytale alter ego: cinderella? i dont know?
Most stupid remark: "are you from Sri Lanka?" DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM FROM SRI LANKA? duhh...
Worst crime: never
Greatest ambition: to work in a fashion industry or a singer, haha yea believe it or not.
Greatest fear: death/coffins (talking about me already makes me shiver)
Darkest secret: im SO sensitive...
Favorite subject: marketing?
Strangest received gift: i've never really recieved a strange gift, i really want to receive one though
Worst habit: alot...the obvious one is sleeping too late!
Do You:
Smoke: no
Drink: occasionally
Curse: nope.
Shower daily: YES
Like thunderstorms: YES. i find them very fascinating.
Dance in the rain: i want to try
Sing: love singing even though my voice isnt perfect
Play an instrument: piano n` keyboard (same thing, yea?)
Get along with your parents: of cozzz
Wish on stars: i love looking at the stars
Believe in fate: very much
Believe in love at first sight: no
Can You:
Drive: yes
Sew: yes
Cook: yes
Speak another language: yes..
Dance: yes
Sing: yes
Touch your nose with your tongue: i just tried..no i cant sorry
Whistle: yes
Curl your tongue: yesss
Have You Ever:
Been Drunk: no
Been Stoned/High: what is this?
Eaten Sushi: lovesssss it!
Been in Love: he was my true first love and still is...
Skipped school: back in highschool n` sometimes in the University, haahaa...we all do...
Made prank calls: when im completely bored out of my mind!
Sent someone a love letter: alwaysss when i feel i should...haha
Stolen something: no
Cried yourself to sleep: i told you im sensitive, YES! I DO. A MILLION TIMES. IM SO EMO!
Other Questions:
What annoys you most in a person? anything that i think is annoying is what i think is annoying in a person.
Are you right or left handed? right handed
What is your bedtime? lately its been 2-3am....im training myself to sleep earlier
Name three things you can’t live without: people i love, my iphone, a picture of my family
What is the color of your room? white and green and a mix of everything
Do you have any siblings? 2 lovely sisters
Do you have any pets? OH YESSS...my cookie monster. (shih zu) love him to deathhh!!!!!
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? ugh no....
What are you nicknames? kaka n princess
Are you for or against gay marriage? i dont support it, but the hell who cares? let them LIVE!
What are your thoughts on abortion? against itttttt!
Do you have a crush on anyone? BRYAN GREENBERG IS SO HOT!
Are you afraid of the dark? sometimes.
How do you want to die? i dont want to think about it. when my time comes, i know ill be in a better place. so yea......
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? 2...i think?
Would you take a bullet for the one you love? LOL. yes for my family n hubby
What is the last law you’ve broken? shopping too much?
In a Member of the Opposite Sex:
Hair color: doesnt matter…
Eye color: doesnt matter
Height: doesnt matter
Weight: doesnt matter
Most important physical feature: doesnt matter
Biggest turn-off: GUYS WHO TALKS TOO MUCH. LIAR. CHEATERS. :)
Basics:
Name: Jessica
Date of Birth: Dec 3rd 1987
Birthplace: Jakarta, Indo baby!
Current Location: I should keep this private
Eye Color: brown/black
Hair Color: dark golden brown/black
Height: 5'3 ???
Heritage: Indonesian/Chinese
Piercings: my ears
Tattoos: i hate tattooss! my body is too precious
Favorites:
Band/Singer: Britney Spears will always be my fav singer!
Song: too much to mention, really...
Movie: too much to mention...i love Cameron Diaz though
Disney Movie: Cinderella
TV show: the hills & Jon and Kate plus 8
Color: pink, purple, white, black. mostly PURPLE!
Food: salad. Seriously, if I got to an American resto, i usually order salad and nothing else but salad.
Pizza topping: mushroom and pepperoni
Ice-Cream Flavor: strawberry
Drink (alcoholic): light fruity ones. no hard drinks please.
Soda: ramune. (japanese drink)
Store: Forever 21 n` Zara
Clothing Brand: i wear everything and anything that looks good on me
Shoe Brand: anything that looks fab on me
Season: i love winter the most
Month: december, not just cos its my bday, but because i love the atmosphere of the dec` weather
Holiday/Festival: Christmas/valentines/my birthday/thanksgiving
Flower: orchids makes me happy. roses makes my heart melt.
Make-Up Item: anything that i wear on my face
Board game: i dont play board games
This or That
Sunny or rainy: Sunny
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Fruit or veggie: fruit
Night or day: night
Sour or sweet: sour
Love or money: love
Phone or in person: in person
Looks or personality: personality
Coffee or tea: tea
Hot or cold: cold
Your:
Goal for this year: to be successful in life
Most missed memory: with my family in jakarta, especially with my grandpa. i miss u n` i love you!
Best physical feature: my whole body! hahha....i dont know. im satisfied with myself.
First thought waking up: "today will be a beautiful day"
Hypothetical personality disorder: i talk to much, i can be annoying, im a pain in the butt sometimes....what else? u tell me.
Preferred type of plastic surgery: LOL. umm...im satisfied with myself i guess.
Sesame street alter ego: cookie monster
Fairytale alter ego: cinderella? i dont know?
Most stupid remark: "are you from Sri Lanka?" DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM FROM SRI LANKA? duhh...
Worst crime: never
Greatest ambition: to work in a fashion industry or a singer, haha yea believe it or not.
Greatest fear: death/coffins (talking about me already makes me shiver)
Darkest secret: im SO sensitive...
Favorite subject: marketing?
Strangest received gift: i've never really recieved a strange gift, i really want to receive one though
Worst habit: alot...the obvious one is sleeping too late!
Do You:
Smoke: no
Drink: occasionally
Curse: nope.
Shower daily: YES
Like thunderstorms: YES. i find them very fascinating.
Dance in the rain: i want to try
Sing: love singing even though my voice isnt perfect
Play an instrument: piano n` keyboard (same thing, yea?)
Get along with your parents: of cozzz
Wish on stars: i love looking at the stars
Believe in fate: very much
Believe in love at first sight: no
Can You:
Drive: yes
Sew: yes
Cook: yes
Speak another language: yes..
Dance: yes
Sing: yes
Touch your nose with your tongue: i just tried..no i cant sorry
Whistle: yes
Curl your tongue: yesss
Have You Ever:
Been Drunk: no
Been Stoned/High: what is this?
Eaten Sushi: lovesssss it!
Been in Love: he was my true first love and still is...
Skipped school: back in highschool n` sometimes in the University, haahaa...we all do...
Made prank calls: when im completely bored out of my mind!
Sent someone a love letter: alwaysss when i feel i should...haha
Stolen something: no
Cried yourself to sleep: i told you im sensitive, YES! I DO. A MILLION TIMES. IM SO EMO!
Other Questions:
What annoys you most in a person? anything that i think is annoying is what i think is annoying in a person.
Are you right or left handed? right handed
What is your bedtime? lately its been 2-3am....im training myself to sleep earlier
Name three things you can’t live without: people i love, my iphone, a picture of my family
What is the color of your room? white and green and a mix of everything
Do you have any siblings? 2 lovely sisters
Do you have any pets? OH YESSS...my cookie monster. (shih zu) love him to deathhh!!!!!
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? ugh no....
What are you nicknames? kaka n princess
Are you for or against gay marriage? i dont support it, but the hell who cares? let them LIVE!
What are your thoughts on abortion? against itttttt!
Do you have a crush on anyone? BRYAN GREENBERG IS SO HOT!
Are you afraid of the dark? sometimes.
How do you want to die? i dont want to think about it. when my time comes, i know ill be in a better place. so yea......
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? 2...i think?
Would you take a bullet for the one you love? LOL. yes for my family n hubby
What is the last law you’ve broken? shopping too much?
In a Member of the Opposite Sex:
Hair color: doesnt matter…
Eye color: doesnt matter
Height: doesnt matter
Weight: doesnt matter
Most important physical feature: doesnt matter
Biggest turn-off: GUYS WHO TALKS TOO MUCH. LIAR. CHEATERS. :)
Friday, January 16, 2009
dear diary...
dear diary ku ingin cerita kepadamu
tentang nya yang dulu singgah di hatiku
sejak itu hidupku jadi bahagia
karena dia slalu ada di hidupku oh...
tapi kini dia menghilang
dan tak tau entah (berada) dimana
diaryku ku merindukannya
pujaanku engkau ada dimana
telah habis air matatak sekedar kata2 ku curahkan
harusnya aku berlari sampai ke ujung dunia
untuk mencarinya...
dear diary by ratu
tentang nya yang dulu singgah di hatiku
sejak itu hidupku jadi bahagia
karena dia slalu ada di hidupku oh...
tapi kini dia menghilang
dan tak tau entah (berada) dimana
diaryku ku merindukannya
pujaanku engkau ada dimana
telah habis air matatak sekedar kata2 ku curahkan
harusnya aku berlari sampai ke ujung dunia
untuk mencarinya...
dear diary by ratu
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
What is l.o.v.e ?
Love, in my definition can be anything you want it to be. Love is like an empty canvas, it can be filled with many colors but it can also be dull, just plain black and white. Love never gives up, never surrenders, but it fights for what it believes in. Love isn't a one sided game, I'm pretty sure everyone knows that. Love requires patience, even though situations might be rough, love withstands any problems. Love isn't "I win or you win." Love is being able to understand one another and being able to compromise. Above all, love is not blind. It is all about understanding and taking chances.
Many say that love is complicated,hard,hurtful and unfair. But that's the way we percieve love maybe because of past experiences. We allow ourselves to have the mindset that love is unfair and all the above. But it is wrong. Love isnt hurtful or complicated, its the most precious gift a human being ought to recieve. This is the reason why I say love can be anything you want it to be, because it is true. Love is like a prized possession. When you really truly love something, you never want to loose it or let it go. You want to keep it forever and not because you love it, but simply because that prized possession means something to you, something greather than just love itself.
Although I say love is not complicated or hurtful, the truth is, it does. But it is not because of love, its is because of us. Some people blame love and how unfair love has treated them or what not, but the truth is its not love that is the problem, it is the people who took the actions of love. I know some people who are brutally hurt and emotionally brokened inside because they were really hurt by someone, but I believe that things do happen for a reason. Sometimes we just dont realize that when one door closes, a new one will open; a better one. I've heard many stories that some who were hurt by love actually commits suicide because they could'nt take the pain any longer, and the only choice they had was suicide. I think that is so ridiculous, but again, I dont blame them. Love does hurt. But it doesnt mean we have to commit those actions, there are better way in solving them. As humans we do not realize these things, we just see what is in the table, but we dont search deeper. This is one thing that I'm still learning.
Love is delicate, its a prized possession, its worth more than anything else you will ever recieve in your life.
Many say that love is complicated,hard,hurtful and unfair. But that's the way we percieve love maybe because of past experiences. We allow ourselves to have the mindset that love is unfair and all the above. But it is wrong. Love isnt hurtful or complicated, its the most precious gift a human being ought to recieve. This is the reason why I say love can be anything you want it to be, because it is true. Love is like a prized possession. When you really truly love something, you never want to loose it or let it go. You want to keep it forever and not because you love it, but simply because that prized possession means something to you, something greather than just love itself.
Although I say love is not complicated or hurtful, the truth is, it does. But it is not because of love, its is because of us. Some people blame love and how unfair love has treated them or what not, but the truth is its not love that is the problem, it is the people who took the actions of love. I know some people who are brutally hurt and emotionally brokened inside because they were really hurt by someone, but I believe that things do happen for a reason. Sometimes we just dont realize that when one door closes, a new one will open; a better one. I've heard many stories that some who were hurt by love actually commits suicide because they could'nt take the pain any longer, and the only choice they had was suicide. I think that is so ridiculous, but again, I dont blame them. Love does hurt. But it doesnt mean we have to commit those actions, there are better way in solving them. As humans we do not realize these things, we just see what is in the table, but we dont search deeper. This is one thing that I'm still learning.
Love is delicate, its a prized possession, its worth more than anything else you will ever recieve in your life.
Monday, January 12, 2009
updates
update #1:
Im back on twitter!!! I can finally use twitter everywhere and wherever i go. It's kinda neat cause 10 year from now, i can look back, and see what i did in certain hours of the day. havent you thought how neat that would be? or maybe it's just me? hehehe.
Im back on twitter!!! I can finally use twitter everywhere and wherever i go. It's kinda neat cause 10 year from now, i can look back, and see what i did in certain hours of the day. havent you thought how neat that would be? or maybe it's just me? hehehe.
I cant believe were olready in the middle of january. Soon, it`ll be the superbowl n next thing you know, febuary is here! crazy. time goes by very fast, doesnt it?
today was such a beautiful day, sunny and warm. SF has not been warm ever since november and amazingly today was hot! I'm still on winter break until the 26th. ahhh seems so longgg. Ive been watching indo dramas and what not on youtube and its so crazy becos im so addicted to it! I slept at 3 am the other day ago, haiizz, so attached to those movies!
Jastien is back from Indo, and thanks to God, everything went smooth in the airport. ahh, I want to go back Indo so bad. shopppinggg eattting....seeing my family...how i wish to do that. :(
time to showerrr :)
today was such a beautiful day, sunny and warm. SF has not been warm ever since november and amazingly today was hot! I'm still on winter break until the 26th. ahhh seems so longgg. Ive been watching indo dramas and what not on youtube and its so crazy becos im so addicted to it! I slept at 3 am the other day ago, haiizz, so attached to those movies!
Jastien is back from Indo, and thanks to God, everything went smooth in the airport. ahh, I want to go back Indo so bad. shopppinggg eattting....seeing my family...how i wish to do that. :(
time to showerrr :)
Saturday, January 03, 2009
2009...
Happy New Years everyone! I know it's kinda late...^^
I spent my New Years with a couple of friends, had dinner and saw the fireworks in SF, and let me tell you, it was beyond crazy! It seems like half of San Franciscans were there watching the fireworks! My New Years was fun overall, though it coudld've been a better night. :)
5 days left until my huni comes home, and i'm so happy to see him, and not to mention my oleh2 (gifts) hehe. I told him to reserve one luggage just for me. i dont know if that's possible though, considering the fact that the space in the 2 luggage will be filled with foods, yumMm.
I didnt get anything for christmas, sad huh? It really sucks to have a birthday in december, especially before christmas. So, I thought of getting myself an iphone for christmas, and fortunately, i was able to upgrade, and i got myself an iphone 3g. So far, i'm loving itttt! I love how its so convenient, i can check my email,check movie times, weather, directions, i simply adore it. I also love the text messaging. iphone txt msging is not your regular SMS. When i text, i feel like i'm conversating with that person because the way its formatted, i guess? The only thing i absolutely dislike is whenever i type in indonesian language, it gives me an english language instead and i have to "x" it for it to disappear. Other than that, i absolutely love it! OH, any another thing i hate is how sometimes when im texting someone, my msg tends to DELAY. A while ago, I was texting jastien to indonesia, and he recieved my msg 3-4 hours later. When i used my old phone, it didnt happen. I dont know, maybe i had no signal? I should'nt complain though, i chose to get an iphone afterall ;)
This holiday vacation seems very long. I still have 3-4 weeks left until my school starts while other schools are starting next week. For some reason, my Uni starts later than everyone, i guess i should be happy about that!
I'm extremly excited for this year 2009. Last year before entering 2008, i didnt feel any excitement at all, but this year, i have 6 goals that i want to achieve. I believe that setting goals in life is very important, and i've learned alot that writing them down and making a check list of all the things you want to improve can really help in the process. Frankly, the ultimate reason why I'm excited for this year to come is becuase I want to challenge myself in the different areas that I personally need to work on. It's not going to be easy, but that doesnt even bother me at all. The whole point about life is to take chances and experience new challenges. I realized that you could do so much in life, you just need motivation and the "wantness" to be able to do it.
So 2009, i'm ready for you.. ^^
I spent my New Years with a couple of friends, had dinner and saw the fireworks in SF, and let me tell you, it was beyond crazy! It seems like half of San Franciscans were there watching the fireworks! My New Years was fun overall, though it coudld've been a better night. :)
5 days left until my huni comes home, and i'm so happy to see him, and not to mention my oleh2 (gifts) hehe. I told him to reserve one luggage just for me. i dont know if that's possible though, considering the fact that the space in the 2 luggage will be filled with foods, yumMm.
I didnt get anything for christmas, sad huh? It really sucks to have a birthday in december, especially before christmas. So, I thought of getting myself an iphone for christmas, and fortunately, i was able to upgrade, and i got myself an iphone 3g. So far, i'm loving itttt! I love how its so convenient, i can check my email,check movie times, weather, directions, i simply adore it. I also love the text messaging. iphone txt msging is not your regular SMS. When i text, i feel like i'm conversating with that person because the way its formatted, i guess? The only thing i absolutely dislike is whenever i type in indonesian language, it gives me an english language instead and i have to "x" it for it to disappear. Other than that, i absolutely love it! OH, any another thing i hate is how sometimes when im texting someone, my msg tends to DELAY. A while ago, I was texting jastien to indonesia, and he recieved my msg 3-4 hours later. When i used my old phone, it didnt happen. I dont know, maybe i had no signal? I should'nt complain though, i chose to get an iphone afterall ;)
This holiday vacation seems very long. I still have 3-4 weeks left until my school starts while other schools are starting next week. For some reason, my Uni starts later than everyone, i guess i should be happy about that!
I'm extremly excited for this year 2009. Last year before entering 2008, i didnt feel any excitement at all, but this year, i have 6 goals that i want to achieve. I believe that setting goals in life is very important, and i've learned alot that writing them down and making a check list of all the things you want to improve can really help in the process. Frankly, the ultimate reason why I'm excited for this year to come is becuase I want to challenge myself in the different areas that I personally need to work on. It's not going to be easy, but that doesnt even bother me at all. The whole point about life is to take chances and experience new challenges. I realized that you could do so much in life, you just need motivation and the "wantness" to be able to do it.
So 2009, i'm ready for you.. ^^
Monday, December 29, 2008
something to talk about
I know I just posted a random blog a couple of minutes ago, but this one, I just wanted to talk about something that has been flowing through my mind.
I dont know if it's just me, or maybe it is just me? but I feel like its so hard to say 'i miss you' and 'i love you' to him. i dont know. I'm so different...honestly. For example, he called me a few hours ago, and he asked me..."hun, kangen gak?" (do you miss me?) and i said..."well, gak jg seh" (not really) haha...I dont know. If I miss him, I usually dont even say it. I dont know why. I'm just that type of girl that isnt so comfortable saying those things. Ok, I do say those words once in a while, but I'm just not that type of girl who is mushy mushy cheesssy i love you baby darling type of girl! I have some friends who are soooooooooo "mushy mushy" and so attached to their bfs, and I'm just not that type of person. I dont say i love you every 30 minute or everytime he calls..I just cant be all mushy and sweeeet. hahaha, is something wrong with me? is it even normal? I reallly have no clue.
Weve been togeather for a while now, and HE SHOULD know by now that I love him and miss him at times that we dont meet, i dont even have to say it, HE SHOULD know.... but he wants me to say it every time...is it just me? *sigh* I appreciate everything he does for me, and I appreciate and thank God to have met someone so patient and kind like him, but it just aggrevates me when he gets mad if i dont say those words! I dont know...if you guys have any feedback, let me know. haha. or maybe i need to be a little bit mushy? sigh...this topic is getting too long. see you all lataaaa
jess
I dont know if it's just me, or maybe it is just me? but I feel like its so hard to say 'i miss you' and 'i love you' to him. i dont know. I'm so different...honestly. For example, he called me a few hours ago, and he asked me..."hun, kangen gak?" (do you miss me?) and i said..."well, gak jg seh" (not really) haha...I dont know. If I miss him, I usually dont even say it. I dont know why. I'm just that type of girl that isnt so comfortable saying those things. Ok, I do say those words once in a while, but I'm just not that type of girl who is mushy mushy cheesssy i love you baby darling type of girl! I have some friends who are soooooooooo "mushy mushy" and so attached to their bfs, and I'm just not that type of person. I dont say i love you every 30 minute or everytime he calls..I just cant be all mushy and sweeeet. hahaha, is something wrong with me? is it even normal? I reallly have no clue.
Weve been togeather for a while now, and HE SHOULD know by now that I love him and miss him at times that we dont meet, i dont even have to say it, HE SHOULD know.... but he wants me to say it every time...is it just me? *sigh* I appreciate everything he does for me, and I appreciate and thank God to have met someone so patient and kind like him, but it just aggrevates me when he gets mad if i dont say those words! I dont know...if you guys have any feedback, let me know. haha. or maybe i need to be a little bit mushy? sigh...this topic is getting too long. see you all lataaaa
jess
Sunday, December 28, 2008
random
I can`t believe in 3 days were entering 2009. I'm really looking foward for 2009. Looking back in my 2008 resolution list, I'm amazed that all my goals were accomplished, and all those boxes that i drew next to my goals are checkmarked. Most of my goals for this coming new year has to do with self transformation and self constructive-tism..haha if there is such word for that? But whatever my new year resolution may be, I have faith I can conquer them.
San Francisco has never been so empty! SERIOUSLY...All my friends are all in Indo and most of my family members are in Indo, and church has never been this empty, and he is also in Indo..so that makes my holiday so lonely! Not to sound like a loner or anything, but honest, THIS holiday sucks. ahhhh :x i shouldnt complain! ok enough.
I miss him dearly...come home soon hunny. i wish i could be there with you, but i understand you have to go back. :( sometimes when the person you love is present, you take him/her for granted, and when that person leaves, that is when you truly realize how much you miss him/her. miss you and love you so much.
jess
San Francisco has never been so empty! SERIOUSLY...All my friends are all in Indo and most of my family members are in Indo, and church has never been this empty, and he is also in Indo..so that makes my holiday so lonely! Not to sound like a loner or anything, but honest, THIS holiday sucks. ahhhh :x i shouldnt complain! ok enough.
I miss him dearly...come home soon hunny. i wish i could be there with you, but i understand you have to go back. :( sometimes when the person you love is present, you take him/her for granted, and when that person leaves, that is when you truly realize how much you miss him/her. miss you and love you so much.
jess
Friday, December 26, 2008
ho ho ho....
hey guys,
I'm back from LA. My trip to LA was super fun, despite the cold weather and heavy rain. :( I didnt expect it to rain in LA, I thought LA weather would be nice and sunny, but unfortunately I was totally wrong. Even though the weather was ugly, we still had fun anyways. We went to Hollywood,Melrose,Beverly Hills n` Universal Studios. I wish i could stay there longer, but some of my friends had to go back to work. *snifsnif*
I forgot, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! :) I hope you guys had a merry merry christmas filled with joy and happiness. I sure didnt. :( This christmas sucked big time, maybe because we didnt really plan anything, and most of my friends are in Indo, and plus, my family didnt really plan anything this year so I just stayed at home the whole day becos everywhere is closed! andd...had dinner at home with the family and della. ahhhh, my grammer is a mess, but i dont care!
jastien is still in indo and wont be coming back till the 8th of january. He starts school on the 5th, but because its the holiday, the flight is booked so his on the waiting list for the 3rd and 5th. I just hope he gets a flight before the 8th. i miss him bunch. I guess its when that person leaves is when you really miss them. I guess i just gotta cope with it!!!!
my vacation is sooooo longggggg...im happpy about it, but theres absolutely nothing to do. If i go to the mall, I will end up shopping and thats not good. hehhe :) I still want to go SD because I've been dying to go there but never get the chance to. well see...
alright guys, i dont know what i'm talking about anymore. I feel like i'm going all over the place with my random unecessary thoughts. haha..
merry christmas once again. :)
Jess
I'm back from LA. My trip to LA was super fun, despite the cold weather and heavy rain. :( I didnt expect it to rain in LA, I thought LA weather would be nice and sunny, but unfortunately I was totally wrong. Even though the weather was ugly, we still had fun anyways. We went to Hollywood,Melrose,Beverly Hills n` Universal Studios. I wish i could stay there longer, but some of my friends had to go back to work. *snifsnif*
I forgot, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! :) I hope you guys had a merry merry christmas filled with joy and happiness. I sure didnt. :( This christmas sucked big time, maybe because we didnt really plan anything, and most of my friends are in Indo, and plus, my family didnt really plan anything this year so I just stayed at home the whole day becos everywhere is closed! andd...had dinner at home with the family and della. ahhhh, my grammer is a mess, but i dont care!
jastien is still in indo and wont be coming back till the 8th of january. He starts school on the 5th, but because its the holiday, the flight is booked so his on the waiting list for the 3rd and 5th. I just hope he gets a flight before the 8th. i miss him bunch. I guess its when that person leaves is when you really miss them. I guess i just gotta cope with it!!!!
my vacation is sooooo longggggg...im happpy about it, but theres absolutely nothing to do. If i go to the mall, I will end up shopping and thats not good. hehhe :) I still want to go SD because I've been dying to go there but never get the chance to. well see...
alright guys, i dont know what i'm talking about anymore. I feel like i'm going all over the place with my random unecessary thoughts. haha..
merry christmas once again. :)
Jess
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